Mind Games - How Mental Can You Get?

Well that takes care of a load of that, I do remember starting this post earlier with something quite intensely reflective I guess, but oh well I guess one can hold onto one's reflections for only so long, be it mentally or virtually. The recent hiatus has not been due to the lack of opinions, oh trust me in this overly opinionated world that we live in I do have quite a lotta opinions, however, the hiatus ha been due to the lack of time to indulge in one of my few fav. pastimes. It's surprising how insufficient 24 hours in a day seems/feels like. Though I wonder if anytime in the near future we will have an overextension of time from 24 hours to 26 hours. I mean can you imagine like a global decree coming out declaring that 26 hours constitutes a day henceforth and that any notion or thought of a 24 hour day will be considered null and void?

Heck that sounds like something I'd see on some show on the tele or some sci-fi/fantasy thing that I'd read or watch. Anyway, I do hope things have been much better for the rest of you guys, life has been a bit tumultuous to say the least. There's this quirky thing 'bout it, in case you're wondering what 'it' refers to the 'it' refers to life in general, but yeah I was saying, it's a quirky thing 'cuz you always will learn something new about yourself and about the world around you on a daily basis. If not you will always learn that there are some solid concrete things about you that can never be changed and it just solidifies your opinions and views about yourself, regardless of how appreciative or depreciative they may be.

You know it's sad, in this world where we're on a constant search mission for heroes we tend to seek and destroy people who attempt to be heroes or rather who attempt to stand up for what the perception of a hero tends to be. I think we find it more convenient and much easier to criticize and put people down in this day and age than we did once upon a time. There's a severe shortage of appreciation coursing through anybody's veins these days, and not a lotta people are willing to have somebody else's back, and if they do, there's always more questions surrounding why a person willingly and voluntarily chooses to help or do something for someone than someone who has a personal agenda to fulfill. Whatever happened to doing things out of the 'goodness of your heart'? I'm sure evolution hasn't evolved us so far that we've lost our instinct to trust nor our instinct for compassion. I've had people ask me what the reason behind me being nice is, and I've often just responded with a confounded and astounded expression. This doesn't mean that I'm glorifying myself in any way, shape or form, heck I know I'm not a nice person, I don't need confirmations or testimonials 'bout that. But it surprises me when a kind act is questioned more than a vile or malicious one. I mean when someone dupes you and uses you as the door mat or stepping stone towards their goals it's much easier to accept it by saying 'Oh yeah I got played, but I guess that's just the way of life. Smarten up or get stabbed in the back time after time.' Why is that? Why is it easy to justify something like that over something that falls in the realm of actions that are polar opposites?

Sure my questions might seem naive, but be honest, have you never thought 'bout it? Or are people just content in being lackadaisical about living in a world where we teach future generations not the essence or richness of harmony but rather hand down that foul smelling, acrid, corrosive element of discord? It is said that the faster you know the ways of the world the faster you grow up, well you know what? I do know a few ways of the world and most of the ways I've seen are nothing short of being immature and stupid. Heck even kids know how to handle situations better than a few "grown ups" do. Nowadays people stop at nothing short of pulling their competition down, instead of growing from the air of competitiveness most people are in the mood to strike at petty, personal things and create a huge scene. It's all about drama and the theatrical flair, heck if you love drama so much, use the damn creativity to create something on the creative scene, don't waste it on being petty and bitter.

Now I know I said in the previous post I'd post up a poem, however, I haven't exactly had a lotta time to work on it, I've got it done 'bout halfway, but knowing me I might just scrap it all and set to work on a new one. None the less, it'll be up whenever it's done and done and ready, that's 'bout all I can say at the moment. Besides that, any of you people artists? Or rather, any of you peepz know how to draw? I kinda would appreciate a few pointers, I've had this entire action sequence stuck in my head and it's moving like the Max Payne bullet time sequence scenes, and yes it is getting a lil' annoying. I guess that's what a hyper-active imagination does to you for free huh? Well it is free entertainment but to me it also is something I feel the need to yank out and put on a piece of paper or sum'n. I feel like it's taking up all this space on the mental hard drive, I'm telling ya I need to get an external for the brain. I think people today get way more information than they used to once upon a time. Well, I should be on my way towards achieving sum'n if not accomplishing sum'n in my life at least for today :P, forget long term planning, that's the one kinda planning I never got into. I'm the kinda person who takes it hard when the small things don't work out at times, so imagine when the big things fall apart? :|...yeah I do admit I have a wide and expansive imagination but even that's too much for my imagination to come up with at this point in time. That's why I dream big, that way even if you get a reality check half way through dreaming you can still pick yourself up and move along. Well, you folks take care of yerselves now, and good luck with all the things coming your way :D, I'll check back in soon.

Yo Yo...Check it out...Here comes the 5-0!! ..

No no people, it's not the cops jeez...I'm not all that morally or principally devoid just yet to have them chase me down just yet lol, heck they'd prolly throw me in for an overuse of words :|. Wow, this post feels like one of those special edition milestone episodes a show reaches. Like one of those milestone 100 or 150th episode, where something special and major happens to the story line. Well fortunately or unfortunately, there's nothing special that's gonna happen here, however, episodes remind me of Smallville!!! This coming Friday, my fav. show in the cosmos will be airing it's 200th episode. My heartiest CONGRATULATIONS to the entire cast, crew and the entire team of SV that's given the fans/audience of the show such an amazing show for the past decade Okay going back to my celebratory mode for reaching the half century mark; So erm...I may have lied when I said that I didn't have anything special planned besides a regular post....this fresh from the oven called my brain, it has had a change of neuronal impulses and has decided to be the mastermind behind a poem. Well, one thing is for sure, it won't be part of this post, perhaps it shall be my next post or the one after. Either way, it won't feature on the half century celebrations.

Unfortunately folks, I might have a lil' problem with updating the virtual space on a regular basis, just 'cuz of the pace and rate at which things keep flying my way, well flying is an understatement....it's more of hurtling towards me like a meteor shower on a regular basis lol. Oh I could add so much more to that sentence, but I'm gonna hold that back for now. When I started this blog I had a completely different outlook/frame of mind, it was more of a festive excited one, I can't necessarily guarantee a fun read nor can I assure one....especially not after a week where I've had frustrating prank buzz calls from the thing outside our apartment at 9 at night saying the whackiest lewd things....seriously I wish people would respect and learn languages out of curiosity and not out of stupidity. And then my housemate and I got leered at by these really old guys/grandpas who got outta the convenience store next to our place holding them beer cans in their hand. Okay maybe I've got it wrong and give myself too much credit :P...perhaps they were leering at the malt/barley? beverage in their hands going all Gabbar Singh on it "Muahahahaha...ab mujhse bachke kahaan jaaogi Basanti?!" Actually my roomie looked like she was ready to clock the 2 old farts more than I was. Aah people, we're an interesting breed aren't we? We're walking, talking contradictions, we find it within, among and around us. Why can't we mitigate that thing called differences and put it aside and learn to grow together, we can all accomplish so much together rather than turning on one another. I know we're not all the same in terms of our strengths, characters, values and principles....but don't we all live and breathe for the same reason? Ultimately aren't we all looking for satisfaction? And aren't we all working towards a purpose? Be that purpose whatever it may be.

None the less, I have a few things I want done this weekend, one of them being the fleshing out of this scene I've had in my head for the last 2 days now, actually I should flesh out more of that story as my mind has been flashing different images for chapters to add to that story. I dunno maybe in time I might post excerpts on here I'm not sure of it just yet though, juc' 'cuz those of ya'll who know me know my penchant for words. The one thing I'm super excited 'bout though is this lil' silly thing I did over 2 days ago...I kinda got myself my Christmas present lol, well unless when I get home I get myself a few books, then that will be my christmas present at that point in time lol. So a few days ago I finally bought something I've been eying for almost the last 3 or 4 years, and, I guess I just have all those fluttery butterflies of anticipation and excitement to get my hands on my package. That way I have something more to look forward to on that yellow brick road home. You see a few years ago I stumbled across these Superman dog tags on the Christopher Reeve Foundation website, I'd keep checking it out time and again, I mean the proceeds go towards research but I hadn't felt like I earned it. I still don't feel that way 'bout it, but it's inspiration enough and sometimes all you need is that sliver and glimmer of hope to get you through. So yes I finally caved in and got it, didn't quite figure out where it was on his foundation website, however I did get it through the Warner brothers website and the proceeds are still going towards a good cause. Christopher Reeves you'll always be the greatest and the original "Superman" the world has ever known!!

A'ite kids I'm gonna head back to my world of factors causing factors and battle my own lil' battles of akademia that like to beat me down quite often. But apparently those battles didn't or I guess haven't yet realized that I wasn't born into the God of War a.k.a Ares' time of the year for no reason. I mean we do put up quite the battle skills all the way to the end....that's how we roll from start to finish. While I'm on my way out, I just had one more thing to share with you guys...this is a blog one of the most amazing and extraordinary visionaries that I'm proud to call a friend, twin and family; has been working on for I guess a year or 2 now. It's a graphic novel which I think has a lot of potential and scope. It has a very interesting story line and I think this is something very relevant in today's times; what with the very interesting political scenarios that we've seen come into play around the world. Here's the link, if my insufficient description piques your curiosity, definitely take a look though and if all is well they'll actually have a web comic up and running soon :D. Yeah I gotta make sure I get my autographs before superstar visionary status is achieved lol.

http://qwixotic.wordpress.com/

I hope you enjoy checkin' the above mentioned link out, 'cuz I know I'm a regular when it comes to reading updates, still working on being a regular commentor on there though. Can't wait for the next update :D. A'ite kids you take care, have yourself an awesome week and an even awesomer weekend. Woohoo!!! Go Smallville!!! Episode #200 I CANNOT freakin' wait...the ONLY silver lining to my accumulation of storm clouds, and one of the only things pulling me through the week. Take care people and good luck with anything and everything you have coming your way this week or the upcoming week, I for a fact know you might actually have a poem headed your way...that's right head for the hills duck under your table before the visual onslaught gets you :P.

Song(s) of the Day:

Song: Save Me From Myself
Artist/Band: Parker Theory
Album: A Reason To Believe
Release Date: April 28, Circa 2009

Song: Pehli Nazar Mein
OST: Race
Release Date: Circa, 2008

Public Privacy? Yeah that dun' make sense to me either

Well whaddaya know, its been a while since I posted on here. Though, to be honest I was gonna post on the 30th of September and then on the 1st but everytime I opened up the tab to write up a new Post, something came up and I got side-tracked. Now for those of you who know me, well u guys know how easily side-tracked I can get, and for those of you who don't know me then I guess you learned something new about me. Well, as those thinkers used to say/still do say or at least are quoted most of the time, its always good to learn something new everyday...in my opinion it needn't just be a skill or talent it can extend to learning sum'n new about people as well. You're able to peel back yet another layer of the metaphorical onion, minus the eye stinging, tear evoking sensations. And referring to the first few lines of this post, well I started it a few days ago, but things and other aspects of life came in the way, let's just say it's been a work in progress :P.

I hope things have been going well with everybody, be it akademian nuts or work or the quest for either 2 or quests for completely different reasons. So very recently, as in last week, I came across this news article on my google page, it was a teen suicide report actually. It was one of the saddest and infuriating things I remember reading. Well forgive me for skipping or adding details, but I'm just running with what I remember. Apparently this young man was a freshman at the University of Rutgers and his suicide was prompted by something his room mate posted online, and yeah a few of the major social networking sites, namely twitter, was involved with all of this as well. None the less, so this 18 year old was apparently a very quiet and to him self kinda guy who was a budding if not a brilliant violinist with quite a bright future and he was gay. Well what does him having to be gay have to do with anything? Well this kid's roomie decided it would be cool to post videos of him making out with some guy online. The kid asked his roomie if he could have the room between certain hours of the day and his roomie agreed, but, the bugger went to his friend/neighbour's place and accessed his webcam from his friend's room. 3 words is all I got for ya, WHAT THE HELL?!?! Whatever happened to the concept of respecting people's privacy? I mean forget the fact that the kid was gay, this isn't about being straight or gay, this is about not meddling into other people's lives and affairs. It's pretty simple and straightforward ya know? Do your own thing and mind your own business, I mean who died and gave you the power to go forth and pry yourself into everyone's business? Nobody should have to ever feel compelled to end their lives because of someone's brown nosing abilities, NOBODY should ever be able to have that much control or influence over one's thoughts, decisions and actions. Granted that the world we live in is a crazy and fast paced one, but that does not entitle one to decide to play the G-man and interfere heck intervene where one is not required.

And to top all of that off, the kid if not his friends wound up saying that he didn't do it because his roomie was gay but that he'd probably still do it if it was a girl that his roomie was spending some QT with. Seriously, WTF? How does that justify anything? And that's your stand on trying to claim your friend's innocence and support his apparently stupid sense of humour? Do these people not know where to draw the line between humour, pranks and reality? Well before I keep going on with my opinion out here, let me get the entire story out to you. So the young man found out about the incident 'cuz I assume everybody and their uncle checked out the social networking posts by the roomie and going by the herd mentality, rumours and bad news travels much faster than optimism these days. The kid found out and went and spoke to his RA or the dude/dudette in charge of that floor of the dorm the kid was at. He asked to be switched outta his current accomodations, though I'm unsure and unclear whether he did that after the first incident or the 2nd one. Yeah you'd think the roomie would shut up after the first incident right? Well, apparently he had the audacity to post up on the social network site that it was going down again, and that his roomie was having someone over between certain hours, and his comment/status said "I dare you to check this link out" during the hours that his roomie had company. I mean seriously? Come on!!! Life as a freshman has definitely gotta be more interesting, and why is it such a big deal as to what the person living next door does?

I'm not here for the whole Be Gay Screw Straight or Be Straight Ban Gay argument here, that's not even something I have the time, hustle nor energy to ponder, wonder, contemplate and argue about. It is what it is, people have the right to do whatever they choose to and don't need to justify their choices and actions once they've been made and taken. The need to justify should only exist if not arise while debating and weighing the pros and cons of said actions and choices. I mean once you've done what you've done you can't really go back in time and alter it, there's a no refund and no exchange policy as far as choices are concerned. What should matter most is the impact of your actions and choices, because each of these things affects people that we know, and we may not realize it but it sets about a ripple effect. At the end of all of this nonsense, there was more loss than gain for everybody involved...I mean forget the civil groups intervening, forget the justice system...look at the core of the matter. The world lost 2 budding souls, 2 thriving individuals who were about to embark on that journey to leave everlasting impressions and foot prints in the world they lived/live in. Now what do we have? 2 lost souls, one lost forever to his family and friends and the other losing out on the opportunity to realize his dreams, but the ultimate losers are the families of both these individuals. Imagine the loss, hurt, anger and pain these families are going through? Judging by how the news reports are going I'm assuming that they aren't even getting the chance to grieve the loss of a piece of their hearts and souls. It is truly heartbreaking as to what the world is capable of, and it saddens me to see the capacities and capabilities of mankind being misused for such idiotic things. It shakes me to my bones to know that we take such pleasure in breaking people and making them feel so trapped and imprisoned in this world that they live in. What do you guys think? How do you feel about all of this?

Well, on that note, I'm gonna finally end this post, as it's been in the making for an entire week, due to my inability to multi-task....and yes the akademian nuts took more prevalence than the mind flow. But, I do hope all is going well with you guys and good luck fer all your upcoming endeavours, I know you guys will kick some major arse in the days and tasks ahead. Take care and stay tuned for more drabbles as and when they come :).