Here's a question for you...is it really hard for people to be straightforward? And if they are straightforward is it really hard to just take 'em at face value and not think that there's a facade/mask/complete other side/ulterior motive behind their actions, thoughts and words? I ask not out of annoyance but out of genuine curiosity...have we as a race regressed so much that we have more faith, acceptance and more expectations for one's Janus like nature than for one without such a nature? I was trying to make it sound a lil' more poetic and emphatic than that, but the state in which my thoughts are all blurry and my mind is all slushy doesn't really aid/work with the whole 'spit a word out and type it right out' mode. Apparently the 'Pause' and 'Review' buttons in my head are currently faulty, so this post is fresh outta the mental oven.
Oh don't worry today is not super rant day, today is random thought and genuine question day 'bout the simplest complexities of life, and yes its also my way of procrastinating from doing that which I should be doing...i.e... furthering my worldly knowledge :D. Anyway this thought just popped into my head, well I'm sure there was a basis to it, but yeah, neway moving along...today was nostalgic in any and every way possible, actually the last few days/week and a half has been one filled with memories...which is not to say that it's a bad thing but yeah re-living and flashbackin' to memories based on the smallest things, while being a lotta fun also leave this feeling of longing in some cases and a very high flight response to other cases.
Going back to face value, I wonder if we will ever trust people for who they say they are, rather than expecting a fabrication of events, false stories or just lying in anticipation to have that "AHA! I told you so! They were too good to be true!" Aah human nature...no wonder we're the most complex and unique creatures at the moment. A'ite well that was very lil' food for thought that I wanted to share, I gotta go get me some pain killers to reduce some of that pain and sufferin' being inflicted by the friendly unwanted residents called sinuses, they don't even pay rent...sigh...oh well soon they shall be evicted and I shall be bouncing around with joy. Take care one and all and g'luck with whatever it is you guys n gals are doing or will be facing etc etc. Oh and try and keep it real, sometimes all people need is an example :). Cheers!
Songs of the Day
Song: Kata Kata
OST: Raavan
Release Date: Circa, 2010
(This song is totally for my broda..lol :P)
Song: Tera Mera Pyaar
Artist: Kumar Sanu
Album: Tera Mera Pyaar
Release Date: Circa, 2004
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
A Year Later - A lesson in Distance & Displacement .. And definitely none the wiser
And so a week passed and life moved on or did it stay stagnant? Well don't make much of a difference to me except that in a week's time I grew a year older, but OF COURSE none the wiser. I think its something that gets more apparent within the week period post the birthday celebrations, the none the wiser part not the growing up part of course. I didn't realize coming back on here after so long was gonna be harder than doing a daily post, but I guess that's bound to happen, at least it is for me considerin' how many tangents my brain gets to pick and choose from and those overfloodin' thoughts that just wanna come out and go BAM on this post. Well before you groan and go all "Oh No!!! Its gonna b a long one." I'd like to say that I can't get all of those thoughts out here on one post, they need to be split up and spread out over a period of posts. I can't say organized either 'cuz if there's anything anybody knows 'bout me, it would probably be affinity for randomness.
So how was that 'Big Day'? Well it was uneventful on the crazy ass partying side, don't get me wrong I did have a blast of sorts in a very unconventional manner haha. But more than any of that, what made my day was all the love and well wishes from people I've met at different points in my life...its almost as if every person you meet is a piece of the jigsaw puzzle that's your life. What I mean by that is, when I see these people I can remember a precise/exact moment, it needn't be the first moment I met them but it tends to be a significant moment from the memory bank, so to all you wonderful people thanks for the memories :D. I shudda known with the week starting off on a kinda high of sorts that the drop factor was just waitin' in the wings to happen. Good things in my case usually last for as long as the blink of an eye and then like the flame of a candle extinguished by a gust of wind it's gone, until the next person with a lighter or a matchbox or a book of matches lights it up again. Aah happiness aren't you a lighthouse effect, where you shine brilliantly in one moment, guide the lost and weather worn/beaten souls away from those tricky sharp rocks that life tosses at us....only you tend to make cameos in the whole life scenario.
Oh and did I mention that I got verbally and physically assaulted okay assault is a strong word but I definitely got smacked for not telling anyone it was my birthday....c'mon people its only a birthday, its just another day...okay don't toss anything at me now, its just my take on the thing. However I must say it kick started in the best way possible :) the mommy Kat called exactly @ midnight and sang me my Happy Birthday haha...I cudn't have asked for a b8r start, dad was kinda MIA at that point in time but hey he called me in later, then 4 hours or rather 4 and half hours later I had one of the sweetest and awesomest moments thus far when Sunny B was trying or rather Skyped me. We dragged Sunny B's sister into a conference call and we pretty much spent the next hour or hour and a half or so making fun of each other and laughing. You see, Sunny B's sister...Mossy B and I share the same birthday, so according to her we're 'Birthday twins'..In all honesty it was a good time, that conversation had me on a high the rest of the morning, considering how I'd been up since 7 the previous night and just that one conversation had enough endorphins in it to give me the ability to get through a Biostats class at 8 in the morning without grimacing. I'm not a huge fan of statistics...it tends to skew the normal distributed curve of my brain into sum'n non existent. Never been a huge fan of it, not years ago when I was being forced into an area of study that other people thought I was more suited for. Apparently people figured I wasn't one cut out for the Sciences, maybe I shudda been screamin' from the roof tops how I knew my stuff b8r than their ignoramus kids...'ite this tirade will stop here 'cuz if it goes on it'll take a lot more space.
Moving along with happy day, then later on in the day I got the most awesomest e-mail from my sanity, that had me going awwww for a while. The best part of the day was that I didn't get or even have a moment of home sickness during the big day but it definitely found it's way and seeped in a day or 2 after. Usually the week is a festive one as it starts off with my big day followed by the New Year and it ends off with the broda's birthday. Well its not like we throw huge ass parties or anything, but it's just the general feeling at home and the general festive environment. I just missed ringing the times in with genuine people. Yeah so I've been whining 'bout the lack of genuine people in my current space of residence, I guess I might have had a bit of that over optimism of mine cloud my vision or I just have too much faith in mankind, which might not be such a bad thing 'cuz if nobody shows any faith how is anyone supposed to have an example to lead from right?
None the less, there was one thing that I observed 'bout myself this past week that actually made me stop in my tracks and literally hit a rewind button on the memory playlist just to make sure I actually did what I did or whether it was all just a figment of my imagination. Well I wouldn't say sadly, but yeah I did surprise myself...me, the person that I'd like to believe stands for individualism, stands for people to be receptive and perceptive of others but to not conform or lose their individuality or themselves as a result of people's words or actions. I personally think if someone wants you to change so you can fit in, well tell 'em to screw off, that's my take most of the time, 'cuz if people can't appreciate you for who you are then they aren't worth your time, or your mental space nor that space in your heart. Nobody you love or vice versa should ever try and force you to be a certain way...'cuz if they do then that defeats the purpose of love now dun' it? 'Cuz that particular L word is 'bout acceptance without any boundaries, levels or differences; its the ultimate encompassing entity I think on the face of this particular planet...yeah so there's lots of hate and violence going around, but the only thing that keeps us humans going on a day to day basis is, believe it or not, love. It's a funny emotion this one, it can be expressed in the most subtle way and it can be expressed in the grandest and most lavish way possible, oh hell yeah its a funny one. Sorry I digress in a way, going back to what I was saying...so the last few days I found myself trying to someone willing to bend myself so as to be considered worthy of other people's friendship. Yeah...well when the realization hit it was a dual hit really, I was slightly annoyed by my own actions and mentally slapped myself a few times and I also realized that I guess I'm someone who can't be lonely either. The latter was more surprising 'cuz I can and I have pictured myself being the lone ranger et al. and I've never pegged myself as being someone extremely needy or unable to exist without having a significant other or nething of the sort...'cuz I've been in quite a few situations where the only person who has been there for me per-se has been myself...but I guess the basic human nature of wanting or rather needing company got to me as well huh? Well I guess the home-sickness and everything added up and took it's toll, is it too much to ask for just some decent, non-judgmental, non-clique-esque, genuine and warm company? That's not to say I don't know such people out here, I do, but I can't keep harassin' some of 'em 'cuz there are major exams and major life changes awaiting and on principle I hate imposing on anybody in any way or form.
Anyway, gettin' back to my nature change, I figured or rather felt that perhaps by allowing myself to be more mould-able I was turning people off...or unless that was my silly mind going on over-drive. The last week or few weeks has also been a lesson in deception, betrayal and just heart-ache of a kind that one may not have envisioned before or expected nor anticipated. There's still a dull ache in that partially hollow thing that beats in me, I can't believe that I invested so much just to have it kick me in the arse and in the face. It literally felt like one of those 'life mocking you in the face' moments. I guess that's what I get for trying to give people a chance while others just slot 'em and box 'em into categories. Yeah the whole episode has me bummed out and doubtful 'bout people's true natures and just makes me question if nething at all is worth it? I mean if flesh and blood can rip you apart without a second's hesitation...if flesh and blood can completely fuck up your life, your future, your own fucking mind-set then how much more can the outside world do? Are we as people really all that fickle? Are our wills really that weak...that malleable that we'd trade whatever it is that we've always believed in, in a heartbeat? What I learned this past week and a half or two or actually a lil' more than that but it was sorta kinda enforced a lot more in the past week or so; is how we can be such ungrateful wretches. I really and truly hope that I never do or invoke such feelings within people whose paths have intersected mine. If I have I truly am very sorry and I never intended on doing so, I know saying that doesn't solve the problem but I do mean every word that I've said. Sometimes I don't realize things, and if anyone ever feels like I'm over-stepping the boundaries it would be much appreciated if you stepped in and tol' me I've crossed a line...
Growin' up sucks dun' it? Things are so much easier when you're that lil' kid running wild and free in the park without a care in the world, where your biggest concern is not being able to go higher on the swing than that other kid who was on it before you, or that you'd get into major trouble with the maternal unit if you got more grass stains than necessary on your clothes. Where everything around you couldn't be either black or white but was an array of colours ranging the entire spectrum of colours imaginable and unimaginable I guess.
A'ite guys, I'm gonna sign off here, I guess just re-visitin' those events from the past few weeks drained me more than I imagined it would. Here's hopin' we aren't as bad as a few rotten apples would like to showcase us to be, yes so I still have some hope and faith in humanity...maybe it's a limited time offer or sum'n...but I'd rather have people giving me a chance to show them who I am than having to be judged by others. Not that the latter hasn't happened to me in the past, its happened way too many times that I can't even remember how many times its happened. But I'd rather have faith in a brighter and better future than a bleaker gloomier one, it makes the whole purpose of living thing a lil' more worthwhile. Take care peepz and until next time good luck with everything that you gotta take care of and remember don't live your life completely on terms and conditions set by others, u gotta live life on your terms too 'cuz that helps you define who you are, that is what makes you stand out in a crowd and that is what makes you human. You were born a human don't change into an automated clone that does, thinks and chooses whatever someone else wants, 'cuz honestly that ain't what you want, you may think it is but if you dig a lil' deeper you'll find the real answer. Oh and to end there is something I wrote down a few days ago that I'd like to share with ye all, so please feel free to comment on it and to share your thoughts on it...
"One believes in change not out of optimism but out of experience, knowledge and wisdom." (SJ, April 21, 2002)
Cheerio ppl...and until next time have a rockin' time.
Songs
Song: Yaaron
Artist: K.K
Album: Pal
Release Date: Circa, 2000
(This song in particular is for all the amazing people in my life that I'm just plain lucky to call friends, here's to our memories and here's to making new ones. You guys mean the world to me and I hope you know that, if not imma smack you kids.)
Song: Akheer
Artist: Juggy D
Album: Juggy D
Release Date: Circa, 2004
Song: Aankhon Se Tu Door Hain
Arists: Kumar Sanu & Alka Yagnik
Album: Tera Mera Pyar
Release Date: Circa, 2004
Song: You Found Me
Artist/Band: The Fray
Album: The Fray
Release Date: Circa, 2009
So how was that 'Big Day'? Well it was uneventful on the crazy ass partying side, don't get me wrong I did have a blast of sorts in a very unconventional manner haha. But more than any of that, what made my day was all the love and well wishes from people I've met at different points in my life...its almost as if every person you meet is a piece of the jigsaw puzzle that's your life. What I mean by that is, when I see these people I can remember a precise/exact moment, it needn't be the first moment I met them but it tends to be a significant moment from the memory bank, so to all you wonderful people thanks for the memories :D. I shudda known with the week starting off on a kinda high of sorts that the drop factor was just waitin' in the wings to happen. Good things in my case usually last for as long as the blink of an eye and then like the flame of a candle extinguished by a gust of wind it's gone, until the next person with a lighter or a matchbox or a book of matches lights it up again. Aah happiness aren't you a lighthouse effect, where you shine brilliantly in one moment, guide the lost and weather worn/beaten souls away from those tricky sharp rocks that life tosses at us....only you tend to make cameos in the whole life scenario.
Oh and did I mention that I got verbally and physically assaulted okay assault is a strong word but I definitely got smacked for not telling anyone it was my birthday....c'mon people its only a birthday, its just another day...okay don't toss anything at me now, its just my take on the thing. However I must say it kick started in the best way possible :) the mommy Kat called exactly @ midnight and sang me my Happy Birthday haha...I cudn't have asked for a b8r start, dad was kinda MIA at that point in time but hey he called me in later, then 4 hours or rather 4 and half hours later I had one of the sweetest and awesomest moments thus far when Sunny B was trying or rather Skyped me. We dragged Sunny B's sister into a conference call and we pretty much spent the next hour or hour and a half or so making fun of each other and laughing. You see, Sunny B's sister...Mossy B
Moving along with happy day, then later on in the day I got the most awesomest e-mail from my sanity, that had me going awwww for a while. The best part of the day was that I didn't get or even have a moment of home sickness during the big day but it definitely found it's way and seeped in a day or 2 after. Usually the week is a festive one as it starts off with my big day followed by the New Year
None the less, there was one thing that I observed 'bout myself this past week that actually made me stop in my tracks and literally hit a rewind button on the memory playlist just to make sure I actually did what I did or whether it was all just a figment of my imagination. Well I wouldn't say sadly, but yeah I did surprise myself...me, the person that I'd like to believe stands for individualism, stands for people to be receptive and perceptive of others but to not conform or lose their individuality or themselves as a result of people's words or actions. I personally think if someone wants you to change so you can fit in, well tell 'em to screw off, that's my take most of the time, 'cuz if people can't appreciate you for who you are then they aren't worth your time, or your mental space nor that space in your heart. Nobody you love or vice versa should ever try and force you to be a certain way...'cuz if they do then that defeats the purpose of love now dun' it? 'Cuz that particular L word is 'bout acceptance without any boundaries, levels or differences; its the ultimate encompassing entity I think on the face of this particular planet...yeah so there's lots of hate and violence going around, but the only thing that keeps us humans going on a day to day basis is, believe it or not, love. It's a funny emotion this one, it can be expressed in the most subtle way and it can be expressed in the grandest and most lavish way possible, oh hell yeah its a funny one. Sorry I digress in a way, going back to what I was saying...so the last few days I found myself trying to someone willing to bend myself so as to be considered worthy of other people's friendship. Yeah...well when the realization hit it was a dual hit really, I was slightly annoyed by my own actions and mentally slapped myself a few times and I also realized that I guess I'm someone who can't be lonely either. The latter was more surprising 'cuz I can and I have pictured myself being the lone ranger et al. and I've never pegged myself as being someone extremely needy or unable to exist without having a significant other or nething of the sort...'cuz I've been in quite a few situations where the only person who has been there for me per-se has been myself...but I guess the basic human nature of wanting or rather needing company got to me as well huh? Well I guess the home-sickness and everything added up and took it's toll, is it too much to ask for just some decent, non-judgmental, non-clique-esque, genuine and warm company? That's not to say I don't know such people out here, I do, but I can't keep harassin' some of 'em 'cuz there are major exams and major life changes awaiting and on principle I hate imposing on anybody in any way or form.
Anyway, gettin' back to my nature change, I figured or rather felt that perhaps by allowing myself to be more mould-able I was turning people off...or unless that was my silly mind going on over-drive. The last week or few weeks has also been a lesson in deception, betrayal and just heart-ache of a kind that one may not have envisioned before or expected nor anticipated. There's still a dull ache in that partially hollow thing that beats in me, I can't believe
Growin' up sucks dun' it? Things are so much easier when you're that lil' kid running wild and free in the park without a care in the world, where your biggest concern is not being able to go higher on the swing than that other kid who was on it before you, or that you'd get into major trouble with the maternal unit if you got more grass stains than necessary on your clothes. Where everything around you couldn't be either black or white but was an array of colours ranging the entire spectrum of colours imaginable and unimaginable I guess.
A'ite guys, I'm gonna sign off here, I guess just re-visitin' those events from the past few weeks drained me more than I imagined it would. Here's hopin' we aren't as bad as a few rotten apples would like to showcase us to be, yes so I still have some hope and faith in humanity...maybe it's a limited time offer or sum'n...but I'd rather have people giving me a chance to show them who I am than having to be judged by others. Not that the latter hasn't happened to me in the past, its happened way too many times that I can't even remember how many times its happened. But I'd rather have faith in a brighter and better future than a bleaker gloomier one, it makes the whole purpose of living thing a lil' more worthwhile. Take care peepz and until next time good luck with everything that you gotta take care of and remember don't live your life completely on terms and conditions set by others, u gotta live life on your terms too 'cuz that helps you define who you are, that is what makes you stand out in a crowd and that is what makes you human. You were born a human don't change into an automated clone that does, thinks and chooses whatever someone else wants, 'cuz honestly that ain't what you want, you may think it is but if you dig a lil' deeper you'll find the real answer. Oh and to end there is something I wrote down a few days ago that I'd like to share with ye all, so please feel free to comment on it and to share your thoughts on it...
"One believes in change not out of optimism but out of experience, knowledge and wisdom." (SJ, April 21, 2002)
Cheerio ppl...and until next time have a rockin' time.
Songs
Song: Yaaron
Artist: K.K
Album: Pal
Release Date: Circa, 2000
(This song in particular is for all the amazing people in my life that I'm just plain lucky to call friends, here's to our memories and here's to making new ones. You guys mean the world to me and I hope you know that, if not imma smack you kids.)
Song: Akheer
Artist: Juggy D
Album: Juggy D
Release Date: Circa, 2004
Song: Aankhon Se Tu Door Hain
Arists: Kumar Sanu & Alka Yagnik
Album: Tera Mera Pyar
Release Date: Circa, 2004
Song: You Found Me
Artist/Band: The Fray
Album: The Fray
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Monday, April 12, 2010
Fuzz...Static...Fuzzzzzzzzzz
Moving on from tirades about the darker side of humanity, lets kick start this with me saying that my break has officially come to an end :(...waaaahh and it kick started with a microbiology midterm/partial. Her royal highness PP whose penchant to file more complaints than to actually set about resolving them or trying to at least figure out where they stem from, has now I think either
a) received the msg that I don't tolerate excessive whining, I mean really would you like some cheese with that? Or
b) thinks I'm an idiot and at fault and should therefore by default apologize, in which case think again chica. Or
c) I really have nothing else to do besides draw up multiple choice based opinions and dilemmas. Tee-hee-hee
See its only been Day 1 of goin' back to the grind and the wonkyness has a'ready begun...Anyway Persistence has her set of issues, hopefully they get resolved soon or else she will be the absolute and complete embodiment of that good ol' game 20 questions. Anyway, leavin' homo sapiens aside for a few moments, the sinuses have been as wonky as heading back to the grind has been. Not only have those been wonky, so has the motivation levels, my mind's been driftin' off here and there and refuses to stay put in one place at any given time. I mean I appreciate the need or rather the freedom to roam around and all that fun jazz but please don't do this at times of dire need, its hard enough that I have a dis-associative brain...add the free roamin' factor and hey looky looky its a roamin' disaster. Just trying to study for the partial today caused a complete wipe out pretty much any and every fibre of my being.
Anyway kids the countdown has begun, its time for me to start a new innings..I think...well then again every year is the start of a new innings 'en it? Well technically in my current neck of the woods...the countdown is kinda sorta done and the new innings has begun but until I get a few z's it ain't official :P...aah countdowns, I love those things and find them useful only when things are close by and not ridiculously far far away :(...for instance heading back home or jetting home for the weekend...that would be one hectic ass trip. See earlier I thought I had a lot to write, but now all my brain is churning is static and lots of it. To all the ppl. out there Happy Baisakhi/Vaisakhi, Happy Vishu and sorry if I missed out any other festivals, if I did they weren't intentional...my brain doesn't have enough space to remember all the festivals, but hey Happy Festival to you! Take care and here's to a brighter, better and friendly future! Cheers!
Songs of the Day
Song: Look After You
Artist/Band: The Fray
Album: How To Save A Life
Release Date: Circa, 2005
Song: Love Struck
Artist/Band: V-Factory
Album: apparently it still is in the TBA section
Release Date: Circa, 2009
a) received the msg that I don't tolerate excessive whining, I mean really would you like some cheese with that? Or
b) thinks I'm an idiot and at fault and should therefore by default apologize, in which case think again chica. Or
c) I really have nothing else to do besides draw up multiple choice based opinions and dilemmas. Tee-hee-hee
See its only been Day 1 of goin' back to the grind and the wonkyness has a'ready begun...Anyway Persistence has her set of issues, hopefully they get resolved soon or else she will be the absolute and complete embodiment of that good ol' game 20 questions. Anyway, leavin' homo sapiens aside for a few moments, the sinuses have been as wonky as heading back to the grind has been. Not only have those been wonky, so has the motivation levels, my mind's been driftin' off here and there and refuses to stay put in one place at any given time. I mean I appreciate the need or rather the freedom to roam around and all that fun jazz but please don't do this at times of dire need, its hard enough that I have a dis-associative brain...add the free roamin' factor and hey looky looky its a roamin' disaster. Just trying to study for the partial today caused a complete wipe out pretty much any and every fibre of my being.
Anyway kids the countdown has begun, its time for me to start a new innings..I think...well then again every year is the start of a new innings 'en it? Well technically in my current neck of the woods...the countdown is kinda sorta done and the new innings has begun but until I get a few z's it ain't official :P...aah countdowns, I love those things and find them useful only when things are close by and not ridiculously far far away :(...for instance heading back home or jetting home for the weekend...that would be one hectic ass trip. See earlier I thought I had a lot to write, but now all my brain is churning is static and lots of it. To all the ppl. out there Happy Baisakhi/Vaisakhi, Happy Vishu and sorry if I missed out any other festivals, if I did they weren't intentional...my brain doesn't have enough space to remember all the festivals, but hey Happy Festival to you! Take care and here's to a brighter, better and friendly future! Cheers!
Songs of the Day
Song: Look After You
Artist/Band: The Fray
Album: How To Save A Life
Release Date: Circa, 2005
Song: Love Struck
Artist/Band: V-Factory
Album: apparently it still is in the TBA section
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Sunday, April 11, 2010
The Darker end of the Spectrum
Sometimes one can't help but remark at the ugliness the world is composed of...people who rather flaunt their ugly personalities; ugly dispositions; ugly thoughts; ugly deeds and so goes the list. The slimy bastards that lurk around the corner waiting to leech off and mooch off more than their victims can give, and what's worse? They under-estimate the power of the poor ol' sucker they're suckin' dry. Yo uglies of the world, didn't your mamas ever teach you that what goes around comes around? Or better yet did you not listen to that song by JT when it first hit the air-waves? Well if you didn't do yourself a favour and go listen to it on youtube or something, whether you like the guy's vocals or not. And if you tell me my taste in music sucks, well I guess you're entitled to your own opinions but the point was to listen to the lyrics especially the chorus not to play the song on repeat till you drive yourself insane. Anyway, usually I try to be optimistic 'bout the world we live in but then all of a sudden all that muck and murkiness of people coupled with their jealousy, stupidity and their constant need to feed their superiority complex 'cuz God forbid someone should be better than them at some things. Oh and to that also add that someone appears to live a much better life than said desperate, superiority complex craving, bottom feeding creton....hey moron here's my question to you...How the hell do you know what the other person has been through for you to sit there and judge, evaluate and formulate the supposed story of their lives? Did you forget that part of your mortal existence that said you're a freaking mortal and not the G-man himself. Even the G-man doesn't interfere once the creation process is done, then it's a matter of how things go on from there and how the scales tip and to what side they tip.
Here's another question, before you judge someone do you ever think about things from their perspective? Or perhaps switch/trade places so as to look at the world through their eyes...only briefly? I'm pretty sure you don't, 'cuz people like you corrode yourselves, those around you and even your kids from your sheer stupidity. You believe you're the only one with the sob stories, the tales of woe, the ones who have endured extreme hardship and all that other bullshit. Well, NEWS-freakin-FLASH...jus' cuz people don't go screaming from the bloody roof-tops that life is unfair and that things didn't go as they planned or thought it would doesn't mean they don't feel or have any less of an experience than you do. So, take your fuckin' drama and shove it either down your gullet or well you know the other direction.
It's sad the times we live in, but then again human nature has always had a double edged sheen to it, twist the circumstances, twist the odds and you could possibly twist a person unless they're strong enough to fight and fight back with a bang. It's a world filled with skepticism, and if you're gonna temme it's always been that way and wake up sunshine, please don't...I'm pretty aware of how the world functions, I've seen and had my share of personal trysts with a few of it's twisted and fucked up ways, I don't need a watered down or a concentrated version of reality. I see it everyday but sometimes it's better to not be so bitter 'cuz then that just makes everything all the more depressing and gloomy for everybody else and that ultimately kills the one thing that beats the Energizer bunny when it comes to pushing, surging and rushing forward...that lil' thing called Hope. And of course I know you all have heard of that wonderful saying, 'When it rains, it pours.' Oh hell yeah it does, its called a ruddy downpour when it happens, you might as well start learning how to swim if you don't know how to...well I'm not a huge fan of swimming but I'll make sure I find some drift wood to drift along.
Usually when you fall down and look around to get up you know your family's got your back, more than anybody and everybody else you've met along the way...oh no no I'm not being cynical, in fact I'm being as realistic as I can possibly be. But..what happens when the very family who you've grown up with, who know pretty much everything, not necessarily every single thing, but they pretty much know you inside and out and share a bond greater than all bonds with you...well what happens when they don't have your back? When they give up on you and instead of helping you up, they just walk away? Then what do you do? Do you just sit there and stare in shock and despair? Cry oceans of salt water at the ghastly realization that as much as you mean or maybe meant to them they just walked away shrugging shoulders, nodding their heads in disappointment? Or in some cases stabbing you in the back and walking away patting themselves on the back for a job well done...then what do you do? I mean friends doing the walking away thing I can understand, sometimes its the user/abuser stance where its all 'Oh hey you fell off the ladder of success now I have no use for you so I'm trashing you like yesterday's trash. Adios, cheerio...you're a loser...time to catch up with the next in thing to help me move up in life.' Or sometimes its the clueless nature of 'Oh boy I really don't know how to help or what to do...I don't wanna make things worse and I don't know how to make things better so I'm gonna step back and not put my arse on the line by trying to do anything.' Though that's not to say that there aren't friends who stick around and try to help you up, but end of the day folks you're all you've got. You can sit there and wallow in self pity as long as you bloody want, but that ain't gonna make your problems disappear, you can whine all you want but end of the day all you will hear is your own echo, and hearing it frequently, constantly and repeatedly will annoy, frustrate, vex and drive you crazy...to the extent that you just get up, dust yourself and go fuck this shit, I gotta get outta here and you'll start moving. What matters outta all this is when you do it, the sooner you do it the sooner you'll appreciate it later in the future, the more delayed you are the more you're setting yourself up to kick yourself in the arse time after time, and then a new set of whining arises wherein you're crying over spilt milk and you can't go back in time and fix it. The best you can do is probably say, 'Yeah I should have, I could have but I didn't, no point in thinkin' 'bout things I can't change anymore.'
Anyway, I'm gonna end this here, the ugliness still makes my blood boil, it makes me wanna throttle and jostle someone awake and say 'HEY! Can someone fix that? Its gonna be the thing that breaks us all, somebody do something!' and I know what sorta response I will receive to that jostle...it'll be something along the lines of a shrug and advice along the lines of "If you ignore it then it won't exist, so ignore it." Yeah right, it won't exist, my right and left foot it won't exist...it exists because of that very ignorance that we all can pride ourselves for. I hope you guys are having a decent weekend, yay joy weekend and all that fun jazz that goes with it. Take care and until next time...cheerio.
Songs of the Day:
Song: Shadow Of The Day
Artist/Band: Linkin Park
Album: Minutes to Midnight
Release Date: Circa, 2007
Song: Mausam
OST: The Train
Release Date: Circa, 2007
Here's another question, before you judge someone do you ever think about things from their perspective? Or perhaps switch/trade places so as to look at the world through their eyes...only briefly? I'm pretty sure you don't, 'cuz people like you
It's sad the times we live in, but then again human nature has always had a double edged sheen to it, twist the circumstances, twist the odds and you could possibly twist a person unless they're strong enough to fight and fight back with a bang. It's a world filled with skepticism, and if you're gonna temme it's always been that way and wake up sunshine, please don't...I'm pretty aware of how the world functions, I've seen and had my share of personal trysts with a few of it's twisted and fucked up ways, I don't need a watered down or a concentrated version of reality. I see it everyday but sometimes it's better to not be so bitter 'cuz then that just makes everything all the more depressing and gloomy for everybody else and that ultimately kills the one thing that beats the Energizer bunny when it comes to pushing, surging and rushing forward...that lil' thing called Hope. And of course I know you all have heard of that wonderful saying, 'When it rains, it pours.' Oh hell yeah it does, its called a ruddy downpour when it happens, you might as well start learning how to swim if you don't know how to...well I'm not a huge fan of swimming but I'll make sure I find some drift wood to drift along.
Usually when you fall down and look around to get up you know your family's got your back, more than anybody and everybody else you've met along the way...oh no no I'm not being cynical, in fact I'm being as realistic as I can possibly be. But..what happens when the very family who you've grown up with, who know pretty much everything, not necessarily every single thing, but they pretty much know you inside and out and share a bond greater than all bonds with you...well what happens when they don't have your back? When they give up on you and instead of helping you up, they just walk away? Then what do you do? Do you just sit there and stare in shock and despair? Cry oceans of salt water at the ghastly realization that as much as you mean or maybe meant to them they just walked away shrugging shoulders, nodding their heads in disappointment? Or in some cases stabbing you in the back and walking away patting themselves on the back for a job well done...then what do you do? I mean friends doing the walking away thing I can understand, sometimes its the user/abuser stance where its all 'Oh hey you fell off the ladder of success now I have no use for you so I'm trashing you like yesterday's trash. Adios, cheerio...you're a loser...time to catch up with the next in thing to help me move up in life.' Or sometimes its the clueless nature of 'Oh boy I really don't know how to help or what to do...I don't wanna make things worse and I don't know how to make things better so I'm gonna step back and not put my arse on the line by trying to do anything.' Though that's not to say that there aren't friends who stick around and try to help you up, but end of the day folks you're all you've got. You can sit there and wallow in self pity as long as you bloody want, but that ain't gonna make your problems disappear, you can whine all you want
Anyway, I'm gonna end this here, the ugliness still makes my blood boil, it makes me wanna throttle and jostle someone awake and say 'HEY! Can someone fix that? Its gonna be the thing that breaks us all, somebody do something!' and I know what sorta response I will receive to that jostle...it'll be something along the lines of a shrug and advice along the lines of "If you ignore it then it won't exist, so ignore it." Yeah right, it won't exist, my right and left foot it won't exist...it exists because of that very ignorance that we all can pride ourselves for. I hope you guys are having a decent weekend, yay joy weekend and all that fun jazz that goes with it. Take care and until next time...cheerio.
Songs of the Day:
Song: Shadow Of The Day
Artist/Band: Linkin Park
Album: Minutes to Midnight
Release Date: Circa, 2007
Song: Mausam
OST: The Train
Release Date: Circa, 2007
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Moksha
I have always found this to be a very interesting concept...for the novices who don't know what it means, in a nutshell it means Salvation. You can look up any thesaurus, lexicon/dictionary to read up the meaning of salvation; what seems deep to one person seems as simple as putting a Kinder toy together to another. Oh and one more thing to note, I'm not gonna get all religi-miligous here 'cuz that's not wat I do, I appreciate all the opinions out there on different faiths and regardless of how many people may try to say they're all different to me they're all the same. This whole religious thing ends right here 'cuz firstly I ain't on a political or social awareness campaign, there's enough and more people and organizations doing that. If you're out for some fun in those departments go harass people who specialize in 'em and leave us small fries be. Not everyone wants to have an argument and not everyone wants to make mountains outta mole-hills.
Now, going back to salvation, I'm pretty sure when one thinks of the word salvation there's all these huge, epic, indescribable images and emotions attached with the said word. There is a certain awe, a certain mystery and intrigue 'bout what the whole concept is about. And nope I'm not gonna tell you I discovered salvation, cuz honey if I had discovered it do you think I'd be writing 'bout it? I'd probably have my own following and have a religion named after me or something...sadly my salvation comes to me in bits and pieces and people like me well...lets just say the quest for salvation is a long long...and a really long ass road ahead. Man, its days like this I miss being in my Religious Studies classes, those classes were some of the best classes I ever took back in U/G along with all the other stuff I took, I guess in a way you gain an appreciation for simplicity and for the smallest things in life. I mean yeah there are big questions posed and all that, but getting involved in classes like that it gives your mind the ability to think, to ponder, to question and often times it creates this thirst for knowledge. A knowledge I believe is quite primitive, its a basic knowledge that we're all entitled to but we tend to forget it from time to time due to other responsibilities that our lives surround us with. The thing I appreciated the most was the ability to think without any limitations, any boundaries or bias...free thinking...I know for a fact it's something that the world at the moment is severely lacking. Is it our fault? I dunno, I haven't conducted any research or studies yet to say it does or does not.
You know nowadays when I read news headlines all I see are headlines tagging how many more soldiers died, how many more people died while trying to vote, how many people were targetted by suicide bombers who apparently only seem to care 'bout decreasing our ever growing population instead of trying to do something constructive. I mean seriously you wanna blow yourself up or sum'n why don't you look into dealing with just your life and not dragging so many innocent people like mothers, fathers, the elderly and young children and babies into this? Do you actually think the G-man would appreciate you taking the lives of so many innocents so as to meet your quota of being a just, honest and good man? Then in addition to that, more headlines talk 'bout more natural disasters going on 'round the world, and this year Mama Nature decided to go with the shakin', breakin' and shatterin' nature known as the earthquake, followed by the repercussions in the form of tsunamis and landslides. So many people under rubble, so many homes gone, so much lost in the blink of an eye. To all those lost souls..I hope they rest and find some peace, and to all those families my heart and condolences go out to them. It feels like Mama Nature is on a mission of sorts, lets hope she gives up the mission soon and decides to kick back and not shake things up...both metaphorically and literally.
Like I was saying all I ever see on those headlines are wars, death tolls from said wars, natural disasters, suicide bombers, political mud-slinging and before I forget sex scandals ranging from abuse and molestation
to pedophiles to affairs. It is a real depressing state of affairs to go through the headlines. Things from the big picture point of view, by reading these headlines seems so bleak and the future looks worse than pathetic...or maybe I'm just reading the wrong newspaper. It does make me wonder how much the world will change in the next 5 yeas or the next decade, and it makes me wonder how my parents viewed the world at my age. Maybe I'm being too harsh on the 'Future is friendly' world, but the immediate global/big picture future seems a little bleak despite all the advancements and awesome-ness that everything from technology to medicine to telecommunication to engineering to the automobile industry has been promising and predicting for said immediate future. The question is, how about us? What about our advancement as human beings? Are we going to keep devolving, as it currently seems, at the rate at which we're currently devolving? No I'm not referring to any one person in particular..I think and feel that maybe we're all losing a part of ourselves slowly..its a constant everyday process. We don't even realize what we've lost until much later when we go 'Huh...there used to be a time when a part of would gladly do that, or would stand up to that nonsense and fight back. Eh, now I don't care.' okay maybe not those exact words but definitely something along those lines.
So..what the hell does salvation have to do with all of this? Like I said I'm not climbing the religious platform here, but to me salvation represents a certain zesty feeling of freedom, a freedom of breaking the shackles that holds us from daring to do something different, or the feeling of accomplishment one achieves/attains from...or when you know you've done something right, you've contributed in making a difference in someone's life. And when I say that I'm not referring to just all those wonderful people who sponsors families or kids or volunteers...to all those people hats off to you guys I mean you people have really huge hearts and I hope more people learn from your actions. But by making a difference I also mean people who stick by you through thick and thin, who you never anticipate but are just there...its like the whooshing comfort of a refreshing cool breeze on a hot summer day. Salvation comes not just from the whole concept of the Bank of Karma that we've built as a result of our deposits of Dharma as we've heard and been told...though the Karma analogy comes more in handy when really spiteful people cross our paths, but moving along...our good buddy salvation comes from the lil' things in life too. Don't let the obstacles of today or tomorrow ever cloud your confidence in yourself or make you question yourself or make you stop walking that path to your goals. You're worthy of that feeling of liberation you get from pole vaulting those damn obstacles and getting where you get to, and don't ever let anyone else take that away from you either. Its interesting how there are always people in life who like to pull you down when you're a'ready down and out, more like they like to crush you some more..eh I guess even then we're irresistible :P.
Today is the day that I'm having a moment, and such a moment supercedes all other moments until this present one and this particular present moment merges together all moments passed to form an emerging, engulfing moment...a moment of clarity, a moment of wisdom, a moment that ultimately is a rarity and defines a sense of purity in an utmost hour of adversity. Well the adversity might as well be University, in which case the utmost hour would encompass all hours that are equivalent to temporarily 2 years worth of hours followed by a lifetime of hours, but then again there is no time limit on either a moment nor salvation I guess.
A'ite people I think this one is long enough and I should give my fingers a break, they got other heavy duty work ahead of 'em, like writing and making notes and wielding the all mighty and handy HIGHLIGHTER! and handling it like light-saber...boo-yah! take that Darth Vader. Take care one and all and catchya later, good luck with all the things you all are dealing with. Cheers!
Songs of the Day:
Song: You And Me
Artist/Band: Lifehouse
Album: Lifehouse
Release Date: Circa, 2005
Song: Look After You
Artist/Band: The Fray
Album: How To Save A Life
Release Date: Circa, 2005
Now, going back to salvation, I'm pretty sure when one thinks of the word salvation there's all these huge, epic, indescribable images and emotions attached with the said word. There is a certain awe, a certain mystery and intrigue 'bout what the whole concept is about. And nope I'm not gonna tell you I discovered salvation, cuz honey if I had discovered it do you think I'd be writing 'bout it? I'd probably have my own following and have a religion named after me or something...sadly my salvation comes to me in bits and pieces and people like me well...lets just say the quest for salvation is a long long...and a really long ass road ahead. Man, its days like this I miss being in my Religious Studies classes, those classes were some of the best classes I ever took back in U/G along with all the other stuff I took, I guess in a way you gain an appreciation for simplicity and for the smallest things in life. I mean yeah there are big questions posed and all that, but getting involved in classes like that it gives your mind the ability to think, to ponder, to question and often times it creates this thirst for knowledge. A knowledge I believe is quite primitive, its a basic knowledge that we're all entitled to but we tend to forget it from time to time due to other responsibilities that our lives surround us with. The thing I appreciated the most was the ability to think without any limitations, any boundaries or bias...free thinking...I know for a fact it's something that the world at the moment is severely lacking. Is it our fault? I dunno, I haven't conducted any research or studies yet to say it does or does not.
You know nowadays when I read news headlines
Like I was saying all I ever see on those headlines are wars, death tolls from said wars, natural disasters, suicide bombers, political mud-slinging and before I forget sex scandals ranging from abuse and molestation
to pedophiles to affairs. It is a real depressing state of affairs to go through the headlines. Things from the big picture point of view, by reading these headlines seems so bleak and the future looks worse than pathetic...or maybe I'm just reading the wrong newspaper. It does make me wonder how much the world will change in the next 5 yeas or the next decade, and it makes me wonder how my parents viewed the world at my age. Maybe I'm being too harsh on the 'Future is friendly' world, but the immediate global/big picture future seems a little bleak despite all the advancements and awesome-ness that everything from technology to medicine to telecommunication to engineering to the automobile industry has been promising and predicting for said immediate future. The question is, how about us? What about our advancement as human beings? Are we going to keep devolving, as it currently seems, at the rate at which we're currently devolving? No I'm not referring to any one person in particular..I think and feel that maybe we're all losing a part of ourselves slowly..its a constant everyday process. We don't even realize what we've lost until much later when we go 'Huh...there used to be a time when a part of would gladly do that, or would stand up to that nonsense and fight back. Eh, now I don't care.' okay maybe not those exact words but definitely something along those lines.
So..what the hell does salvation have to do with all of this? Like I said I'm not climbing the religious platform here, but to me salvation represents a certain zesty feeling of freedom, a freedom of breaking the shackles that holds us from daring to do something different, or the feeling of accomplishment one achieves/attains from...or when you know you've done something right, you've contributed in making a difference in someone's life. And when I say that I'm not referring to just all those wonderful people who sponsors families or kids or volunteers...to all those people hats off to you guys I mean you people have really huge hearts and I hope more people learn from your actions. But by making a difference I also mean people who stick by you through thick and thin, who you never anticipate but are just there...its like the whooshing comfort of a refreshing cool breeze on a hot summer day. Salvation comes not just from the whole concept of the Bank of Karma that we've built as a result of our deposits of Dharma as we've heard and been told...though the Karma analogy comes more in handy when really spiteful people cross our paths, but moving along...our good buddy salvation comes from the lil' things in life too. Don't let the obstacles of today or tomorrow ever cloud your confidence in yourself or make you question yourself or make you stop walking that path to your goals. You're worthy of that feeling of liberation you get from pole vaulting those damn obstacles and getting where you get to, and don't ever let anyone else take that away from you either. Its interesting how there are always people in life who like to pull you down when you're a'ready down and out, more like they like to crush you some more..eh I guess even then we're irresistible :P.
Today is the day that I'm having a moment, and such a moment supercedes all other moments until this present one and this particular present moment merges together all moments passed to form an emerging, engulfing moment...a moment of clarity, a moment of wisdom, a moment that ultimately is a rarity and defines a sense of purity in an utmost hour of adversity. Well the adversity might as well be University, in which case the utmost hour would encompass all hours that are equivalent to temporarily 2 years worth of hours followed by a lifetime of hours, but then again there is no time limit on either a moment nor salvation I guess.
A'ite people I think this one is long enough and I should give my fingers a break, they got other heavy duty work ahead of 'em, like writing and making notes and wielding the all mighty and handy HIGHLIGHTER! and handling it like light-saber...boo-yah! take that Darth Vader. Take care one and all and catchya later, good luck with all the things you all are dealing with. Cheers!
Songs of the Day:
Song: You And Me
Artist/Band: Lifehouse
Album: Lifehouse
Release Date: Circa, 2005
Song: Look After You
Artist/Band: The Fray
Album: How To Save A Life
Release Date: Circa, 2005
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Random Randominization of Randomness
OOOHHH if that 'of' was not there in the title line, then that wudda been an alliteration...but there is a word there so no alliteration :(. So what do you do when you take a nice lil' bite into some decadent white chocolate goodness in the form of Kit Kat? Well you make sure you savour every moment of that decadent white chocolate goodness followed by saying, well in my case, "Thank You Sparky!" you made my day :D. Dammit, it IS good. and totally unhelpful in my fight against procrastination, well I would say war on procrastination but hey that's too extreme and besides procrastination is good for the soul. And besides I am following Kit Kat's tag line...'Have a break Have a Kit Kat.' and breaks are things I absolutely LOVE :D, okay no not breaking things, that automatically sets me off in the uh-oh direction, and gets me into a fair bit of trouble. My broda likes to call me a 'Bull In a China Shop.' so where I see crystals, glass, china and bulls I pretty much stay far far away or just make a mad dash for the exit doors.
Hmmm...for some reason today I've been a bit on the bouncy side, I wonder if sum'n was drugged or if it's the current feeling of peace and tranquility caused by the current non-existence of the thing, or if its the opiad effect from sharin' a few laughs with awesome people, or if its the chocolate or if its the impending feelin' of screwage from partials/midterms or if its a combination of all the above mentioned factors in addition to the awesome song I've been listening to pretty much all day that has me feeling this way. Oh I also forgot to mention, the anticipation of coming days for certain interesting events that has me on a bit of a high, though it does and will have me on a bit of a low in coming days. But that's okay I'm sure I can make up for it at some point in time, or make up for it in my own way.
Hmm...I feel like bakin' a cake, though there is one problem, the acute shortage and immediate unavailability of an oven, a hot plate ain't gonna cut it, unless I decided to spend a good chunk of my day/life in front of it and even then I'd get burnt batter...ooh batter...okay no digression...but yes that's such a waste of batter and effort into making said batter. But I wanna bake a cake :(...eh I'll save the weekend for cake-goodness, okay maybe next weekend, seeing how this coming week is gonna be an interesting week presented by hell. I should get used to it though, seeing how Hell will be my future residence...I wonder if they have a mailing address.
Man, its so hard to get outta break mode when you know school's gonna start right back up with not a bang but a KABANG that would put the captions from the old Batman TV show to shame, you know the whole BIFF and POW stuff. And just thinking of that makes me feel tired, its such a simultaneous process of elation followed by slamming dejection at the mere thought of momentary relief followed by Everest like proportions of work. Yeah yeah so I'm whining and complaining, hey I'm entitled to it from time to time 'ite? Unless you're gonna snap right back and say that I do it all the time. I would like to think that I don't but if I do then I guess its a default birth mechanism that the prototypes of my year came out with. Though I have heard the successive ones, they're interesting and have unique ways of complaining and whining 'bout things. If my lovely mother believes, along with the D-man of course believe that I tend to whine quite a bit, okay that's an exaggeration, they actually think if there was a whining contest I'd win it..eyes closed. If I were a toy, I'd be that toy that looked like something ordinary but was one of the best investments of your life...and somehow saying that reminds me of Jumanji...now that folks is a blast from the past. Cripey! Now I feel like goin' on a Back to the Future, Indiana Jones and Jumanji trip to re-live some past moments in addition to the TMNT series of movies. Wow, I feel momentarily retro, but nah it ain't all that retro, going retro somehow makes me think of disco balls, bell bottoms, fros, huge ass shades...now to me THAT's retro. Lets just say they had an interesting sense of style for that time.
Anyway kids, the bewitching hour for procrastination to end has drawn closer, even though it feels good to procrastinate, considerin how I did get done with a partial, it makes me feel like I did something constructive with my day. Now I gotta go and make sure I don't turn tomorrow a destructive day of my life. Take care folks, hope you guys have an awesome day, and hey you're just a Friday away from a rockin' n shockin' weekend! So make sure you work hard enough to earn that fun, masti and mazaaa waiting fer ya over the weekend! :D...G'luck with all that you gotta do and I shall see ya all wen I do. Cheers!
Song of the Day:
Yes I know it doesn't say Songs, its 'cuz there's only been one song that's been my anthem since yesterday :D...so here we go on repeat mode! Play that track, rewind it back and play it some more!
Song: Everybody Loves Me
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Waking Up
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Ps: I'd like to take this space to once again thank this special individual, so here goes...Yo Sparky Thank You :D. Adios amigos and amigas, until next time.
Hmmm...for some reason today I've been a bit on the bouncy side, I wonder if sum'n was drugged or if it's the current feeling of peace and tranquility caused by the current non-existence of the thing, or if its the opiad effect from sharin' a few laughs with awesome people, or if its the chocolate or if its the impending feelin' of screwage from partials/midterms or if its a combination of all the above mentioned factors in addition to the awesome song I've been listening to pretty much all day that has me feeling this way. Oh I also forgot to mention, the anticipation of coming days for certain interesting events that has me on a bit of a high, though it does and will have me on a bit of a low in coming days. But that's okay I'm sure I can make up for it at some point in time, or make up for it in my own way.
Hmm...I feel like bakin' a cake, though there is one problem, the acute shortage and immediate unavailability of an oven, a hot plate ain't gonna cut it, unless I decided to spend a good chunk of my day/life in front of it and even then I'd get burnt batter...ooh batter...okay no digression...but yes that's such a waste of batter and effort into making said batter. But I wanna bake a cake :(...eh I'll save the weekend for cake-goodness, okay maybe next weekend, seeing how this coming week is gonna be an interesting week presented by hell. I should get used to it though, seeing how Hell will be my future residence...I wonder if they have a mailing address.
Man, its so hard to get outta break mode when you know school's gonna start right back up with not a bang but a KABANG that would put the captions from the old Batman TV show to shame, you know the whole BIFF and POW stuff. And just thinking of that makes me feel tired, its such a simultaneous process of elation followed by slamming dejection at the mere thought of momentary relief followed by Everest like proportions of work. Yeah yeah so I'm whining and complaining, hey I'm entitled to it from time to time 'ite? Unless you're gonna snap right back and say that I do it all the time. I would like to think that I don't but if I do then I guess its a default birth mechanism that the prototypes of my year came out with. Though I have heard the successive ones, they're interesting and have unique ways of complaining and whining 'bout things. If my lovely mother believes, along with the D-man of course
Anyway kids, the bewitching hour for procrastination to end has drawn closer, even though it feels good to procrastinate, considerin how I did get done with a partial, it makes me feel like I did something constructive with my day. Now I gotta go and make sure I don't turn tomorrow a destructive day of my life. Take care folks, hope you guys have an awesome day, and hey you're just a Friday away from a rockin' n shockin' weekend! So make sure you work hard enough to earn that fun, masti and mazaaa waiting fer ya over the weekend! :D...G'luck with all that you gotta do and I shall see ya all wen I do. Cheers!
Song of the Day:
Yes I know it doesn't say Songs, its 'cuz there's only been one song that's been my anthem since yesterday :D...so here we go on repeat mode! Play that track, rewind it back and play it some more!
Song: Everybody Loves Me
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Waking Up
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Ps: I'd like to take this space to once again thank this special
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
The Hourglass
Isn't that pretty much what makes us tick and tock and get involved in this race to beat the clock? The hourglass, I think every day of our existence seems to be ruled by time. Who ever imagined that the time-keeper would become the very pace of our ever beating, ever thrumming lives? Okay maybe somebody who had futuristic perspectives wudda thought so, but I wouldn't have, and if they did then dude they had way too much time on their hands.
Oh updates, PETA need not send in their troops to storm CC's lair, the bunny has been rescued by the owner, i.e. CC. That storm trooper stormed in today and rescued it, though I'm not quite sure if it was alive or not, maybe it was sleeping but I do hope the ickle bwunny is 'ite and not traumatized for life.
So lets see,today was a day of loss, of freedom, of reflection , of re-assurance and of laundry...what? Were you expecting me to spout more regular fare heavy duty activities? Well if you were then stop limiting yourself and my abilities :P...I can go a lil' light weight in the thoughts department, and besides we're homo sapiens, we're built to experience a wide spectrum of emotions and thoughts and what not...Since I am on a break my brain has had absolutely no motivation to pop open a book that's akademik in nature. Now I'm hoping that isn't gonna be the end of me, 'cuz sometimes looking, learning, absorbing stuff all the time does take a toll on the mind and I only have limited space/capacity in that upper chamber. Maybe the prototypes and models that came after my month/year of manufacture were further upgraded/enhanced with sharper upper chamber skills and more space and all that good stuff. But yeah, the brain has been craving to do something different that doesn't involve memorization of enzymes, body parts, regulatory functions, statistical inferences or the way sociology perceives the things we as a society do. I mean hey I respect all these disciplines of education, I do, but at the moment my mind is primed to read up on whirlwinds of adventure that get the adrenaline pumpin', the heart thumpin'...and no I'm not gonna take up bungee jumping nor do I have any intention of riding roller coasters, I like my speed boosters to gimme a linear speed boost, not corkscrews that make me wonder at which point it was that my gut and I parted ways. So yeah I am a chicken when it comes to stuff like this, and I don't care if you call me one either lol, I've grown up being called one for various reasons; reasons that we shan't get into at the moment or anytime soon :D.
Aah, I'm having these 'return-to-childhood' moments where I wanna go back to the days of watching Gummi Bears, Duck Tales , Chip n Dale and Rescue Rangers, and then before all of that the broda and I used to sit around and watch Transformers . In addition to that definitely throw in Pink Panther and Scooby Dooooo...and you got yerself a cocktail to refresh and uplift your senses...shaken n stirred! :D....Ooh and top that off with a nice dose of my all time fav. TV Show --> Life and booyakasha you got yourself the best mix in the house! :D....Sucks that NBC cancelled the show, idiots they really don't recognize a gem when they see one. Nah I won't go NBC bashing, that's too much of a heavy title to go bash up and besides I don't know much 'bout their economics, promotions, plans and strategies to go all against 'em...instead I do have other things But yeah now that show had some quality writing, especially the first season, and lets not forget the pace of Season 1...it was one action packed adventure that you wanted more and more of....and AND it had an amazing and brilliant soundtrack too, and a brilliant if not excellent star cast. Yes I do realize there are lots of 'ands' in the sentences above and if an English teacher is going through this they'd probably give me an F, for the incorrect use of language, grammar, and, my ridonculous run-on sentences.
Now I do have a shout out for a buddy of mine, Sunny B, good work on getting all your projects done and done and being so close to achieving the MBA crown, here's wishing you much success in the times ahead :), I know you're gonna kick some major arse. It is heartening to see people achieve goals they set out for themselves, and I only hope and pray that I attain or rather have the ability, strength and grit to make it through and get what it is I'm trying to attain. I also hope all you guys out there also stick to the plans and dreams you see, its never too bad to have dreams, they are the very things that spur you forward...the ever brilliant sparks that ignite the flames of inspiration and passion. So regardless of where life takes ya, NEVER stop dreaming...they are what keep us going and they are what makes the darkness melt away and fade away to shades of gray that are further obliterated by bursting rays of light. And who doesn't love to see the darkness fade away? I sure as hell know I love seeing a dark spell come to an end, it re-affirms my optimism and hope.
A'ite so I know I'm getting carried away with all these metaphors and all that jazz, but hey there are some days where even I can't stop myself from having an overspurtation of verbal moments. A'ite guys, I think I'm gonna reel in the flow of words, and give your eyes and head a bit of break, dun' exactly want a disaster on my hands. Unfortunately I think the verbage is a result of the crazy sleep I got, I kept waking up every hour and finally managed to sleep 3 hours straight...so the end result of wonky sleep = wonky me :D...dangerous equation at times...its like me on Monster and a bag of M&M's...and trust me I have tried that...lets just say or rather imagine a nice bouncy rubber ball being tossed at a wall and bouncing off all over the place, I had my reasons for doing that though. I had 2 exams back to back and I had to make it through the night. It was an amusing sight, I'm certain of that, and then I crashed that evening and I somehow did manage to drive myself home and CRASH!!! Crashing was the best part, I don't remember much from those exams though, which I reckon is a good thing at the moment :p. A'ite guys, I'll catch up with ya'll later, I hope everything is going well for you guys and if they aren't, just hang in there they will get b8r, things go down before they shoot up all the way to the top. Your silver lining is waitin' fer ya, don't forget that :) and it'll be yours soon. Take care and g'luck with everything! Cheers!
Songs of the Day:
Song: Everybody Loves Me
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Waking Up
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Song: Aahun Aahun
OST: Love Aaj Kal
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Song: Innocent
Artist/Band: Our Lady Peace
Album: Gravity
Release Date: Circa, 2002
Song: Feel
Artist/Band: Robbie Williams
Album: Escapology
Release Date: Circa, 2002
Ps: Another HTML messed up post, great half italicized and half un-italicized schnazz, anyone got a solution for this? It doth annoyeth me much.
Oh updates, PETA need not send in their troops to storm CC's lair, the bunny has been rescued by the owner, i.e. CC. That storm trooper stormed in today and rescued it, though I'm not quite sure if it was alive or not, maybe it was sleeping
So lets see,today was a day of loss, of freedom, of reflection , of re-assurance and of laundry...what? Were you expecting me to spout more regular fare heavy duty activities? Well if you were then stop limiting yourself and my abilities :P...I can go a lil' light weight in the thoughts department, and besides we're homo sapiens, we're built to experience a wide spectrum of emotions and thoughts and what not...Since I am on a break
Aah, I'm having these 'return-to-childhood' moments where I wanna go back to the days of watching Gummi Bears
Now I do have a shout out for a buddy of mine, Sunny B, good work on getting all your projects done and done and being so close to achieving the MBA crown, here's wishing you much success in the times ahead :), I know you're gonna kick some major arse. It is heartening to see people achieve goals they set out for themselves, and I only hope and pray that I attain or rather have the ability, strength and grit to make it through and get what it is I'm trying to attain. I also hope all you guys out there also stick to the plans and dreams you see, its never too bad to have dreams, they are the very things that spur you forward...the ever brilliant sparks that ignite the flames of inspiration and passion. So regardless of where life takes ya, NEVER stop dreaming...they are what keep us going and they are what makes the darkness melt away and fade away to shades of gray that are further obliterated by bursting rays of light. And who doesn't love to see the darkness fade away? I sure as hell know I love seeing a dark spell come to an end, it re-affirms my optimism and hope.
A'ite so I know I'm getting carried away with all these metaphors and all that jazz, but hey there are some days where even I can't stop myself from having an overspurtation of verbal moments. A'ite guys, I think I'm gonna reel in the flow of words, and give your eyes and head a bit of break, dun' exactly want a disaster on my hands. Unfortunately I think the verbage is a result of the crazy sleep I got, I kept waking up every hour and finally managed to sleep 3 hours straight...so the end result of wonky sleep = wonky me :D...dangerous equation at times...its like me on Monster and a bag of M&M's...and trust me I have tried that...lets just say or rather imagine a nice bouncy rubber ball being tossed at a wall and bouncing off all over the place, I had my reasons for doing that though. I had 2 exams back to back and I had to make it through the night. It was an amusing sight, I'm certain of that, and then I crashed that evening and I somehow did manage to drive myself home and CRASH!!! Crashing was the best part, I don't remember much from those exams though, which I reckon is a good thing at the moment :p. A'ite guys, I'll catch up with ya'll later, I hope everything is going well for you guys and if they aren't, just hang in there they will get b8r, things go down before they shoot up all the way to the top. Your silver lining is waitin' fer ya, don't forget that :) and it'll be yours soon. Take care and g'luck with everything! Cheers!
Songs of the Day:
Song: Everybody Loves Me
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Waking Up
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Song: Aahun Aahun
OST: Love Aaj Kal
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Song: Innocent
Artist/Band: Our Lady Peace
Album: Gravity
Release Date: Circa, 2002
Song: Feel
Artist/Band: Robbie Williams
Album: Escapology
Release Date: Circa, 2002
Ps: Another HTML messed up post, great half italicized and half un-italicized schnazz, anyone got a solution for this? It doth annoyeth me much.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Ponderations...featurin' responsibilities and...Well...you get the drift
Well today I came up with the song list before I came up with the content list for this post. T'was or rather it still is a day that's a tad on the melancholic side, but not all that melancholic, oh and there's a bunny in the house, so who you gonna call? "Bunny Busters!" or the land-lord seeing how I can't exactly go through the yellow pages out here and be all "AHA! I found them!". Besides, it is a cute bunny
and I guess CC thought the bunny was gonna go out and have some Easter fun by teleportin' itself or something. Anyway, besides CC's brilliance
Oh no the HTML taggin' monster is back, which means half my post will appear un-italicized and the rest will appear italicized...what joy lol. Well, I'm not quite sure what to say 'bout the day per-se, except perhaps it started on an interesting note and for some reason there was a repetitive pattern of the blasted phone going off at 9 sum'n. Thankfully I woke up a few minutes prior to the nonsensical thing going off. I think I'm just gonna turn it off durin' break time, honestly with the amount of sleep I get during a regular week I think I'm entitled to a lil' more sleep than usual. And to those who think it's a travesty I have 2 words for you :D...SCREW YOU... :D...so ha! take that. A'ite I'm not obsessing but I really do feel bad for the bunny next door, as much as I dislike it's owner and let me emphasize that it isn't mere dislike but extremely strong feelings of dislike-ment But yeah people if you really wanna get a pet please and pretty please be ready to take on the other responsibilities that come with it In a way it's another life you're caring for maties you wanna make sure you do a pretty darn good job of it. I've, okay no correction, We have always wanted to get a dog, which broda claimed and still claims would be his and that I'd get zero bonding time with said doggy, but anyway, we both have always wanted to get a dog but mum being oh so wise and accordin' to herself always right, has a standard answer for that request of our...NO! We put on our puppy dog expressions and pout and go.."But..but..why?!" to which she replies "Yeah you guys wanna get the dog but in the end who is gonna look after it? ME!! I'll end up being the one who feeds it, takes it for walks and cleaning up after it...ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!? I refuse to do so at this age and besides I already went through all of that with you 2 so no thank you I have no intention of going through that again." ...And that usually is how the we want a doggy please conversation ends.
Hey people, as a side-bar, do any of you guys know how to relieve a sore shoulder? I think I have a major knot right between my neck and shoulder and it hurts like a bitch from time to time. Any help/advice on the matter would be greatly appreciated, as will free massages :D. And another thing to add to another side-bar, any of you guys got a suggestion for a good book/novel to read? I find that my English is going to the dogs, and I do love a good read :D...Oh and for any of you fantasy buffs out there check out the "Mortal Instruments Series" by Cassandra Clare...in my humble opinion, I do think that it's an absolutely fantastical series to read!..The writing is fast paced, simple yet they manage to weave quite the intricate tale. So yeah, if any of you guys have any suggestions please do lemme know :D.
Man I've had these images in my head for potential plot lines running through my head over a span of days, but I can't seem to sit down and write 'em out, it feels like there's some more refining to do, some more reviewing and editing to do, hopefully I will be able to get them down soon, 'cuz I kinda need the space it's occupying to fill up with akademia, since my brain can't afford an external Oh and I'm also contemplatin' if I should get sum'n published this summer or not...no besides my blog i.e. nehoo, like I was saying, I'm contemplatin' publishing but I'm not sure if I should or not, nope not the refining problem, more of a 'Hmmm...is it worth publishing?' Though technically before doing that I would like to work on the cover art I have in mind and see how it looks. Sometimes things need to have an aesthetic appeal to 'em or so I hear, but then again never judge a book by it's cover :D. Crap designing the cover art also means I gotta design logos...bah! Don't have all that time to put those images down on paper, this homo sapien has limited capabilities lol.
Hmmm...I feel I'm bein' a tad bit self-absorbed in this particular post, but I guess I'm entitled to a lil' bit of self absorbment no? However, on more happier notes, I did get to talk to one of the members of my lil' clan of El Familio...that's right...you guys are now in the spotlight :D. You know there are some feelings that one can't replicate, duplicate or feel with anybody else. I think I was craving to hear familiar voices, voices that have seen me through thick and thin and pretty much know EVERYTHING 'bout me. The relief, comfort and joy one feels is just indescribable, and no this isn't meant to offend anybody else that I know..trust me it IS a good thing that you don't know everything 'bout me or else you'd be telling me to hit the road Jack well Jill in this case lol. And it ain't all that interesting either lol, c'mon guys its me after all how much more interesting can I be? Anyway going back to El Familio, we met each other during our freshman year of Undergrad and I think we have very interesting tales 'bout how we met each other...good ol' Mac. See, I miss my school where I did my U/G at well not only 'cuz of some of the classes but also 'cuz of the people I met there and other things, if I keep mentioning things then I'll get too nostalgic and this will turn into sappy mush. So, moving along, it was awesome playing mini catch up with the Shomus, hopefully I can catch up soon with Chota Chatri, Viper Red, Nushkerz and of course we can't forget Nintendo...don't worry guys this summer...coming near you...is this thing...called ME :D...so BE PREPARED :D. Yo Viper I still have that collab work that you, Nushkerz and I worked on so long ago, though I still gotta finish up my part, if there's anything more you'd like to add lemme know, we can make it a growing compendium of interesting events :P.
Anyway, as always I digress, but yeah Shomus and I had a very interesting conversation about the Janus like nature of people, well especially some people. Is it a survival mechanism or a coping mechanism? Honestly guys don't ever try to make yourself a clone of somebody else, your originality and you as a person far outweigh whoever you're trying to imitate. In the long run it really ain't worth it, I mean yeah maybe for the immediate accomplishment of goals it might seem to work, but at the end of the day you'd be happier knowing where you stand today is because of yourself not because somebody else was responsible for dragging you through that path. Be your own person, for you become what you become not because of what you are but because of who you are...and that's something I firmly believe in...of course once again I have been called idealistic for such thoughts, but hey wouldn't you rather have someone say "Congrats on doing such brilliant original work." instead of "Oh congrats on following X's lead and doing what X did." That doesn't mean you shouldn't learn from other people's mistakes, I mean that is the process of evolution and learning from mistakes is different from completely doing the exact same thing, and I know you all are smart enough to know the difference.
A'ite guys, on that note, I'm gonna hit the brakes...you know take a breather from thoughts and fun things of the sort and snap back to reality...reality always has such feisty things waiting for you, lol. Take care and g'luck with anything and everything you guys are dealing with/facing at the moment and I hope you all are doing well :). Cheers fer now!
Songs of the Day:
Song: Beautiful Day
Artist/Band: U2
Album: All That You Can't Leave Behind
Release Date: Circa, 2000
Song: Apologize
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Dreaming Out Loud
Release Date: Circa, 2007
Song: Stronger
Artist/Band: Kanye West ft. Daft Punk
Album: Graduation Day
Release Date: Circa, 2007
Song: Sober
Artist/Band: Kelly Clarkson
Album: My December
Release Date: Circa, 2007
Song: Bhool Ja
Artist/Band: Shaan
Album: Tanha Dil
Release Date: Circa, 2000
Song: Requiem For A Dream a.k.a Requiem For A Tower
OST: Lord Of The Rings, Two Towers
Release Date: Circa, 2002
and I guess CC thought the bunny was gonna go out and have some Easter fun by teleportin' itself or something. Anyway, besides CC's brilliance
Oh no the HTML taggin' monster is back, which means half my post will appear un-italicized and the rest will appear italicized...what joy lol. Well, I'm not quite sure what to say 'bout the day per-se, except perhaps it started on an interesting note and for some reason there was a repetitive pattern of the blasted phone going off at 9 sum'n. Thankfully I woke up a few minutes prior to the nonsensical thing going off. I think I'm just gonna turn it off durin' break time, honestly with the amount of sleep I get during a regular week I think I'm entitled to a lil' more sleep than usual. And to those who think it's a travesty I have 2 words for you :D...SCREW YOU... :D...so ha! take that. A'ite I'm not obsessing but I really do feel bad for the bunny next door, as much as I dislike it's owner and let me emphasize that it isn't mere dislike but extremely strong feelings of dislike-ment
Hey people, as a side-bar, do any of you guys know how to relieve a sore shoulder? I think I have a major knot right between my neck and shoulder and it hurts like a bitch from time to time. Any help/advice on the matter would be greatly appreciated, as will free massages :D. And another thing to add to another side-bar, any of you guys got a suggestion for a good book/novel to read? I find that my English is going to the dogs, and I do love a good read :D...Oh and for any of you fantasy buffs out there check out the "Mortal Instruments Series" by Cassandra Clare...in my humble opinion, I do think that it's an absolutely fantastical
Man I've had these images in my head for potential plot lines running through my head over a span of days, but I can't seem to sit down and write 'em out, it feels like there's some more refining to do, some more reviewing and editing to do, hopefully I will be able to get them down soon, 'cuz I kinda need the space it's occupying to fill up with akademia, since my brain can't afford an external
Hmmm...I feel I'm bein' a tad bit self-absorbed in this particular post, but I guess I'm entitled to a lil' bit of self absorbment no? However, on more happier notes, I did get to talk to one of the members of my lil' clan of El Familio...that's right...you guys are now in the spotlight :D. You know there are some feelings that one can't replicate, duplicate
Anyway, as always I digress, but yeah Shomus and I had a very interesting conversation about the Janus like nature of people, well especially some people. Is it a survival mechanism or a coping mechanism? Honestly guys don't ever try to make yourself a clone of somebody else, your originality and you as a person far outweigh whoever you're trying to imitate. In the long run it really ain't worth it, I mean yeah maybe for the immediate accomplishment of goals it might seem to work, but at the end of the day you'd be happier knowing where you stand today is because of yourself not because somebody else was responsible for dragging you through that path. Be your own person, for you become what you become not because of what you are but because of who you are...and that's something I firmly believe in...of course once again I have been called idealistic for such thoughts, but hey wouldn't you rather have someone say "Congrats on doing such brilliant original work." instead of "Oh congrats on following X's lead and doing what X did." That doesn't mean you shouldn't learn from other people's mistakes, I mean that is the process of evolution and learning from mistakes is different from completely doing the exact same thing, and I know you all are smart enough to know the difference.
A'ite guys, on that note, I'm gonna hit the brakes...you know take a breather from thoughts and fun things of the sort and snap back to reality...reality always has such feisty things waiting for you, lol. Take care and g'luck with anything and everything you guys are dealing with/facing at the moment and I hope you all are doing well :). Cheers fer now!
Songs of the Day:
Song: Beautiful Day
Artist/Band: U2
Album: All That You Can't Leave Behind
Release Date: Circa, 2000
Song: Apologize
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Dreaming Out Loud
Release Date: Circa, 2007
Song: Stronger
Artist/Band: Kanye West ft. Daft Punk
Album: Graduation Day
Release Date: Circa, 2007
Song: Sober
Artist/Band: Kelly Clarkson
Album: My December
Release Date: Circa, 2007
Song: Bhool Ja
Artist/Band: Shaan
Album: Tanha Dil
Release Date: Circa, 2000
Song: Requiem For A Dream a.k.a Requiem For A Tower
OST: Lord Of The Rings, Two Towers
Release Date: Circa, 2002
Monday, April 5, 2010
Reflections
A'ite so I think I may have missed a day but hey even the G-man took a day off from creating the world, and I ain't the G-man, only human so entitled to be a lil' MIA from time to time...key words being time to time, not a frequent thing. At least I hope I don't make my MIA-ness a frequent thing. Of course I know that would be comforting for a lot of ya'll to not see so many words on your screen, it has a visually traumatizing effect. Well between the last time I posted on here and now, not much has happened besides remembering those long gone but never forgotten, my teams losing their respective matches , going on a Disney blitz by watching classic Disney flicks , spending time with A&A pplz, and lastly worrying and hoping and praying that Nepty doesn't hit the off button on me, then that would make me just sad. Though he's been swimming around a lot more today, anyway I'm sure you all have other things swimming through your heads than the state of my fishy. Today has been a day of many thoughts, perhaps even a day of reflection, though I'm not quite sure what I was reflecting on as I seemed to have an overload of images from times that seem another lifetime ago. In fact they actually make me go huh? Really? I did that? That happened? Why does it all seem like some part of a dream that seemed to never happen but somehow did? I wonder if the age factor is a major contributor of the thought tree. Though in my case, this particular thought tree can reel back anytime it wants to and when it does I'm the one reeling with a crazy ass headache.
You know what I feel like seeing or experiencing today? Something filled with passion, something exuding so much compassion that makes you want to re-evaluate everything you've done so far and makes you wanna strive to do more, strive harder, try harder...completely re-do and over-do everything you've done thus far and raise the bar for your own self, not for anybody else. I wanna feel something that reminds me of the very essence of being a human being and of being alive. Tell me something you've done that you never thought you would ever do...Well I have quite a few 'never thought I would do' items on my list...I think lol. For instance, I never though I'd turn out to be this AWESOME :D...I knew I'd turn out 'ite, but I far surpassed that level... :P....jus' kiddin' no I'm not that self-absorbed or narcissistic just yet. I never thought I'd make it thus far, being where I am chasing one of my many dreams, in other words I never thought I'd try to be my own dreamcatcher. I mean I always wanted to chase this dream of mine and every time I tried there was always something or someone to slot me in a category of 'Not Qualified enough' either 'cuz I wasn't smarter than their kids or I didn't seem to fit the prototype for the kinda ppl you find chasing this dream. It always drove me nuts, honestly, who the bloody hell do you think you are to limit anyone's dreams? or capabilities? or abilities? Is it in your ruddy blood to kill, destroy and demolish people's dreams? Or are you just envious of your inability to dream? I hate this entire system of slotting on the basis of a few criteria, if you don't see or sense the fire of passion burning within a person you're nothing but a daft old door knob whose arse should be kicked for passing judgment in the first place. Does it make me a bitter person for re-visiting those times that I've been be-littled? I dunno maybe...maybe not...sometimes you gotta go knockin' doors down memory lane to re-invigorate yourselves, to re-ignite your hopes...sometimes just to visit that first step you took in a long line of steps to get where you are today. It makes you cherish the journey, and it leaves you in a state of wonder goin' "Damn...I hadn't realized how far I've come." And this lil' trip helps you to re-stash your lil' arsenal of defenses when you meet different avataars of the ignoramuses you've run into time after time. People being people like to put others down, like to beat 'em up till they crack or are completely destroyed/obliterated. Just remember you've faced such morons before and if you haven't and this is your first time runnin' into ignoramuses use the tunnel strategy, take it in through one ear and out the other. Such people aren't worth your time, your energy or even an iota of your understanding, they just don't deserve it...plain and simple. Yeah everyone should be given a chance but some of them sure know how to overstay the welcome mat on chances.
My mother never hesitates to call me a door-mat 'cuz according to her I let people walk all over me and I let 'em get away with a lotta shit. I just tell her 'Mom I'm not a door-mat I just like giving everyone a fair chance regardless of what anyone else says.' ...call me idealistic, oh wait I've been called that too..whee! what joy lol. I do think everyone shud get a fair shot when you first meet them, at least you get some sorta idea as to how they are, being judgmental is easy you're basically letting someone else make your decision for you, I do understand we live in a fast-paced world and all that funky jazz that we keep spouting to each other and reminding each other in oh so many ways Nehoo, moving on I'm saying this stuff 'cuz a lotta times we tend to forget 'bout the basics of being a human being, we think alike...we feel the exact same emotions...so then why the hell do we strive to divide and create differences amongst ourselves? Why do we strive to highlight our differences and create more rifts based on our differences when we should strive instead towards using those very differences to mend old rifts and create new bridge/doorways to safe, secure and brilliant future?
I know one thing for sure, when my number comes up and ya know I gotta go up there and chill with St. Peter or whoever is at the gates...oh wait slight error, I got a ticket down to Hell whoopsies, sorry St. Peter and Co. can't join yer partay just yet, but yeah sorry I digress, wen my number comes up I think if nething I'd be content knowing I made a difference to at least one person's life and that my life wasn't a complete, absolute and utter waste. Oh and on notes of numbers being run et al. I actually have some sort of a playlist worked out I think, it b8r be played at the memorial service or else I will haunt all the ppl. who don't make it happen...that's right perks of goin' down under instead of up-top I guess. Though the play-list might be a work in progress, seeing how there's always new soundtracks and more music coming out every now and then. Oh and I want my comeex to go to someone who will actually appreciate reading 'em...there's one of the clauses to things I own :P...the rest like the play list is a work in progress lol.
Ooh so my Firefox finally updated/upgraded itself and it took me to the whole personas page that Mozilla has for it's self, and I was quite conflicted as to what to pick and choose, I saw some awesome skins though, so I guess I might find myself changing those skins quite often, you know add a bit of variety, change things around, shake things up a bit routine. Oh and going on that "I never thought I'd do" list...well I never thought I'd be able to sing in front of a lotta people, and even to this day I still don't think I can but yeah you should ask me how I'm feeling while I'm singing, its called having a bloody heart attack, my heart literally pumps and beats outside it's rib cage lol. If it could hop, skip and bounce outta there it would do so. A'ite fellow homo sapiens, I gotta take yer leave now, gotta go get me some grub...hungry child needs some actual food instead of some food for thought, which my brain and the rest of me has plenty of on a regular basis...always stocked, you're all more than welcome to grab some :P. Take care all of ya, I hope you guys had a Blessed and wonderful Easter and you found those eggs that bunny hid from you all, and to those of you who decorated the eggs you guys have talent and I hope you had fun decoratin' 'em eggs :D, hmmm I should get myself Kinder eggs :)..now that = true happiness :P. Cheers and catch ya'll whenever I do, same channel...different time :D.
Songs of the Day:
Song: Everybody Loves Me
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Waking Up
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Song: Mastam Mastam
OST: Yuvvraaj
Release Date: Circa, 2008
Song: Good Life
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Waking Up
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Song: Chasing Cars
Artist/Band: Snow Patrol
Album: Eyes Open
Release Date: Circa, 2006
Song: Words
Artist/Band: Boyzone
Album: A Different Beat
Release Date: Circa, 1996
Song: With or Without You
Artist/Band: U2
Album: The Joshua Tree
Release Date: Circa, 1987
You know what I feel like seeing or experiencing today? Something filled with passion, something exuding so much compassion that makes you want to re-evaluate everything you've done so far and makes you wanna strive to do more, strive harder, try harder...completely re-do and over-do everything you've done thus far and raise the bar for your own self, not for anybody else. I wanna feel something that reminds me of the very essence of being a human being and of being alive. Tell me something you've done that you never thought you would ever do...Well I have quite a few 'never thought I would do' items on my list...I think lol. For instance, I never though I'd turn out to be this AWESOME :D...I knew I'd turn out 'ite, but I far surpassed that level... :P....jus' kiddin' no I'm not that self-absorbed or narcissistic just yet. I never thought I'd make it thus far, being where I am chasing one of my many dreams, in other words I never thought I'd try to be my own dreamcatcher. I mean I always wanted to chase this dream of mine and every time I tried there was always something or someone to slot me in a category of 'Not Qualified enough' either 'cuz I wasn't smarter than their kids or I didn't seem to fit the prototype for the kinda ppl you find chasing this dream. It always drove me nuts, honestly, who the bloody hell do you think you are to limit anyone's dreams? or capabilities? or abilities? Is it in your ruddy blood to kill, destroy and demolish people's dreams? Or are you just envious of your inability to dream? I hate this entire system of slotting on the basis of a few criteria, if you don't see or sense the fire of passion burning within a person you're nothing but a daft old door knob whose arse should be kicked for passing judgment in the first place. Does it make me a bitter person for re-visiting those times that I've been be-littled? I dunno maybe...maybe not...sometimes you gotta go knockin' doors down memory lane to re-invigorate yourselves, to re-ignite your hopes...sometimes just to visit that first step you took in a long line of steps to get where you are today. It makes you cherish the journey, and it leaves you in a state of wonder goin' "Damn...I hadn't realized how far I've come." And this lil' trip helps you to re-stash your lil' arsenal of defenses when you meet different avataars of the ignoramuses you've run into time after time. People being people like to put others down, like to beat 'em up till they crack or are completely destroyed/obliterated. Just remember you've faced such morons before and if you haven't and this is your first time runnin' into ignoramuses use the tunnel strategy, take it in through one ear and out the other. Such people aren't worth your time, your energy or even an iota of your understanding, they just don't deserve it...plain and simple. Yeah everyone should be given a chance but some of them sure know how to overstay the welcome mat on chances.
My mother never hesitates to call me a door-mat
I know one thing for sure, when my number comes up and ya know I gotta go up there and chill with St. Peter or whoever is at the gates...oh wait slight error, I got a ticket down to Hell whoopsies, sorry St. Peter and Co. can't join yer partay just yet, but yeah sorry I digress, wen my number comes up I think if nething I'd be content knowing I made a difference to at least one person's life and that my life wasn't a complete, absolute and utter waste. Oh and on notes of numbers being run et al. I actually have some sort of a playlist worked out I think, it b8r be played at the memorial service or else I will haunt all the ppl. who don't make it happen...that's right perks of goin' down under instead of up-top I guess. Though the play-list might be a work in progress, seeing how there's always new soundtracks and more music coming out every now and then. Oh and I want my comeex to go to someone who will actually appreciate reading 'em...there's one of the clauses to things I own :P...the rest like the play list is a work in progress lol.
Ooh so my Firefox finally updated/upgraded itself and it took me to the whole personas page that Mozilla has for it's self, and I was quite conflicted as to what to pick and choose, I saw some awesome skins though, so I guess I might find myself changing those skins quite often, you know add a bit of variety, change things around, shake things up a bit routine. Oh and going on that "I never thought I'd do" list...well I never thought I'd be able to sing in front of a lotta people, and even to this day I still don't think I can but yeah you should ask me how I'm feeling while I'm singing, its called having a bloody heart attack, my heart literally pumps and beats outside it's rib cage lol. If it could hop, skip and bounce outta there it would do so. A'ite fellow homo sapiens, I gotta take yer leave now, gotta go get me some grub...hungry child needs some actual food instead of some food for thought, which my brain and the rest of me has plenty of on a regular basis...always stocked, you're all more than welcome to grab some :P. Take care all of ya, I hope you guys had a Blessed and wonderful Easter and you found those eggs that bunny hid from you all, and to those of you who decorated the eggs you guys have talent and I hope you had fun decoratin' 'em eggs :D, hmmm I should get myself Kinder eggs :)..now that = true happiness :P. Cheers and catch ya'll whenever I do, same channel...different time :D.
Songs of the Day:
Song: Everybody Loves Me
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Waking Up
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Song: Mastam Mastam
OST: Yuvvraaj
Release Date: Circa, 2008
Song: Good Life
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Waking Up
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Song: Chasing Cars
Artist/Band: Snow Patrol
Album: Eyes Open
Release Date: Circa, 2006
Song: Words
Artist/Band: Boyzone
Album: A Different Beat
Release Date: Circa, 1996
Song: With or Without You
Artist/Band: U2
Album: The Joshua Tree
Release Date: Circa, 1987
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Clueless
Well I didn't know what to put up for a title/subject line so I guess whatever is mentioned up there best reflects the state of mind. A'ite acknowledging a few things first,
a) My last post was ginormous, granted there are warnings of length in the previous post somewhere in there lol.
b) Go RCB!!! that was a fantastic match and I'm glad you guys won. Uthappa was sizzling in that game, came in and played EXACTLY the shots that Bangalore needed.
C) GO CSK for setting up such an awesome score in today's game and for winning the game and not letting the Royals clinch away the game, but hey on that same note nice work Royals for actually losing by 20 sum'n runs and you guys put your best foot forward. Awesome batting from both sides.
Now I can't remember if there was anything else to acknowledge prior to me commencin' my daily rambles and rants for the day. Anyway, my day started with me waking up as confused as the fashion styles of the late 80's early 90's well okay maybe further into the 90's as well, and I'm not one to comment 'bout fashion 'cuz as the lovely familia likes to remind me I lack quite a bit of the fashion sense. Hey I'm not arguing with that sentiment I fully and wholly agree that I do definitely lack the fashion statement, in fact I'm quite happy with my basic knowledge of solids lol. All this other hybrid combinations of florals and pastels just don't make any sense to me and I think if I dabbled in it I might as well be a one person circus. So yeah my day started on a confusing note, I was having trouble sleeping last night Anyway, like I was saying, with the coming of the morn came the dawnin' of confusion and somehow the day just drifted by, my brain has absolutely no motivation of any sorts to start studying or to bond with any of the akademik books yet, hopefully that changes soon, and yes I know that the only way the change will happen is if I take the first step and the whole 'put your best foot forward' thing.
I can't believe I put myself through quite the ordeal to watch a Hindi movie, I had to switch between sites just to be able to watch the end of the movie, well initially I had trouble watching a decent print of the movie, and then I finally got a decent print and the last part of the movie wasn't uploaded on the site, so I was hunting for a site to finish watching the movie. I hate leaving movies incomplete, I mean you take the time out to watch the whole darn thing, and it sucks when you sit through most of it and don't know what happens in the end. Before I proceed, I might as well tell you wat movie I was watching; Chandni Chowk to China...directed by Nikhil Advani, the director of one of my all time fav. movies --> Kal Ho Naa Ho :D..which reminds me I should watch that some time soon, it always has a magical effect after I'm done watching it. Anyway, the movie was eh 'ite, amusing in parts, an interesting story line, very creative use of the soundtrack, and quite the over-acting from the main lead actor, and some really cool fight/martial arts sequences. The cinematography was pretty awesome too and the movie had a fresh treatment 'bout it, but in the same breath the movie reminded me of another old Indian movie, and it reminded me of Jackie Chan's movies too, dammit now I wanna watch a Jackie Chan movie...those movies can never go outta style.
I'm in Disney mode these days, definitely wanna re-watch Aladdin :D...woohoo! exciting times to look forward to now 'en it? What other way to unwind than to get lost in some childhood fun, I can't make myself watch a movie that makes me think about the bigger and more important things in life, not just yet, maybe towards the fag end of my break I might be able to watch something serious and gain some perspective but right now I'm loving my current light and simple perspective. I mean we can't always be serious every single moment of every single day, if we do that then we miss out on the lil' things that make us happy which in turn gives us the motivation to push further on in life regardless of what obstacles get hurled our way. If we pull off Serious Sally or a Serious Sam for that matter, we end up with a chance of living very bitter, close minded, blinker controlled lives and we never give our true selves a chance to surface and integrate with any aspects of our lives. Denying yourself any sorta access to your true self is a crime in my humble opinion, 'cuz you keep evolving throughout life and this evolution and constant molding process, it lets you take a look into yourself and it allows you to tap into that potential you got. And trust me each and every one of you has lots and lots of AMAZING potential and don't you EVER let anyone else tell you otherwise, or imma kick their sorry arses *puts on the slit eye fighter face*
See? Why do I need to watch a serious thought provoking flick at the moment when my thoughts are so provoking? :P...Oh and guess what? I discovered a bunny in CC's room or ex-room :|...no no I didn't pick the lock or anything people, I'm skilled but not that skilled. It all started with Kobi hearing squeaky noises, so then I got pulled in lol to see if Kobi was hallucinating or actually hearing things. So I heard squeaky noises too and we investigated through the window and discovered a cage that was wide open. It seemed like a bunny cage or a hamster's cage. See, we heard squeakies and thought it was a mouse or rat; if it was one of those 2 I'd be the first one screaming and sitting on top of the counter going I REFUSE to get down from here!!! Somebody...ANYBODY KILL IT!!!! Yes that's how smooth I am; so yeah we discovered a bunny in there and that idiot left the bunny in her room. A room that's visited once in either 3 days or a week...can somebody please get PETA in here? I mean WTF?!! It's a living being dammit! You don't just leave it there, toss some food at it and leave it there with it's cage open!?! That's not called freedom, you don't even deserve to be responsible for another life if this is how you're gonna treat it!!!! I'm not a huge bunny fan, those things are like goldfishies, they poop a lot and that makes things smelly and hard to deal with it. But really, how the hell can you leave something so adorable all by it's lonesome self? That bunny's gonna need years of therapy, unless it pulls a CUJO or sum'n :|...shit if it does lets hope it's not here, and I think there might be something wrong with that bunny too. It looked scared and all but I thought I saw it limp....frakkin' frakkity-ness, why?...wait lemme rephrase...WHY THE HELL would anyone get themselves something fuzzy and lovable if they can't take care of it? See!!!! all the more reasons to clock CC out, I'm sure the bunny would appreciate it too, or it might be deaf with the high pitched squealing CC puts the bunny through while addressing it.
A'ite folks, I'm gonna end this one somewhere around here...just 'cuz I can :D, and also 'cuz I know yesterday's post was really long as Panda was nice enough to e-mail me :P...That's wat family is for, they always remind you of things that sometimes do need some reminding, so Thanks Panda! I hope you guys have a Blessed Easter and thanks fer stopping by! Cheers
Songs of the Day:
Song: Now We Are Free
OST: Gladiator
Release Date: Circa, 2000
Song: Hurt
Artist/Band: Johnny Cash
Album: American IV: The Man Comes Around
Release Date: Circa, 2002
Song: Numb Encore
Artist/Band: Linkin Park & Jay-Z
Album: Collision Course
Release Date: 2004
a) My last post was ginormous, granted there are warnings of length in the previous post somewhere in there lol.
b) Go RCB!!! that was a fantastic match and I'm glad you guys won. Uthappa was sizzling in that game, came in and played EXACTLY the shots that Bangalore needed.
C) GO CSK for setting up such an awesome score in today's game and for winning the game and not letting the Royals clinch away the game, but hey on that same note nice work Royals for actually losing by 20 sum'n runs and you guys put your best foot forward. Awesome batting from both sides.
Now I can't remember if there was anything else to acknowledge prior to me commencin' my daily rambles and rants for the day. Anyway, my day started with me waking up as confused as the fashion styles of the late 80's early 90's well okay maybe further into the 90's as well, and I'm not one to comment 'bout fashion 'cuz as the lovely familia likes to remind me
I can't believe I put myself through quite the ordeal to watch a Hindi movie, I had to switch between sites just to be able to watch the end of the movie, well initially I had trouble watching a decent print of the movie, and then I finally got a decent print and the last part of the movie wasn't uploaded on the site, so I was hunting for a site to finish watching the movie. I hate leaving movies incomplete, I mean you take the time out to watch the whole darn thing, and it sucks when you sit through most of it and don't know what happens in the end. Before I proceed, I might as well tell you wat movie I was watching; Chandni Chowk to China...directed by Nikhil Advani, the director of one of my all time fav. movies --> Kal Ho Naa Ho :D..which reminds me I should watch that some time soon, it always has a magical effect after I'm done watching it. Anyway, the movie was eh 'ite, amusing in parts, an interesting story line, very creative use of the soundtrack, and quite the over-acting from the main lead actor, and some really cool fight/martial arts sequences. The cinematography was pretty awesome too and the movie had a fresh treatment 'bout it, but in the same breath the movie reminded me of another old Indian movie, and it reminded me of Jackie Chan's movies too, dammit now I wanna watch a Jackie Chan movie...those movies can never go outta style.
I'm in Disney mode these days, definitely wanna re-watch Aladdin :D...woohoo! exciting times to look forward to now 'en it? What other way to unwind than to get lost in some childhood fun, I can't make myself watch a movie that makes me think about the bigger and more important things in life, not just yet, maybe towards the fag end of my break I might be able to watch something serious and gain some perspective but right now I'm loving my current light and simple perspective. I mean we can't always be serious every single moment of every single day, if we do that then we miss out on the lil' things that make us happy which in turn gives us the motivation to push further on in life regardless of what obstacles get hurled our way. If we pull off Serious Sally or a Serious Sam for that matter, we end up with a chance of living very bitter, close minded, blinker controlled lives and we never give our true selves a chance to surface and integrate with any aspects of our lives. Denying yourself any sorta access to your true self is a crime in my humble opinion, 'cuz you keep evolving throughout life and this evolution and constant molding process, it lets you take a look into yourself and it allows you to tap into that potential you got. And trust me each and every one of you has lots and lots of AMAZING potential and don't you EVER let anyone else tell you otherwise, or imma kick their sorry arses *puts on the slit eye fighter face*
See? Why do I need to watch a serious thought provoking flick at the moment when my thoughts are so provoking? :P...Oh and guess what? I discovered a bunny in CC's room or ex-room :|...no no I didn't pick the lock or anything people, I'm skilled but not that skilled. It all started with Kobi hearing squeaky noises, so then I got pulled in lol to see if Kobi was hallucinating or actually hearing things. So I heard squeaky noises too and we investigated through the window and discovered a cage that was wide open. It seemed like a bunny cage or a hamster's cage. See, we heard squeakies and thought it was a mouse or rat; if it was one of those 2 I'd be the first one screaming and sitting on top of the counter going I REFUSE to get down from here!!! Somebody...ANYBODY KILL IT!!!! Yes that's how smooth I am; so yeah we discovered a bunny in there and that idiot left the bunny in her room. A room that's visited once in either 3 days or a week...can somebody please get PETA in here? I mean WTF?!! It's a living being dammit! You don't just leave it there, toss some food at it and leave it there with it's cage open!?! That's not called freedom, you don't even deserve to be responsible for another life if this is how you're gonna treat it!!!! I'm not a huge bunny fan, those things are like goldfishies, they poop a lot and that makes things smelly and hard to deal with it. But really, how the hell can you leave something so adorable
A'ite folks, I'm gonna end this one somewhere around here...just 'cuz I can :D, and also 'cuz I know yesterday's post
Songs of the Day:
Song: Now We Are Free
OST: Gladiator
Release Date: Circa, 2000
Song: Hurt
Artist/Band: Johnny Cash
Album: American IV: The Man Comes Around
Release Date: Circa, 2002
Song: Numb Encore
Artist/Band: Linkin Park & Jay-Z
Album: Collision Course
Release Date: 2004
Friday, April 2, 2010
Booyakasha
Okay so I know its an unconventional title, but hey can't blame me if that's been stuck in my head since yesterday. So one and all to you I say Booyakasha...and no this isn't Da Ali-G show. So here's the deal, I'm gonna try and condense 2 days worth of stuff in here, and in the process be caught up with the 2nd day of Awesome April, seeing how me just came off of Magnificent March well at times it turned into Murderous and Morose March, but generally Magnificent or Marvellous March. I hope you all had fun pranking people yesterday, what with it bein' April Fool's Day and all, I got pranked in a minor way by a buddy who claimed hair loss due to a bad haircut or a hair experiment gone wrong as conducted by a cousin. If my cousins ever did decide to have an experiment with my hair and that too they decided to conduct it themselves, I'd chase 'em with my cricket bat...speaking of cricket bats and cricket...OMG gooooooo DAAADDAA!!!!!! Holy mother of God that man was beyond amazing yesterday, he will ALWAYS be my #1!!!! One of the world's best left-handed batsmen ever!!! And my team won yesterday too, I hope they keep playing like that though and win a few more matches...its always very heartening when your team wins lol.
Anyhow, flashin' back to 2 days, well Wednesday was the last day of classes before the beginnin' of this awesome thing called a break!!! WOOHOOO...who doesn't love a break and who doesn't need one right? I'm game for one pretty much any time :D...the best part of the break being me being able to catch up on sleep and hopefully lots of it :D. So lets start by saying that Wednesday was the longest last day of class that I think I had the patience to go through lol. The day started off with me getting 'bout 2 hours of sleep, don't ask I think I'm a part-time insomniac who gets all the benefits of being one without getting paid :(...I didn't even ask for this job...:P...oh well, and people say the economy is in shambles, though its better than what it used to be.
Anyhow, the Wednesday started with a 9:30 AM date with Micro, t'was quick and the only down side was I got to see CC so that put a dampener on my otherwise boisterous spirits, wait no my spirits weren't boisterous on Wednesday they were very much attached to the concept of me sleeping in. The quick date was followed through by a torturous time in Physio, I mean hey its a great class n all but I swear it just felt like the proff was dronin' on and on and on and on, like someone gave him a mild dose of the Energizer Bunny's energy drink, now imagine if he had the extra strong full dose of that drink...well for one I guess he wudda had more energy while explaining/teaching, and the slumberin' passion within him for the subject he was teaching wudda jumped up by leaps and bounds. None the less, I do admire our proff he puts up with the bunch of us, and some of us in that bunch can be uber annoying to the point that you really wanna either
a)clock out respective annoyances
b)stick a pacifier into their mouths, no not gullets that would lead to choking which would subsequently lead to Heimmlich's and all that fun stuff that nobody really has the time for at the moment well not when one barely has enough energy to get through a lecture.
c)toss said annoyances outta class
Oooh this matter of annoyances is bringing me very close to one of my pet peeves...which if I dwell on a lot will make me the ultimate hypocrite :D...but then again who isn't a hypocrite these days? None the less, I will spare you all from the wrath of me going off on my pet peeve at this time, I'm sure it is something I will bring up later on because knowing me and my fuming self and knowing my fuming self that writes I'm sure I'll have a huge ass list of pet peeves that will show up on here. And in case you're wondering, yes that list of pet peeves will put Santa's list to shame. And after what seemed like eternity in Painful Physiology we move on to Agonizing Anatomy. Well the course per se is fun if you have time to spend time with the subject matter you're learning but the speed at which we cover the topics we cover makes the pain caused by my sinus attacks and migraines look weak and measly compared to the head rush I get from anatomy. I think I should carry an ice pack with me to class just to make sure the brain doesn't go *splakoosh* and literally shoot outta my head like a geyser. The sad part is I can hear my brain doing so and going *MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA...So long suckaaa!!!!* Prior to agonizing Anatomy I had to, well not exactly confront, but talk to CC about certain apartment things, 'cuz believe it or not the bitch is actually movin' the hell outta here...boo yah! And good luck to whoever is living with CC...may the force be with you. Anyway, the previous day the house maties and I went down to have a chit chat at one of the ppl. in charge of this whole dorm/residence/hostel/living arrangement thing 'cuz CC came in proclaimin' that she was gonna live elsewhere but was comin' back to get some of her shyte and that being said she wasn't gonna pay for utilities, to which my prompt response was 'Yo dude take it up with the landlord and whoever else is in charge I got nothing to do with this.' I was informed further by CC that no utility affecting appliance/facility would be utilized, including the shower...to which I did have a smirk creepin' up on my face, but I had to control the smirk and switch to a serious game face of sorts....it really is hard to do the serious game face when the rest of you is snapping back all these snappy, snazzy, saucy responses and your inner self is cracking up. Oh and what's even harder is to filter through those multiple responses and pick a very neutral and politically correct response. I mean why the hell should one create an opening for a verbal conflict, though in this case I'm pretty sure the verbal wudda switched over to fisties or more like me smacking CC's head going *KAPUFF* ...perhaps that would have been like hitting the reset button on something faulty. Huh...I guess we'll never know if it works or not now will we? None the less I digress, so I had to talk to CC 'bout a few things that the official ppl. in charge of this entire housing/living arrangement quagmire had to say w.r.t utilities and payment and all that fun stuff. The news and info I got from them was really logical and practical and made absolute and perfect sense to me, however, I'm not quite sure what part of the conversation CC heard or what parts she chose to hear and edit and follow. Damn...that's like having your own movie studio and editing, mixing and dubbing right there, its like doing post production work. Okay sorry, I digress again...but yeah firstly when I approached that twat with a whole hey excuse me you pig-headed asinine piece of nonsense can we talk? the response I got was 'No, I don't have time.' I mean clearly, how CAN you have time when you have absolutely nothing to do but to twiddle your thumbs a good 10 minutes before class right? And me bein' silly ol' me just stuck 'round till I got a response that went my way, yes I'm stubborn, can't blame me for it though, its quite the quality that people of my kind possess...we're born with it, ain't much to do when Mars is your ruling planet. Anyway, CC sorta kinda relented very unwillingly only to sigh or rather huff and puff and say 'What? What is it 'bout?' and then I tol' her wat it was 'bout and CC's responses varied from an emphatic 'Psht No!' to a useless 'Whatever!' followed by a firm and final 'Hell No!'. This happened each time I mentioned one of the options mentioned to the point I actually had to say 'Hey I'm not done, let me finish 'ite?' Though me informin' CC 'bout nething that was said to me by the office was a real useless task 'cuz all I got in terms of a response was "Whatever, I a'ready made my arrangements with the person in charge so don't worry 'bout it I'm NOT paying utilities in April.' to which I think I said "'ite just wanted to let ya know, cool w/e peace out." I did have a moment where I wanted to kick my arse for even botherin with the ignoramus, but dammit that's what I get for trying to think 'bout consequences of actions taken in different directions. After this lil' tete-a-tete we headed off to class to enjoy an hour and a half of Anatomy...lemme tell you this section we're doing is a'ready making my head spin and wats ironic 'bout the whole matter is that this new section we're starting up is about the Head...yayy joy times. So the whole time through Anatomy my heart was pounding accelerated beats, the adrenaline was firing up, the fists clenchin' up 'cuz you know wat I get you like being a bitch but that doesn't mean you gotta b one everytime you have a conversation with me. Don't worry in time your true colours will be more dominant than the facades you like to paint. I mean why do you wanna even bother wasting all these emotions and energy in such negativity 'gainst moi? Use it wisely, I mean I'm sure there are other ppl who can possibly piss you off more than me, I mean have you looked at your reflection lately?
None the less, while Anatomy was agonizing I did get a solution or rather there was a resolution the whole CC issue which has me feeling much better than I have in days, it feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I didn't even realize how much it's been eating away at me all these days until I got the resolution to the entire situation...it was a liberating feeling. And the best part of it all was that the weather outside was just perfect and just what I needed, there was this perfect blend of windy-ness and rain, it felt like the whole universe and I were one with each other and that it understood exactly what I was feeling. Days like that just re-inforce my belief that everything is connected, from every vein of a leaf to every drop of rain, to every gust of wind that blows your hair back and breathes a new life through you, to every flake of snow that dances it's way down from it's skyward abode to grace you with it's softness, lightness and playfulness. Of course I'm digressing some more, so moving along with the day, the day ended with a trip to the mall and I finally got something to liven up my space as well as to lighten up my life...and his name is Neptune :D. Nope I didn't get a dog/pup, my mother would chase me with a broomstick and anything and everything within her reach that upon leaving her hands would attain projectile motion of sorts lol. I got myself a betta fish, he's a stunnin' lil' guy, aquamarine in the dark and a reddish/pink with blue tips in the presence of light. Well I'm not quite sure how Neptune is taking to his new owner and stuff, I hope he doesn't die on me, he's pretty easy goin' not overly aggressive, when I try to get his attention or rather when I try to play the follow the finger game with him he usually just turns his fins on me and swims in the opposite direction. The lil' fella surely knows how to take me seriously :P. So yes, my day ended on an absolutely brilliant note what with me returning home with Neptune...now the next space project involves me getting a plant, not that I have a green thumb or anything. The one with the green thumb would be my broda, now that boy has quite the green thumb, I'm sure he got that from my grandmother :)...she had a brilliant garden and her plants loved her, well she was such a soul that pretty much anything and everything loved her, I mean you couldn't help but love her she was that AWESOME, I hope some day I can have or be even a quarter of the person she was and even my parents for that matter. The parental unit is beyond cool lol, if I were in their shoes and I was parenting me I'd be smacking my head more than usual, well I'm smacking my head just thinking 'bout it. Oh and Kobi is really excited 'bout Neptune, in fact she was taking pictures of him on Thursday when I was trying to figure out a space for him in my room. I'm sure I'll figure the perfect spot for him soon, but yeah this is me hoping Nepty doesn't hate me lol, yes I know he's a fish and they don't exactly express their emotions like puppies and kittens do, but they have feelings too :P. Oh and Panda if I get anymore fishies to keep Nepty company I'm definitely naming one of them Panda :P.
Oh also at this point out here's a shout out for the PR group who headed off to Prague to enjoy and celebrate this wonderful thing called a break, I hope you guys have a fantastically phenomenal time in Prague :D and I hope the trip goes without any hitches or problems. Getting back to the time frame I wanna cover, seeing how I wanna do more than a day in this post :P, we roll on towards Thursday the first day of the break...wheeee! Which was also April Fool's Day, and I did mention how a buddy pranked me 'bout his hair, that's what happens when you've been up since 6 in the morning and ure focus is definitely outta focus 'cuz your brain is going 'Dude WHAT THE HELL are you doing up at 6? :|...you're an ass' and I can't help but agree with my brain lol. In fact, I actually fell asleep typing my previous blog entry lol. Well Thursday was quite terrific actually :D...my team won! and man oh man Dada was beyond awesome. Yes I know I've mentioned this before but I can't help myself :D. The day was spent basking in the peace and tranquility left in this place with the exit of CC, and honestly the place feels so much more peaceful and so much more liveable with CC gone. There's this sense of liberation/peace and this comfortable feeling of harmony, and I asked Buddy, my other housemate, if she felt the same way and her response was 'YEAH! totally! I know exactly wat you're talkin' 'bout!' The evening was spent in the awesome company of my Agent, my Consultant and one of my bestest friends ever, i.e., Cyntillator, Jupiter and Ice Cream :P...well who else did you expect? It was fun catching up on various different fronts and being quite clueless where some conversations were concerned and just laughing at each other and ourselves lol. T'was the evening where H&M became HMI and Russell Peters became Peters Russell, you know the last time this name thing happened was with my buddy Paprika. We were talkin' bout Prison Break and we were talkin 'bout the hot guy on the show and her part of the conversation was something like "Oh I totally agree that Miller Wentworth is absolutely HOT!!" Upon hearing that I looked at her and said "Erm..honey you realize you just said his last name first right?" She looked at me and went "Huh? What? Really? Oh man that's what you get for reading bloody journal articles and doing all that bloody APA formattin' nonsense for papers" And at this point we all burst out laughing, I do agree with the whole formattin' system...if there is anything I hate about writing papers it's that last section where you have to list your sources of reference and you gotta follow the whole MLA formattin' style or the Chicago style or whatever else it is that your proffs want or expect from you. That section used to take up most of my time...cripey...
Oh and on other notes from the Day of Fools, CC actually dropped by the house with her buddy Psychotropic and they were conversing in their native tongue, and I assume the conversation to go along the lines of "Oh man, I'm back in this shit=hole I'm so glad I moved outta here, and not living with these idiots who are making my life miserable...boo-hoo...waaaahhh' Anyway they came, they saw, they exclaimed, commented and remarked, put things in bags, kept lockin and unlockin CC's old/current room and then left. I headed out to the kitchen later to wash up dishes and put 'em away, and the side of the sink CC was using or rather that had CC's dirty dishes in it was filthy. So eventually I texted CC and said sum'n along the lines of yo u know the side where your dishes were is really dirty could u please clean it up? Wud b muchos appreciated and I tossed in a thunkers in there to which she responded that she'd swing by the following day and clean up 'cuz she wasn't gonna b 'round that day. So, when I stepped out with the Cyntillator and Jupiter and we were walkin to our destination I saw CC who refused to look me in the eye, muttered sum'n to a buddy of mine walkin' with her b4 she kept walking, now c'mon where are yer manners? Is that how you treat people? I guess it is when you make shit up lol :P. The 3 of us, after that lil' interesting moment, burst out laughing at the awkward situation and resumed talkin' bout more useful less nonsensical things. All in all Day 1 of my break, minus waking up at six in the morning was brilliant :D...awesome day, awesome people that I spent time with and just good conversations and plenty of laughs. I think it's necessary that people always make the time to have a good laugh or two, it keeps one's perspective fresh and it's just very refreshing for one's mind and soul.
Moving on to Day 2 of the break i.e. today, well nothing spectacular happened except for maybe more sleep, more music, indulging in a movie and then some cricket. Damn straight Panda we won!!! :D woohoo! That was an awesome match though, that game was clinched from a losing one to a winner! Now it shall be interesting to see how the semi finals and all the other fun things pan out :D. Oh yeah, and I was trying to taech one of my housemate's how to play cricket, the other one ran to her room saying no no I don't wanna play...eejit lol. It's been a while since I played any cricket at all, damn it felt good to get that ball spinning, nah I don't have a real one with me but i do have my bevvy of tennis balls :D. Now the movie I watched today was eh 'ite, but it had some really interesting music, it was a fusion between Western classical and Classical Indian music and I LOVE hearing stuff like that, 'cuz it has such a fresh appeal to it and it's creativity at it's best. I mean it's one thing to be a master of any kind of classical music be it Western or otherwise. But it takes imagination, foresight and a passionate soul to find that bridge to connect both of them and the end result is one of pure bliss and brilliance. So yes I was blown away, I mean it's not like it's a professional music album created by the Philharmonic Ochestra or something along with India's leading Sitaar player or tabla player or leading singer of Hindustani Music in India. But when you hear the music it has so much soul in it and you can feel the ups and downs of that song, you can feel the emotions in it and end of the day that's all that matters. Hearing a couple songs from the soundtrack of that movie, it had me reminiscing back to a time when I had my own website via Geocities of coures which isn't active anymore as I think the company shut down or were bought off by another company or sum'n. Yeah, when I started that website of mine I had decided I'd have a Bollywood section that was updated and very recent with interviews and all that jazz. And I had also decided I'd do movie reviews for the new ones that came out on Fridays, of course this was me when I was in High School and I learned quickly in High School that time was something that I didn't exactly seem to have to write up my reviews. So instead of writing weekly ones I decided I'd switch to writing reviews for the ones that I did watch, I mean some of those movies are too painful to sit through. Then after that I decided I'd do Music Reviews, I mean I don't think I have that bad a taste when it comes to muzeek, I mean sometimes it is questionable...I won't deny that lol. So, I decided I'd review all these new OST's of Hindi movies yet to be released, but then again the whole time factor kicked in and I kinda had to abandon that. But the funny if not awesome part is that when I think back to those memories/instances of time i can literally track back to the moment, the place, the setting, where I was sitting and what I was doing when I decided I would do that. Yes I astrally projected to the past, lol, it literally felt like I walked back in time, and I can see myself standing/leaning against the door frame watching myself have these epiphanies, in order to increase the hits on my website lol. And I can also see myself deciding against those ideas too in due course of time..its funny how one can view the past as an outsider...I mean you see your younger/past self doing these things, whose consequences you're very aware of, and you wanna reach out and be like 'Are you sure? Do you wanna re-think this?' or you go 'Oh hell yeah keep that attitude and you're gonna totally rock it!!! Don't worry just have faith in your abilities.'
This whole reminiscence thing left me with a smile and at the same time it made me ponder and wonder 'bout the blog, as in is this too much? I tried adding a few gadgets yesterday lol, I was trying to add a lil' more flavour to the blog, toss in a few pictures and stuff, a splash of colour never anybody and excellent photographic skills only accentuates one's appreciation of the beauty we're surrounded by. Anyway people, I think this should be enough of a read for now, however, I do have a question for a few of you. I'm thinkin' of getting rid of the email notifications w.r.t new blog posts 'cuz I don't know how annoying it seems to find it in you inbox on a daily basis and I don't exactly know if it makes you go "AAARRRGGGHHH....stop woman stop!"...so please be darlings and lemme know if those notifications are a pain in the arse or not, if they are I shall work on it pronto, if it doesn't then hey I'll let it be. A'ite peepz, take care, have yourselves an awesome weekend and HAPPY EASTER!!..well at least that's what I think people say right? Have fun egg hunting :D and make sure those bunnies don't steal your eggs...on a sidenote: I should have bought myself a Kinder Egg...sigh Kinder Egg days = Awesome days and even awesomer memories :D...A'ite everybody go do something constructive instead of wasting time and thanks for stopping by! Cheers!
Songs of the Day/(s):
Song: Marching On
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Waking Up
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Song: Missing Persons 1&2
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Waking Up
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Song: Nacha Main
OST: Jaane Kahaan Se Aayi Hain
Release Date: Circa, 2010
Song: Jiya Se Jiya
Artist: A.R. Rahman
Album: Connections
Release Date: Circa, 2010
Song: Tu Jaane Na
OST: Ajab Prem Ki Ghazab Kahaani
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Song: Woh Lamhe
Artist/Band: Jal
Album: Aadat
Release Date: Circa, 2004
Song: Manmohini Morey
OST: Yuvvraaj
Release Date: Circa, 2008
Anyhow, flashin' back to 2 days, well Wednesday was the last day of classes before the beginnin' of this awesome thing called a break!!! WOOHOOO...who doesn't love a break and who doesn't need one right? I'm game for one pretty much any time :D...the best part of the break being me being able to catch up on sleep and hopefully lots of it :D. So lets start by saying that Wednesday was the longest last day of class that I think I had the patience to go through lol. The day started off with me getting 'bout 2 hours of sleep, don't ask I think I'm a part-time insomniac who gets all the benefits of being one without getting paid :(...I didn't even ask for this job...:P...oh well, and people say the economy is in shambles, though its better than what it used to be.
Anyhow, the Wednesday started with a 9:30 AM date with Micro, t'was quick and the only down side was I got to see CC so that put a dampener on my otherwise boisterous spirits, wait no my spirits weren't boisterous on Wednesday they were very much attached to the concept of me sleeping in. The quick date was followed through by a torturous time in Physio, I mean hey its a great class n all but I swear it just felt like the proff was dronin' on and on and on and on, like someone gave him a mild dose of the Energizer Bunny's energy drink, now imagine if he had the extra strong full dose of that drink...well for one I guess he wudda had more energy while explaining/teaching, and the slumberin' passion within him for the subject he was teaching wudda jumped up by leaps and bounds. None the less, I do admire our proff he puts up with the bunch of us, and some of us in that bunch can be uber annoying to the point that you really wanna either
a)clock out respective annoyances
b)stick a pacifier into their mouths, no not gullets that would lead to choking which would subsequently lead to Heimmlich's and all that fun stuff that nobody really has the time for at the moment well not when one barely has enough energy to get through a lecture.
c)toss said annoyances outta class
Oooh this matter of annoyances is bringing me very close to one of my pet peeves...which if I dwell on a lot will make me the ultimate hypocrite :D...but then again who isn't a hypocrite these days? None the less, I will spare you all from the wrath of me going off on my pet peeve at this time, I'm sure it is something I will bring up later on because knowing me and my fuming self and knowing my fuming self that writes I'm sure I'll have a huge ass list of pet peeves that will show up on here. And in case you're wondering, yes that list of pet peeves will put Santa's list to shame. And after what seemed like eternity in Painful Physiology we move on to Agonizing Anatomy. Well the course per se is fun if you have time to spend time with the subject matter you're learning but the speed at which we cover the topics we cover makes the pain caused by my sinus attacks and migraines look weak and measly compared to the head rush I get from anatomy. I think I should carry an ice pack with me to class just to make sure the brain doesn't go *splakoosh* and literally shoot outta my head like a geyser. The sad part is I can hear my brain doing so and going *MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA...So long suckaaa!!!!* Prior to agonizing Anatomy I had to, well not exactly confront, but talk to CC about certain apartment things, 'cuz believe it or not the bitch is actually movin' the hell outta here...boo yah! And good luck to whoever is living with CC...may the force be with you. Anyway, the previous day the house maties and I went down to have a chit chat at one of the ppl. in charge of this whole dorm/residence/hostel/living arrangement thing 'cuz CC came in proclaimin' that she was gonna live elsewhere but was comin' back to get some of her shyte and that being said she wasn't gonna pay for utilities, to which my prompt response was
None the less, while Anatomy was agonizing I did get a solution or rather there was a resolution the whole CC issue which has me feeling much better than I have in days, it feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I didn't even realize how much it's been eating away at me all these days until I got the resolution to the entire situation...it was a liberating feeling. And the best part of it all was that the weather outside was just perfect and just what I needed, there was this perfect blend of windy-ness and rain, it felt like the whole universe and I were one with each other and that it understood exactly what I was feeling. Days like that just re-inforce my belief that everything is connected, from every vein of a leaf to every drop of rain, to every gust of wind that blows your hair back and breathes a new life through you, to every flake of snow that dances it's way down from it's skyward abode to grace you with it's softness, lightness and playfulness. Of course I'm digressing some more, so moving along with the day, the day ended with a trip to the mall and I finally got something to liven up my space as well as to lighten up my life...and his name is Neptune :D. Nope I didn't get a dog/pup, my mother would chase me with a broomstick and anything and everything within her reach that upon leaving her hands would attain projectile motion of sorts lol. I got myself a betta fish, he's a stunnin' lil' guy, aquamarine in the dark and a reddish/pink with blue tips in the presence of light. Well I'm not quite sure how Neptune is taking to his new owner and stuff, I hope he doesn't die on me, he's pretty easy goin' not overly aggressive, when I try to get his attention or rather when I try to play the follow the finger game with him he usually just turns his fins on me and swims in the opposite direction. The lil' fella surely knows how to take me seriously :P. So yes, my day ended on an absolutely brilliant note what with me returning home with Neptune...now the next space project involves me getting a plant, not that I have a green thumb or anything. The one with the green thumb would be my broda, now that boy has quite the green thumb, I'm sure he got that from my grandmother :)...she had a brilliant garden and her plants loved her, well she was such a soul that pretty much anything and everything loved her, I mean you couldn't help but love her she was that AWESOME, I hope some day I can have or be even a quarter of the person she was and even my parents for that matter. The parental unit is beyond cool lol, if I were in their shoes and I was parenting me I'd be smacking my head more than usual, well I'm smacking my head just thinking 'bout it. Oh and Kobi is really excited 'bout Neptune, in fact she was taking pictures of him on Thursday when I was trying to figure out a space for him in my room. I'm sure I'll figure the perfect spot for him soon, but yeah this is me hoping Nepty doesn't hate me lol, yes I know he's a fish and they don't exactly express their emotions like puppies and kittens do, but they have feelings too :P. Oh and Panda if I get anymore fishies to keep Nepty company I'm definitely naming one of them Panda :P.
Oh also at this point out here's a shout out for the PR group who headed off to Prague to enjoy and celebrate this wonderful thing called a break, I hope you guys have a fantastically phenomenal time in Prague :D and I hope the trip goes without any hitches or problems. Getting back to the time frame I wanna cover, seeing how I wanna do more than a day in this post :P, we roll on towards Thursday the first day of the break...wheeee! Which was also April Fool's Day, and I did mention how a buddy pranked me 'bout his hair, that's what happens when you've been up since 6 in the morning and ure focus is definitely outta focus 'cuz your brain is going 'Dude WHAT THE HELL are you doing up at 6? :|...you're an ass' and I can't help but agree with my brain lol. In fact, I actually fell asleep typing my previous blog entry lol. Well Thursday was quite terrific actually :D...my team won! and man oh man Dada was beyond awesome. Yes I know I've mentioned this before but I can't help myself :D. The day was spent basking in the peace and tranquility left in this place with the exit of CC, and honestly the place feels so much more peaceful and so much more liveable with CC gone. There's this sense of liberation/peace and this comfortable feeling of harmony, and I asked Buddy, my other housemate, if she felt the same way and her response was 'YEAH! totally! I know exactly wat you're talkin' 'bout!' The evening was spent in the awesome company of my Agent, my Consultant and one of my bestest friends ever, i.e., Cyntillator, Jupiter and Ice Cream :P...well who else did you expect? It was fun catching up on various different fronts and being quite clueless where some conversations were concerned and just laughing at each other and ourselves lol. T'was the evening where H&M became HMI and Russell Peters became Peters Russell, you know the last time this name thing happened was with my buddy Paprika. We were talkin' bout Prison Break and we were talkin 'bout the hot guy on the show and her part of the conversation was something like "Oh I totally agree that Miller Wentworth is absolutely HOT!!" Upon hearing that I looked at her and said "Erm..honey you realize you just said his last name first right?" She looked at me and went "Huh? What? Really? Oh man that's what you get for reading bloody journal articles and doing all that bloody APA formattin' nonsense for papers" And at this point we all burst out laughing, I do agree with the whole formattin' system...if there is anything I hate about writing papers it's that last section where you have to list your sources of reference and you gotta follow the whole MLA formattin' style or the Chicago style or whatever else it is that your proffs want or expect from you. That section used to take up most of my time...cripey...
Oh and on other notes from the Day of Fools, CC actually dropped by the house with her buddy Psychotropic and they were conversing in their native tongue, and I assume the conversation to go along the lines of "Oh man, I'm back in this shit=hole I'm so glad I moved outta here, and not living with these idiots who are making my life miserable...boo-hoo...waaaahhh
Moving on to Day 2 of the break i.e. today, well nothing spectacular happened except for maybe more sleep, more music, indulging in a movie and then some cricket. Damn straight Panda we won!!! :D woohoo! That was an awesome match though, that game was clinched from a losing one to a winner! Now it shall be interesting to see how the semi finals and all the other fun things pan out :D. Oh yeah, and I was trying to taech one of my housemate's how to play cricket, the other one ran to her room saying no no I don't wanna play...eejit lol. It's been a while since I played any cricket at all, damn it felt good to get that ball spinning, nah I don't have a real one with me but i do have my bevvy of tennis balls :D. Now the movie I watched today was eh 'ite, but it had some really interesting music, it was a fusion between Western classical and Classical Indian music and I LOVE hearing stuff like that, 'cuz it has such a fresh appeal to it and it's creativity at it's best. I mean it's one thing to be a master of any kind of classical music be it Western or otherwise. But it takes imagination, foresight and a passionate soul to find that bridge to connect both of them and the end result is one of pure bliss and brilliance. So yes I was blown away, I mean it's not like it's a professional music album created by the Philharmonic Ochestra or something along with India's leading Sitaar player or tabla player or leading singer of Hindustani Music in India. But when you hear the music it has so much soul in it and you can feel the ups and downs of that song, you can feel the emotions in it and end of the day that's all that matters. Hearing a couple songs from the soundtrack of that movie, it had me reminiscing back to a time when I had my own website via Geocities of coures
This whole reminiscence thing left me with a smile and at the same time it made me ponder and wonder 'bout the blog, as in is this too much? I tried adding a few gadgets yesterday lol, I was trying to add a lil' more flavour to the blog, toss in a few pictures and stuff, a splash of colour never anybody and excellent photographic skills only accentuates one's appreciation of the beauty we're surrounded by. Anyway people, I think this should be enough of a read for now, however, I do have a question for a few of you. I'm thinkin' of getting rid of the email notifications w.r.t new blog posts 'cuz I don't know how annoying it seems to find it in you inbox on a daily basis and I don't exactly know if it makes you go "AAARRRGGGHHH....stop woman stop!"...so please be darlings and lemme know if those notifications are a pain in the arse or not, if they are I shall work on it pronto, if it doesn't then hey I'll let it be. A'ite peepz, take care, have yourselves an awesome weekend and HAPPY EASTER!!..well at least that's what I think people say right? Have fun egg hunting :D and make sure those bunnies don't steal your eggs...on a sidenote: I should have bought myself a Kinder Egg...sigh Kinder Egg days = Awesome days and even awesomer memories :D...A'ite everybody go do something constructive instead of wasting time and thanks for stopping by! Cheers!
Songs of the Day/(s):
Song: Marching On
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Waking Up
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Song: Missing Persons 1&2
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Waking Up
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Song: Nacha Main
OST: Jaane Kahaan Se Aayi Hain
Release Date: Circa, 2010
Song: Jiya Se Jiya
Artist: A.R. Rahman
Album: Connections
Release Date: Circa, 2010
Song: Tu Jaane Na
OST: Ajab Prem Ki Ghazab Kahaani
Release Date: Circa, 2009
Song: Woh Lamhe
Artist/Band: Jal
Album: Aadat
Release Date: Circa, 2004
Song: Manmohini Morey
OST: Yuvvraaj
Release Date: Circa, 2008
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Musings and then some
Well as was seen w.r.t my last post, it was quite intense on the musings front, sometimes my brain likes to have a nice lil' verbal explanation as to how and why things work the way they do. It's some sort of justification for a person's or people's actions or it gains some sorta closure from overthinking and overtiring it's self out. That's one thing I've never understood 'bout my brain and I don't think I ever will...the overcontemplation of matters will forever be a mystery to myself and will forever screw my head over more than necessary lol. But then again, that's the fact of my life, I admit it and eh I'll live with it like I have all these years. Eh a day or 2 before u go off on a nice lil' break your mind and body can't help you find motivation of any form, kind or sort to get you to read a page of sum'n to do with akademia. My brain has more or less flat lined on me and tol' me to screw off and leave it in peace for a while, the early warning signs for this were quite visible from the amount of headaches my brain commissioned so as to launch anti studying as well as anti memorizing of pertinent information strikes on me. I mean the brain finds it possible and plausible to remember useless information and in times of dire need and dire circumstances, the first bits of information that comes to you is the unnecessary bits of factoid that you don't have any use for at that precise moment when you're doing a quiz or a test, you start searching the depths of your brain for the answer to the problem instead you keep getting interrupted by either the factoid or, if you have a brain like mine that has a jukebox in there, then you get interrupted by a bevvy of songs. And then once the test, quiz, or whatever major thing it is that you're doing that requires your brain to be in full working capacity.
And to top all of that my brain is definitely aware of this Easter break that is coming up on us, which I must say I am thrilled to bits 'bout 'cuz I don't have to wake up at the crack of dawn to go to classes...though that doesn't quite stop my body from waking up at 7 in the morning . So knowing this break is upon us, the rest/creative/wheeee lets not do anything side has been acting up and so I spent my Tuesday trying to do anything and everything aside from studying. Then there was that tantalizing offer of doing the quiz, that I was trying to study for, the following week...c'mon which sane person would not go 'Oh screw this I'll do it next week.' It really is that good an offer lol. Anyhow while a majority of me wanted to do it next week, there was the inner voice and Kobi who said 'Yo just get it done tomorrow then you don't have to worry 'bout it next week when we have other partials to take care of.' The inner response to that conflict was *Groan...* followed by a *sigh...this is true, I won't overscrew my self over with work and whine next week going why didn't I just do it last week.* And so with a heavy heart and head and huge ass sigh I sat myself down and decided it was time to read 'bout bacteria and it's siblings and perhaps extended family since they do multiply like crazy lol. Though that's not to say I didn't have my share of distractions...honestly what does one do when one has awesome distractions in the form of cricket and music. I haven't returned to my TV shows yet, maybe I'll catch up on 'em this week, or not...haven't quite decided yet. And not too sure what there is to watch on the movie front, more like I'm quite undecided 'bout what I feel like watching. Maybe catch a couple of Hindi flicks but then again there's the question of what do I watch lol. I'm definitely in the mood for something light, and for some reason I'm having a Disney moment, where I wanna watch Disney classics :D...perhaps I should get started on that. At least its some form of therapy from the craziness called CC...but then again the world is made up of lots of people and there are lots of people like CC okay maybe not as psychotic or maybe 10 times as psychotic, w/e the case may be...I really do hope nobody has to endure a piece of shyte of a human being like that more than necessary. The only thing that's held me back from dishing it out to her and giving her an access pass to the ER is my big picture view, which is pretty much the "It's a'ite its a valuable lesson in patience and tolerance and hey if you can put up with this crap imagine how things in the future can be handled" Of course there was the other part of my wonderfully disassociative brain that pretty much smacked the Zen side of my brain and said you're an idiot just knock the livin' daylights outta CC that should solve all problems. A quick fix to an annoying problem. With the way CC keeps barkin n bitchin' its like watching one of those lil' hairy fuzzy dogs barking at the big guys like the labs or german sheps and they just keep barkin n barkin n barkin tryin to say "Yo you may be big in size but I got more bark than you" and they keep trying to drive the big one insane, until all it takes from the big guy to shut the lil' one up is 1 bark. Whenever I walk around to school or just around the place I keep seeing this lol, its a very amusing sight lol, and I'm sure I'm an amusing sight to the people walking by me 'cuz I have this idiotic grin/smile pasted on my face. Oh well it is a free country, people have the right to make the deductions they make :P.
On other notes, people!! go check out OneRepublic's 2nd album...its awesome!!! I love the way these guys experiment with different sounds, and I love how they use the Cello in their songs :D...its some great musical stuff, it doesn't sound like regular fare and there's been experimentation of sorts to give a sorta worldly feel to it. Not only that, the lyrics of their songs are pretty awesome, if you haven't checked out their songs from their debut album "Dreaming Out Loud" then please do go check those out. If anything I'm pretty sure you've heard at least 1 song from that album 'cuz of all the air play it's received and also 'cuz Timbaland had his version of it on his album Shock Value, if all these clues don't give you an idea as to what song I'm talkin 'bout, then just think 'Apologize' :D...though I do prefer the original over the 'remix' version lol. On other musical notes, I'd like to thank a very very dear A&A friend of mine who has stuck by my side since jeez High School Yo G! thanks for the Awesome awesome song you sent, you have no idea dude but that was exactly what I needed at that moment :) so thank you very much and your timing, may I add madamoseille, as always is beyond impeccable, it was the divine intervention I needed when I got your email :). So thunkers and I hope All iz Well with you as well, and yes I did start this bloggin' thing recently :P.
A'ite people time for me 2 say adios and cheerio, but not without the daily dosage of songs, and besides I gotta save a few for the next post too, so keep watchin' this space, that is if you are watching this space and if you watchin' this space then I guess you really are bored outta your mind lol. Oh cripey I do have to get going, must find cables to upload pictures from my camera...groan...which means cleaning up...whee. Let's see how far my hustle goes lol. Cheerio!
Songs of the Day:
Song: Laari Chooti
OST: Ek Chaalis Ki Last Local
Release Date: Circa, 2007
Song: Bandya
OST: Khuda Kay Liye
Release Date: Circa, 2007
Song: Ehsaan
OST: Dil Kabbadi
Release Date: Circa, 2008
Song: Iris
Artist/Band: The Goo Goo Dolls
Album: Dizzy Up The Girl
Release Date: Circa, 1998
Song: Emosanal Attyachar
OST: Dev. D
Release Date: 2009
And to top all of that my brain is definitely aware of this Easter break that is coming up on us, which I must say I am thrilled to bits 'bout 'cuz I don't have to wake up at the crack of dawn to go to classes...though that doesn't quite stop my body from waking up at 7 in the morning . So knowing this break is upon us, the rest/creative/wheeee lets not do anything side has been acting up and so I spent my Tuesday trying to do anything and everything aside from studying. Then there was that tantalizing offer of doing the quiz, that I was trying to study for, the following week...c'mon which sane person would not go 'Oh screw this I'll do it next week.' It really is that good an offer lol. Anyhow while a majority of me wanted to do it next week, there was the inner voice and Kobi who said 'Yo just get it done tomorrow then you don't have to worry 'bout it next week when we have other partials to take care of.' The inner response to that conflict was *Groan...* followed by a *sigh...this is true, I won't overscrew my self over with work and whine next week going why didn't I just do it last week.* And so with a heavy heart and head and huge ass sigh I sat myself down and decided it was time to read 'bout bacteria and it's siblings and perhaps extended family since they do multiply like crazy lol. Though that's not to say I didn't have my share of distractions...honestly what does one do when one has awesome distractions in the form of cricket and music. I haven't returned to my TV shows yet, maybe I'll catch up on 'em this week, or not...haven't quite decided yet. And not too sure what there is to watch on the movie front, more like I'm quite undecided 'bout what I feel like watching. Maybe catch a couple of Hindi flicks but then again there's the question of what do I watch lol. I'm definitely in the mood for something light, and for some reason I'm having a Disney moment, where I wanna watch Disney classics :D...perhaps I should get started on that. At least its some form of therapy from the craziness called CC...but then again the world is made up of lots of people and there are lots of people like CC okay maybe not as psychotic or maybe 10 times as psychotic, w/e the case may be...I really do hope nobody has to endure a piece of shyte of a human being like that more than necessary. The only thing that's held me back from dishing it out to her and giving her an access pass to the ER is my big picture view, which is pretty much the "It's a'ite its a valuable lesson in patience and tolerance and hey if you can put up with this crap imagine how things in the future can be handled" Of course there was the other part of my wonderfully disassociative brain that pretty much smacked the Zen side of my brain and said you're an idiot just knock the livin' daylights outta CC that should solve all problems. A quick fix to an annoying problem. With the way CC keeps barkin n bitchin' its like watching one of those lil' hairy fuzzy dogs barking at the big guys like the labs or german sheps and they just keep barkin n barkin n barkin tryin to say "Yo you may be big in size but I got more bark than you" and they keep trying to drive the big one insane, until all it takes from the big guy to shut the lil' one up is 1 bark. Whenever I walk around to school or just around the place I keep seeing this lol, its a very amusing sight lol, and I'm sure I'm an amusing sight to the people walking by me 'cuz I have this idiotic grin/smile pasted on my face. Oh well it is a free country, people have the right to make the deductions they make :P.
On other notes, people!! go check out OneRepublic's 2nd album...its awesome!!! I love the way these guys experiment with different sounds, and I love how they use the Cello in their songs :D...its some great musical stuff, it doesn't sound like regular fare and there's been experimentation of sorts to give a sorta worldly feel to it. Not only that, the lyrics of their songs are pretty awesome, if you haven't checked out their songs from their debut album "Dreaming Out Loud" then please do go check those out. If anything I'm pretty sure you've heard at least 1 song from that album 'cuz of all the air play it's received and also 'cuz Timbaland had his version of it on his album Shock Value, if all these clues don't give you an idea as to what song I'm talkin 'bout, then just think 'Apologize' :D...though I do prefer the original over the 'remix' version lol. On other musical notes, I'd like to thank a very very dear A&A friend of mine who has stuck by my side since jeez High School
A'ite people time for me 2 say adios and cheerio, but not without the daily dosage of songs, and besides I gotta save a few for the next post too, so keep watchin' this space, that is if you are watching this space and if you watchin' this space then I guess you really are bored outta your mind lol. Oh cripey I do have to get going, must find cables to upload pictures from my camera...groan...which means cleaning up...whee. Let's see how far my hustle goes lol. Cheerio!
Songs of the Day:
Song: Laari Chooti
OST: Ek Chaalis Ki Last Local
Release Date: Circa, 2007
Song: Bandya
OST: Khuda Kay Liye
Release Date: Circa, 2007
Song: Ehsaan
OST: Dil Kabbadi
Release Date: Circa, 2008
Song: Iris
Artist/Band: The Goo Goo Dolls
Album: Dizzy Up The Girl
Release Date: Circa, 1998
Song: Emosanal Attyachar
OST: Dev. D
Release Date: 2009
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