Musings of an Overtried and Overfried Human Being

Well I was contemplating Brain for Being but then again it is my entire being that is bothered not just one part of me. And yes that does read Overtried, its not Overtired. Yes I figure you can handle more than one post from me at a time, if I knew you couldn't do you actually think I would keep adding posts on here? Well lets just say my Monday was a very fascinating Monday, it started with CC's shenanigans of moving shit outta the bedroom, and it wasn't re-organization it was a moving out kinda move that was going on at 01:00 AM, I mean honestly if you wanna do the great big haul do it a reasonable hour and not an Un-Godly hour, I mean even the G-man would come down and smack you for disrupting the peace, but lucky for CC the G-man had other time zones and other people and beings to work with. So now we move on towards Motivational Monday, which let me assure you it wasn't. In fact it was more Murderous Monday than Motivational Monday and the piece of shyte responsible for the murderous, crimson clouds of anger, hate and a thousand other such emotions...pulsing and pounding was lucky to not have the blood red drops of anger break loose or break free. As much as I do advocate against such emotions the one thing I like about all of those mentioned above is the how clean and pure those emotions are. They're single sided, there are no dimensions, they cut sharp as the sharpest blades, they're direct there's no blunting and they're one dimensional, and they're intense particles containing megawatts of energy that's forever ready and burstin' at the seams to lash out and literally slice away or swipe away any opposition. And here's the next thing, none of these emotions/attributes are meant for a few, for instance say love...yes I find it to be something that's a rarity not everybody is lucky in this thing called love and to those of you who have it, hold on to it and hold on bloody tightly to it or imma come kick your arse :D. So going back to what I was saying, the opposite end of the spectrum of the emotion spectrum is not something that a few are destined to have, its there in all of us, lurking right there under the surface waiting, watching, being that proverbial fuel to the burning fires of ambition, determination and oh so much more...that just keeps us going. Its not always necessary that the other end of the spectrum is the worst thing one can be...'cuz in order to gain that which makes us and lets us be and shapes us into who we become we need a lil' taste of the bitter side to get where we wanna go. It's exactly like what the Dao De Jing says, 'It is in chaos that one finds order' and works on the same lines of it is in darkness one finds light and in chaos one finds harmony. None the less with all this said and done, it doesn't mean I'm sitting and being all meditative, I still wanna go kick CC's arse, bloody stupid cow.

Yeah I know there are things in life one should let go and one should just forget but I really hope but I hope Karma gives this bitch back what she deserves and with interest. That's what she should get for ruining a few lives, I mean how mentally and emotionally depraved can one be to set out on a mission to break people down just 'cuz they don't bow down to your stupid wishes or follow whatever it is you do? Ever heard of the concept of originality? If you keep stifling people how the hell are they EVER supposed to get to achieving their max potential, okay forget that...if you stop people from being their own person how the hell can they become the person they're meant to become? There's so much this world needs, and no this blog isn't 'bout politics or political parties or any nonsense of that sort. All those things involve too much analysis and understanding into the concept of power games. I for one have hated power games, bloody hell sometimes it isn't about the power involved...it isn't 'bout the bloody greed either, it's about trying to make a difference, it really is about trying to make the world a safer and better place to live in, where we share common agendas/a common platform, one of progress...one of moving forward together as a single unit and of picking up and carrying forward those who can't do so themselves. Yeah I know I'm a bloody idealist...sue me...but this is what I envision tomorrow to be or at least the future to be. All these power hungry, overambitious to the point of breaking people with no qualms and no conscience conflicts, overly competitive people just piss the living daylights outta me. I'm glad you're competitive but don't try to go outta your way to make a person's life miserable or to break a person, 'cuz the success you get outta that is not even worthy of praise. If you get somewehre in life by doing that, good for you but one day it's gonna wear off and bid you a fine farewell and then like most things in life, it'll b a cycle that'll come to knock you off your feet. Only you're gonna spend the rest of your life through your ill gotten gains being so bloody paranoid that you might be the only one/thing that causes your own downfall.

I don't expect this to be a life altering, mind boggling post, its not, it's just me expressing my vexations and frustrations at how low people are willing to go morally and any other way. Never and by that I mean NEVER ever sell your principles or your ethics in return for anything, its the only thing that gives you any sorta credibility. Yeah sure if you own the world by doing so then more power to you but the world needs more examples of people who can lead by principle than by those who don't even know what the word means.

Well that's that for now folks, I gotta go get some work done so I can actually feel like I did something productive as opposed to sitting here and worrying and despairing over things that I don't and can't physically control or alter in order to make things better for those that I know definitely deserve it. Screw making things better for myself, that's something I gotta work on by myself that's not even my concern, the things I do in my life aren't done with me being the prime target that needs satisfaction or fulfillment. I get my satisfaction from seeing how far I can reach out and how many people's lives I can change. I get my happiness from that, I don't need much, as long as I got my music, my books to read, my writing implements + paper or a book and the love of those that matter most wat the hell more do I need? Well time to peace out, I hope all is well with all of ye, take care and be well people. Cheers!

Songs of the Day:

Song: Furious Angels (Instrumental)
OST: Matrix Reloaded
Composer: Rob Dougan
Release Date: Circa, 2003

Song: Say When
Artist/Band: The Fray
Album: The Fray
Release Date: Circa, 2007

Song: We Build Then We Break
Artist/Band: The Fray
Album: The Fray
Release Date: Circa, 2007

Song: Numb
Artist/Band: Linkin Park
Album: Meteora
Release Date: Circa, 2003

Song: Dream Awake
Artist/Band: The Frames
Album: Burn The Maps
Releaes Date: Circa, 2004

Lazy Lamhe

And so after a sombre, smooth Saturday we drift on to soulful Sunday. Well okay maybe soulful is an over exaggeration of how my Sunday was, it was more confusing than soulful lol, what with the whole change in time business. Apparently we all leaped an hour forward, I woke up checked my laptop, it read a certain time...I was content with the time I woke up and then I stumbled over to my table to grab my glass of water, and my watch was glaring right back at me with the time reading out to be an hour before, I think I quirked my eyebrow in response to it lol. Not that my watch nor time cares, but yeah for some reason time seemed to be hitting the gas pedal yesterday, things were racing by, the day was flying by and I had a quiz to study for lol, such is the story of my life. So I finally sat my arse down and started reading...wasn't that the trip of my life? Well after I finished reading the first packet, I was all eh I feel sleepy and *kaplonk* i collapsed into my wonderful bed and slept. Now I thought I was taking maybe a 2 hour nap, I open my eyes and the clock stares right back at me with the words 11 PM smirking at me. Did I panic? No, I don't think so, I think my reaction was more of a "Aww really? C'mon! its 11 a'ready? But ha! originally its 10 so its all good." I think I was also amazed at how utterly wide awake I was and had this energy reserve going for a bit lol, of course those energy reserves are an LTO

I did however get to listen to some awesome music that I used to have once upon a time on my lil' portable jukebox ...so yayy I amped up on soul food which is always fantastic 'cuz soul food = the greatest thing one can have, I mean the thing with music is that it embraces the concept of forever, of all things eternal. No matter what happens its always there, forever faithful, forever listening, forever calming...right I'll stop with the music tribute. None the less, the Sunday equalled more relaxation and resting I guess with a hint of akademia and of course can't forget that lovely game called cricket, though I didn't exactly watch much of it. Saw some amazing fielding though, yeah go Sachin!!! that was a brilliant catch. Anyway people, I hope you all had an enjoyable weekend, and oh my would you look at that? This might actually be one of my first short entries on here...daayyyuummm!!!! Take care and good luck with whatever it is that you are all tackling at the moment. Cheers!

Songs of the Day:

Song: Aao Na (Unplugged version)
Artist: Adnan Sami
Album: Kabhi To Nazar Milao
Release Date: Circa 2007

Song: Aaja Ve Aaja
Artist: Sona Mohapatra
Release Date: Circa 2006

Song: Akela Dil
OST: Dulha Mil Gaya
Release Date: Circa 2009

Song: Sau Dard
OST: Jaan-E-Mann
Release Date: Circa 2006

R n R

Okay I know I tend to overuse this particular phrase or rather expression, so just to clear it up.. this one stands for the original concept of rest n relaxation :D...a concept I LOVE! I mean I would say recreation too but I'm not much of a re-creator, I can't re-create but I do enjoy and indulge myself in re-enjoying creations. So yes, hello again one and all, apparently I write more than I talk or wait do I do the other more than the other? Or are both done at relatively the same amount? Hmm...I shall figure that one out at some point in time, but like I said I would update so here I am updating :P...this updating business is such a constant process of life now 'en it? Anything can happen in a matter of seconds...well its either that or I'm a really good procrastinator Hey looky looky I discovered something I'm good at :D yayyy procrastination. Well technically, I'm not procrastinating, I just got through an aggravating lecture packet and so here I am taking a break, one does need those breaks, they're very refreshing and insightful and most of them tend to take up more time than the amount of time spent studying. Okay maybe I generalized that a lil' too much, maybe I'm the only one who does that and everybody else is just way too awesome as far as this studying, focus thing is concerned.

So how did my Saturday start? Well for starters I was up at 7 in the morning :|...I mean c'mon!!! Its the bleeding weekend and I wake up at 7, well when I woke up it was nice and sunny and bright and I woke up all contented going 'Aaah I slept in nicely, must be 1 in the afternoon or so for it to be this bright' I turn around check my laptop and the lil' clock thing at the bottom right corner of the screen read 7 and my instant rxn. was :| really? wtf mate? And by then I couldn't fall right back to sleep 'cuz I have this problem where once I'm woken up or I'm awake I can't fall back to sleep. Now THAT, is a very annoying problem lol. So yeah, I was up at 7 going 'Hmmm what to do now?' See there were plans involved for a certain someone later on in the evening, well before you guys start conjuring scenarios up, lemme butt in and cut those thoughts short by saying that I had a birthday partay to attend later that evening lol. And my oh my what an awesome partay it was, well the main star or rather the Birthday Girl is one of the most amazing and awesome people I have ever come across thus far :D, yes I have an Awesome and Amazing set of friends, it can't get any better for me. Oh right since this post is coming on now Cyntillator I wish ye a Belated Happy Birthday, I hope you had fun @ your surprise partay :D...we all did lol.

Going back to my 7 AM musings, I think I stared at things for a lil' bit trying to figure out how I could make a birthday present all the more interesting, since I couldn't find anything appropriate or I guess I didn't try hard enough trying to find one. About 8 I had an epiphany, I decided to make a birthday card, I used to do things like that when I was younger. And I learned something 'bout myself from my art project....I was better and faster when I was younger and that its not exactly my area of strength lol but I also learned that its an absolutely awesome way to work on all those issues/things I have on my mind. What else did I have set up for Saturday...oh yeah cricket! well IPL :D...pretty soon the world T20 is gonna start up, I actually just went through the team roster to look at the final picks made by Team India. It's interesting, and I wish them all the very best, they actually picked a spinner for the squad who at the moment is one of the highest run givers in the IPL. But then again being a spinner takes a lot of work, practise and it's a constant work in progress...because you or rather the bowler is always trying to find a balance between line, length and spin works. The art of being a spinner is one that's beyond beauty, because you get to control the pace, the turn and in the end you get to control the game. You're the power player, so what if the other team has some of the best batsmen in the world, a spinner can change the course of a game. A few of my idols include Anil Kumble , Shane Warne , Muttiah Muralidharan and can't forget Bhajji a.k.a Harbhajan Singh, who btw is having an awesome IPL season :D...nice work today Bhajji in the Mumbai Indians game. You are full of surprises aren't you?

Besides turning into some whacked out version of Picasso, and watchin' or rather enjoying myself by watching a live cricket match my day was amusing, I think I actually had a much longer conversation with yet another Awesome n Amazing friend of mine out here via our cell phones/mobiles...yay text msgs lol than I have in person, the hectic atmosphere called school limits conversations what it does instead is improve body and sign language. The perks of akademia :P...you become a universal sign reader and sign giver :P or you could just be the Master of Charades. All in all Saturday was a good intro into break mode, though I do have a few more hurdles to jump before I can officially be on break mode, gotta temporarily hit the brakes on break mode and accelerate into akademik mode, oh the joys of switching gears and to think I've never learned how to drive stick. Hmmm driving reminds me of a summer project I'd like to take up that would absolutely and completely piss my mother off, well that would be an understatement lol. I wanna get my motorcycle license, I know my dad wud b excited 'cuz the paternal unit can't exactly say no seeing how that would make him the world's bigggeeesssttt hypocrite. The boy used to ride a bike back in the day and got into quite a few accidents trying to show off lol, so yes...my mother would kill me, bring me back to life only to kill me again lol. Now there's some summer contemplation plans eh? Should I turn rebel and go against the wishes or just take the sane option? lol. My mother's response when I told her I'd like to get my motorcycle license she looked at me and said "HELL NO. Why do you want one? So you can be somebody else's roadkill?" Now I got a similar response from the maternal unit as well when I expressed my desire to learn how to operate a motorcycle. And I was expecting some support from that department, let me just tell you that was an epic FAIL.

However, on other notes, the plan to get more oxygen supplies in this room as well as a lil' more life is sorta kinda in effect, now the hunting begins, I am contemplating getting some nemos too to keep me some company, not that they're the talking kind of life but hey at least they'll listen and if they don't there's always water to stare at and fishies swimming in water to stare at lol. Nehoo, I should end this break spell of mine, so I'm gonna head back to the words awaiting my arrival . Take care all and I hope you had/have an awesome weekend and a ridiculously wicked start to the week :D. Cheers!

Songs of the Day:

Song: August's Rhapsody
OST: August Rush
Release Date: Circa 2007

Song: Delhi 6
OST: Delhi 6
Release Date: Circa 2009

Song: Iktara
OST: Wake Up Sid
Release Date: Circa 2009
BJ all the credit, you totally rock BJ and one day some day soon we can start jammin' over the goodness called Skype lol. Miss ya loads and hopefuly will see ya soon :D>

Fizzled Friday

So going with the flow of things and picking up from where I last left off, that namely/kindly being Traumatic Thursday we finally get to THE DAY...oh don't worry I had my funeral song playing even before the day started, t'was the day for major brain screwage. See here's the funny thing, I thought my brain was so overloaded that it would feel empty, instead I had steel drums playing in my head. Here's the crummy part 'bout weather changes, my sinuses fluctuate just like the weather, so that entire week they were having their own heavy metal concert in my head. But then again you can't always avoid and miss things 'cuz you have your own personal heavy metal band playing in your head. Imagine if you could? sigh..don't we live in a world full of possibilities?

None the less, so Friday came and boy oh boy how it made it's grand entrance. Well actually by late Thursday night/Friday morning I just wanted the wretched week to end so I could skip to the part where I got some sleep and was actually all rested, you all know what I'm talking 'bout...that fun thing called the weekend......Nehoo, I still have to get through the fantastical events of Friday dun' I? Well the most amazing thing 'bout Friday was my amazement at how much the human brain can be pummeled and how stubborn and resistant it is when it decides on a set course of action...unless that stubborn part is one you would attribute to one's personality...in which case that doesn't exactly reflect too well on me, but that's cool I've been known to be as stubborn as a mule apparently...and yes who else but my lovely familial unit would draw such a wonderful conclusion. Well there was this one other teacher who outrightly insulted me, but hey that's another can of worms I don't really wanna get into 'cuz I can go on a tirade, considering how I've heard my broda and my buddy panda complain 'bout how long these entries are. Though one of 'em reads this at work instead of doing work Well speaking of panda, panda is awesome and deals with my constant harassment on a very regular basis so yes I am thankful I know panda b/c not a lotta people can take my constant harassment of 'Yo can you read this and gimme some feedback whenever you get the time?' and then I go on a constant mode of 'Oye hey howz it going? and btw did you read what I sent you?' So Panda thank you for putting up with that lol, see in his case I don't ask I make him read it lol.

So moving on from Panda diversion, the morning was one filled with a lotta vexation over what to look over, what area I should focus on or what area might be a probable field of question landmines on my test. And keeping time with the sound of those thoughts was my bludgeoning headache... Then came the test time, we had diversions before we finally got to the wretched test, 'cuz the last time the Anatomy department wanted us to stick around for sum'n after our test and on the same day we had a Biochem test we all ran for our dear lives. So what did those smart people do this time? They made us do all the stuff we would usually do after the lab/test right before the test. Not that that stuff isn't a lotta fun, but when you have limited brain energy quantities and a constant mantra of 'Oh c'mon for the love of the G-man let us do this and get the hell outta here we have to go study for the next one.' Don't blame us for not being bursting rays of sunshine, we tend to be radiant moon beams more than those warm, bouncy, energy bound rays of sunshine.

Anyway, once that was done the looks on people's faces varied from 'WTF was that?' to 'Syntax Error-failure to compute anything' to 'Oh HELL yeah I kicked some major ass on that test' to 'Eh lets get on with the program one more thing to do' to 'Screw all this, gotta rush rush rush to the next one, gotta push push push for one more and then get a) sloshed like never before, b) to a club to dance the night away, or c) to bed and sleep like the dead for as long as I possibly can'. I think I should get a few plants to amp up the oxygen flow in my room, what with the stifling presence of CC and the persistent pursuance of matters by PP can always do with a lot more oxygen, helps to calm down frayed nerves and improves air quality and breathing and all that good stuff that one needs for their health lol.

The morning dosage was followed by a lethal evening dosage of Biochem, you know they should put warning labels on classes, *WARNING* the following subject is highly toxic to one's physical and mental status...courtesy the amount of caffeine it makes you consume to pull through a night or many nights in order to understand what the subject matter itself is all about. But they never give you disclaimers instead the teachers/proffs look at you with expressions going "We did our share of it now Ha-Ha your turn :D" well that's not to say the teachers are evil or anything along those lines, but the least they could do is say "Oh yeah life as you know it is gonna change in the next few minutes, so buckle up and try not to fall off this roller coaster." I guess it's assumed that if you're in that class then it's a given you are going to fall off the coaster from time to time so you better improve your balance and it's also assumed that seat belts and restraints are for babies lol. So how was round 2? I dunno I think reading the very first or 2nd question was an absolute and complete K.O..game over...pls. enter more chips/coins/tickets to play this game again. Oh well all things, whether they're good or bad have to come to an end, thank the G-man that they do lol, well though I'd love an extension on the good stuff and I'd like very little time with the blech stuff, yeah I know life doesn't always work that way but hey it never hurts to attempt to make an appeal lol.

And then the wretched week finally came to an end and I finally got to heave a huge ass sigh going "Damn this week seemed longer than any other week in the history of this month." Well I can't really go back to a lotta other months 'cuz of memory issues lol. And what better way to kickstart some freedom time than by cleaning up your room. Yeah...this room definitely needs some more life lol, yay to plants and perhaps fishies? Maybe...maybe not? I keep tottering that line, at least my mother will be glad to know I'm not contemplating the puppies or kittens at the moment as they would have to head home with me and I might get the ass whoopin' of a lifetime, and knowing my mother, it will probably last me quite a few lifetimes.

Anyway people, time for me to jet for now, but I guess I'll have sum'n up later tonight, who knows 'bout these things. This reminds me of cricket, where I'm chasing a target score and I gotta keep upping up the ante of the upcoming over so I can shoot up my run rate and therefore attain the target score and not lose. My target score in this case would be closing that gap between days lol, attainable or not? I guess we'll see how these innings go :D. Take care and thanks for stopping by. Cheers!

Songs of the Day

Song: Say (All I Need)
Artist/Band: OneRepublic
Album: Dreaming Out Loud
Release Date: Circa 2007

Song: Baawri Piya Ki
OST: Baabul
Release Date: Circa 2006

Traumatic Thursday

Well firstly no I did not end up in a hospital ward, it was a mind numbing day...actually that would be a lie, I think that's the day I actually got to sleep for a few hours...oh that wonderful S word...in fact if it were left up to me I'd definitely try and get some more sleep. Besides that, not much happened on Thursday except for a flurry of mental activity whereby the one common mantra that I could hear being chanted in those deep realms and darker caverns of my mind was "Oh bloody hell we're screwed." T'was the eve before major brain screwage so yes I guess its not surprising to hear such mantras. However, some of you are different and beyond brilliance so the same rules and conditions and reactions may not apply, consider yourselves the Temperance Brennan of all things Akademia and otherwise while I guess I could be the Dopey of all things Akademia...okay no not Dopey a la one on dope, but Dopey from Snow White. If you didn't know that shame on you, go read your fairy tales...AGAIN...I insist. I'm not kidding, if I had a copy of the huge ass book I used to have back in the day with all the fairy tales in there I'd so bring it with me just to read especially on days like today. Sometimes everyone needs a lil' break from reality and a lil' trip back in time. Have you guys found that whenever you read a fairy tale at different points in time you always deduce a new meaning from it? I mean the story means a completely different thing, it projects a different theme...I dunno but that just amazes me, now that's how stories should be written...timeless and forever thought provoking...there's a certain ageless quality about those stories..unless I'm the only one who thinks so and please do feel free to agree or disagree. I think my favourite story has always been Snow White, unless my folks would like to contest that lol. Surprising huh? Yeah I was surprised too lol, well I did like the Noddy series too as a kid, not that I remember much 'bout it, but I know for a fact there used to be this purple coloured book about a hen and basically what she did all day in terms of looking after the family et al. but it focussed majorly on her baking bread. It was one of my favourite books 'cuz they had pictures and words in that book, I think I musta read that book a gazillion times over, to the point of driving my parents crazy though I think or at least from the pictures painted by my memories I think I used to read those books by myself, I was always fascinated by the concept of baking bread. See when I was a kid we always used to make a pit stop at the bakery during the weekend or before the weekend started and we used to pile up on good stuff like scones and all this awesome stuff, and I used to love the smell of freshly baked bread. So anytime I read that book I used to think of the bakery lol, though apparently as a kid I didn't have much of a sweet tooth, which kid doesn't :|...such a strange child, but that's a'ite I think I've more than made up for it post childhood :P tee-hee.

Anyway going back to Thursday, well, usually Terrible Thursdays used to begin with a Parasitology class at the crack of dawn, well hey 8 AM classes on bugs is a crack of dawn class for me. Well by the time we were done with that class I always had the urge/need to itch my arms, that class was creepy but cool lol. In our very first week of classes we learned 'bout bed bugs and dust mites, comforting much? A dose of parasites is then subsequently followed by a heavy dosage of cell and tissue types belonging to the wonderful field of Histology...hysterical histology if anything. The hysteria commences prior to the partials lol...none the less, that class starts off with quizzes and proceeds to flash you with a gazillion slides depicting different parts/components of cells and all that jazz, I wish my brain was superb enough to contemplate what was being displayed but hey that's cool I'm sure at some point in time they shall all click together up there. Key words being 'At some point in time'...anyway that was followed by a mind boggling session of medical sociology, I honestly cannot fathom to this day as to why I'm in that class I think I'm social enough to recognize sociological patterns, but I guess school thinks I'm more anti-social and therefore I must learn to be more sociable amongst various ranges and variances of societies, different aspects of this course reminds me of different aspects of other classes I took back in U/grad. Damn that does seem like a lifetime away, those years were interesting years a lot was defined, re-defined and then modified only to be re-re-defined. Charming...the tagline of my life at u/grad seems to be 'Redefinition'. Going back to the topic at hand and trying not to stray away on yet another tangent, Thursday = day before double trouble in the form of partials, brain was fired up to learn but at the same time dead to receive more info. It was pumped for the reception of new info just not the whole absorption and retention process, my brain basically told me to screw off. But the other awesome thing 'bout Thursday, besides getting a lil' more sleep than I usually do, I spoke to the parental unit and I had reason to celebrate, I think just knowing it was a festive day at the house made me happy 'cuz I got to speak to the 2 most amazing people in my life before I left for classes, well I was more of a wake up call for both of 'em But its the greatest feeling to be the first thing your parents hear, well especially after that pesky alarm clock lol, and those were the first voices or rather people I had a conversation with before I headed out for classes. I guess that gave me a natural high oh and in histo lab my mind was on constant jukebox mode :|...sometimes it would be nice if the jukebox shut up. Well besides classes and the numb feeling of acceptance of getting my arse kicked on both my partials setting in and the constant need to just crawl into bed, under my blanky and curl up to sleep being the predominant thoughts in my head were the highlights of my Thursday...oh and the prayer for a miracle by leaps and bounds for any one of those 2 tests was another constant mantra the head was chanting lol. Medial and lateral epicondyles and tubercles befriended nucleosomes, spliceosomes and other fun things of the sort. It was Banatomy or Anatiochemistry.

Arite troops, seeing as how Thursday was as dead pan as a door knob I'm gonna end this off here and hopefully tomorrow I might be able to get all caught up, wudn't that be awesome if I did get all caught up, then I could stop feeling like the lagging strand whose Okazaki fragments for the time being is equivalent to catching up on events from 2 days ago. I'd rather be the leading strand that was continuous rather than discontinuous. A'ite time to rest the brain before it gets outta hand and outta control. Take care and see ya'll wen I see ya!! Cheerio

Song of the Day: Ever the Same
Artist: Rob Thomas
Album: Something To Be
Release Date: April 19, Circa 2005

Reality Bites

Well it does, plain and simple. One moment you're on this high you get from doing something you love doing and something that just stems from within and the next thing you know BAM!!! like that blaring alarm clock that wakes you up every morning or whenever it is you set your alarm clock for, reality checks in and the whole course of emotions, feelings and events changes...just like that. Well sometimes, reality is the best damn thing you could've hoped for but it always has the worst timing when it does make it's grand entrance. Anyway, my reality per-se was the reality of school, CC's incessant stupidity, the constant barrage of inquiries and questions by Pesky Persistence or PP well there might be a name change later...after all who knows the fate of such things? All in all it felt like freakin' Morose Monday only it was Woeful Wednesday...you would think with the change in weather and fun things of the sort the mood would lighten up a bit? Well they had bursts/moments, the good thing was that there was no class till about 9 in the morning, which I was extremely thankful for, having 8 AM's is a killer, yes for you people out there working I'm sorry you gotta wake up early to go work, but here's the difference you get paid while i paid for it so I guess either way we both have the common ground of getting our money's worth eh?

Well the morning was interesting, I woke up to quite the fantastical dream...like I mentioned to one of the awesome people I know out here it musta been the occasion or rather the day itself. I had one of the most fantastical dreams ever...odd and weird yes, but fantastical because I woke up feeling like the safest and most protected person in the world. Its that feeling you get when you go give your parents a hug and you know it's not just a hug but it's just everything about them, their essence, their love and aura just envelopes if not blankets you and just makes you feel safe...does that make sense? Well if it doesn't then you know the next time you see your folks go give 'em one of your bear hugs and then get back to me and lemme know what that feeling was like.

Anyhow, I still remember the dream vividly, and if anything I think it might actually turn out to be a potential story line, who knows where exactly I'll fit it in, but the images were so startling and were visually thrilling that somehow some part of me just grabbed on and held on to those images for dear life.I think it was one of the most interesting ways I've woken up so far, besides hearing the voice of my wonderful parents almost every morning, its one of the other major things that makes my day. Anyhow Woeful Wednesday was yet another installment of the wonderful week I was having so far. Not that much came outta Wednesday , the only thing I was looking forward to was the end of the day or rather I had a few thoughts that I needed to wrestle and toss around in my head, and this coincides with yesterday's topic of time being the healer of one and all. Well it's not exactly a solution, what it is is a complementary problem, but I shan't go into the business of discusing time and it's functions has a healer 'cuz right now...to be honest I have no energy, nor brain cells to dispatch on the issue.

Also on Wednesday, I did have a blast listening, downloading and being one with all that music I found in my gmail :D...go g-mail. Alright kids well I gotta stop this right here and right now, not because I've run outta words, sentiments or thoughts to share or type up but because my eyes are shutting down faster than my ability to type. Lets just say Frightening Friday has been an extremely long, fatiguing, trying and tiring day, where what I've wanted to do for most part is curl up in a corner or to just beat the crap outta the world, the feelings keep swinging back and forth and they have been doing so all day long. Take care folks and I will definitely try and catch up with you guys, what with me on a deadline/mission to be as up to date with my blogs as possible. I still do have 2 more entries to catch up on before I'm on par with all my adventures from this current weak. A'

A'ite ppls peace out and take care of yerselves :)and here's to better days and successful ways :)

Song of the Day

Song Name: Afterglow
Artist: INXS
Album Name: Switch
Release date: Circa 2005

The Hangover

So here we are again, what should I be doing at this moment? Well I can tell you right off the bat that I should be studying for 2 midterms that I have tomorrow, yes I know I whine too much 'bout school, akademia and partials/midterms and jazz of the sort, but hey sue me I'm human. You know you do too so lets not all be hypocrites on the Akademic front shall we? Well if anything this entry is gonna be a lil' on the short side of things. Well to start things off, lets just say I woke up on Tuesday confused and just overall blah...I mean even with Monday off I still woke up feeling very gypped off of a weekend. And anyone have any better suggestions on starting a week than dealing with a midterm in Biostatistics of all things at 8 in the morning. I'm not sure what's worse, Biostatistics or the 8:00 AM nature of that class. I mean the first thing I get to do in the morning on a Tuesday is standardly deviate myself from the meaningful modes of Biostatistics and compare the coefficient of variance that I apply in my approach towards the above mentioned class. Eventually I should just draw a Box n Whisker plot of my evasiveness and give it to my proff and say the following the way Randy Jackson does to the contestants on American Idol...'Yo check this out, check it out dawg. I found your class well especially your voice very very pitchy.' and the rest of this would have to be said the way I would say it, "So here's a presentation integrating real life applications into the way this class is taught and I'm outta here, thank you and peace out" Though I'm pretty sure the response to that would be a raised eyebrow, a blank emotion-less expression and a "Please get back to your seat now if you don't have a question" comment following that expression.

Anyway moving on, from the wonderful feelings of resentment, a major headache and an 'Oh crap this day has only begun' t'was time to move onto bigger and more monstrous things like 2 labs. I mean really if anyone is having caffeine issues make sure u go for a nice morning routine of statistical goodness, followed by a serving of microbial magnificence only to be topped by puzzling physiology..I have a feeling it'll do more than wake you up, it'll make you wish you had an external for your brain. Having the day off on Monday and doing all that running around really did leave me quite confused to the extent that when I spoke to my darling mother I couldn't remember what day it was, I mentioned the day before and the day after the day we were on :|....though she did have a good laugh at my expense. I mean hey the familial unit always has a good laugh at my expense, and besides any sane person will tell you laughter is good for the soul and for you...wait a minute that means I'm sorta kinda the awesome health plan for the familial unit. By the time classes were done I was dead-beat and my day sure as hell wasn't productive and the heavy sword of partials seemed to be getting closer and closer to the drop and kill me point. Though the one highlight of the day was when I did go get some sleep, I fell asleep to one of the most beautiful songs I have ever listened to in my life, "Maula mere Maula". Oh man I slept like a baby, I fell asleep to the song and I woke up to the end of the song, but lemme tell you sum'n it was the most blissful feeling and song in the world to wake up to. That song really is soul food, and it put me in a state of calm of starts when I woke up, but what happened after may not necessarily be as calm as I would've liked it to be.

Well on other notes, this time of the year or rather this past week/last few days prior to today are generally my least favourite times of the year, and this year was no different. The only difference per se was the added bonus of driving me up the freakin' wall, to the extent that I swear I cudda given spidey a run for his webbing. Some things in life always remain puzzling and unresolved regardless of how much time passes you by, I mean I don't care if time heals all, sometimes that same thing called time rips off that band aid on an old wound and you gotta re-dress the wounds and all that jazz. So no time doesn't fully heal all things, it gives you an opportunity to reflect and re-visit, healing? I don't know if that's wat it is, I think it is more of a closure/finding comfort thing once you figure whatever it is you revisit frequently. Revisiting something makes you view a scenario or memory from any and every angle possible and you are such a frequent visitor that one day at some point you go 'Oh okay I know what happened'...I wish I could say the same 'bout my current frequently revisited memory, but I can't because I don't think I can ever find the solution to it, not then, not now and I'm not quite sure if I can find it in the future either. A wise friend of mine likes to show me things from a fresh perspective, which doesn't mean the rest of you awesome ppl. that I know don't, but the fresh perspective was attempted but I think my feelings of guilt far outweigh any logic or rationale that can be offered. Anyway, I don't exactly wanna turn the mood here all gloomy and gray, those overcast skies of mine are mine to deal with...moving on to bouncier things, the weather out here has changed...its finally SPRING!!! I absolutely love spring, especially the feeling of the wind blowing your hair back and just dancing and running around you like children basking in their freedom and bursting at the seams to just go outside and play. I find a certain innocence and purity to spring, its very comforting and soothing for the soul, or at least I think so lol. I'm sure for some ppl. its misery time, courtesy: allergies et al.

None the less, citizens, netizens, amigos and amigas I better boogie outta here. I just wanted to make sure I kept my 2 day span at a 2 day span and not at like a 3 day span, its harder for me to remember 3 days as opposed to 2 days lol. So this goldfish i.e. me has to go now, but I'll b back tomorrow with more adventures and hopefully all caught up with the adventures soon. Take care peepz and to all those with tests, work schnazz and all that fun jazz good luck doin' w/e you're doing and here's to meeting under interesting circumstances. Cheers!

Song of the Day: Maula Mere Maula
OST: Anwar
Singer: Roop Kumar Rathod
Release Date: Circa 2006

Oh and ps: This is just a lil' shout out to 2 awesome ppl who are responsible for my very existence on this planet or rather this lifetime. Happy Anniversary Mommy n Daddy Kat :D and oh yeah Happy Birthday D-Kat you know you totally and absolutely rock. You know you're my BFF!!! :D

The After-Party

Okay firstly I'm not too sure if Afterparty is one word or 2 words as in After-Party? Any ideas anybody? Right so my After-Party began the moment I got back home from the Cultural extravaganza on Sunday, which was followed by dinner...and what did I do? Well...for starters, I bonded with my Parasitology book and was on a mission to finish up that darn workbook, as up until that point at least to my knowledge the blasted thing was due on Monday by 2 in the afternoon, well I know you all are smart people and know that no professor in their right mind would want something due at 2 AM, if they did it probably would be a bottle of the good ol' distilled stuff and a shot glass to complement it. So I got back and my party started with Parasitology, went on till 3 in the morning, and no deciding to work on worms and things that make you go ick does NOT make me a geek, it makes me someone trying to save their tush from getting burned by akademia. I fought against sleep, well that battle lasted a sum total of an hour and then I said screw this, I need my best friends; namely pillow and blanky :)...the mere thought of them brings such a huge smile to my face...sigh...

Right so getting along with my After-Party, so I woke up at 7 in the morning to finish up Mission Parasitology and to get a move on my life so I could actually rest up and be all fresh and refreshed to get a start with the wonderful thing called Akademia in my life, however, I was in hustle and bustle mode and was running like a crazy woman from one place to another to a third then to a fourth and then back to base, by the time I got back to base camp I think I was beyond exhausted, actually I can't put much thought into it 'cuz just trying to think 'bout it makes me tired lol. One thing I will say is that my crank factor levels were pretty high and people were definitely stepping and tripping all over those levels, they were lucky enough not to be blasted apart..yeah lets just say I was a ticking time bomb and on top of all of that I heard about certain unethical ways and unfair actions and that got me all the more pissed and also kinda glad that I wasn't around to listen or deal with it, well on the other hand if I was present then the unethical idiot wudda heard a thing or two from moi.

So, Monday as much as it was a day off was a day filled with fatigue of all sorts and just an overall feeling of tired-ness and general blah-ness, I mean seriously a day like Monday = the perfect way to rest up and get ready for midterms, what happened instead? the complete opposite...so now I have absolutely no feelings as to how my partials/midterms on Friday are gonna go, I guess we'll see what happens huh? Oh and on top of all of that CC managed to come up with some weird bull shit idea about moving out without moving out, I mean WTF? make up your fuckin' mind really? You either stay or you get the hell out...and this was followed by a weird fucked up tirade about washing machines and shoes when she was trying to use the ruddy washing machine, and that proceeded into a speech 'bout how CC's world wide experience in pretty much any and every scenario of life thus far has never once tossed her a scenario involving washing machines and shoes. And how pardon CC's English "Was completely fucked up and absolute bullshit"...yeah well CC should know better she is the creator of all things considered to be absolute and utter Bull Shit. So yes Morose Monday ended up being worse than I wanted it to be and what happened? Study time seemed to be the most insufficient thing available, I mean really time why don't you come in larger installments?

On the flip side however, I did discover some new tracks AND I got to retrieve some old ones from my Gmail and so I proceeded to retrieve and save those songs, they took me back to another time. I think I can share a memory with each and every song that I reloaded back onto my laptop :D...it just took me back to an instance...a point in time and I think it was what my heart and soul needed right at that moment, I kid you not when I say those songs were the right songs for that moment. A'ite well its time for me to say Alvida, Ciao, Sayonara, Cheerio, Au Revoir and all things that say Good-Bye, here's to better days and brighter ways...Life is a highway, this you and I know, but instead of holding back and being held back think of the destination ahead and jus' let all those worries, frustrations and vexations go. You know what, I'm gonna give that a shot myself, in the meantime if you do try it out before I do why don't you lemme know how things turn out? A'ite folks, take care, stay sane and lets hope I keep coming back in one piece between now and Friday, 'cuz what happens on Friday and after Friday is something I can't predict at the moment. Cheers!

Song of the Day: Aap Ka Kya Hoga (Dhanno)
OST: Housefull
Released: April 30th circa 2010

A lil' info on this song, the chorus of the song is from a legendary movie starring one of India's if not one of the world's most legendary stars, Mr. Amitabh Bachchan. If I'm not mistaken the original song is from the movie Laawaris, and there's a bit of that old song in this new one and the moment I heard it all my senses livened up and I was in a state of glee that is currently hard to describe lol.

The Art of Culture and a Toast to all things Cultural

Yes I'm trying to race up to that finish line that in turn will be a clear indication of me catching up to the days I missed, but every passing day I know there's another day that's been added to the day backlog that takes me right back to square 1. Oh well more cardio for my fingers and less for me :D...ooh joy! Maybe with all this keyboard practise my fingers can be all the percussion I need when I listen to some good ol' music. Well hey anything with a beat, a rhythm and an indication of soul always = awesome music and music is that which you feel more than that what you hear. Sure the scientists can argue that it's all in the head and that music is basically the reaction of auditory receptors that help to discern sounds at a range of different pitches and timbres and all those subjective and objective features of sound. And that the internal reaction to music is also another coinky dink reaction that happens up in the head and that quintessentially if anything music mirrors drugs and works like opiads to get the endorphins going which in turn make us very happy people. But c'mon I mean do you actually think people wanna read such a theoretical, to the point answer? Instead of believing and turning all poetic and cuckoo over what they believe? Don't you think that sounds or rather feels a lot more right in terms of meaning and perception rather than having it all summed down to receptors, neurons, transmission, stimulation and responses to stimulation? Stimulation I do get, music stimulates every fibre of my being, if it wasn't for music who is to say how I would be. Can I actually get any more cookier than this? Okay now I wouldn't really wanna find out that answer now or anytime soon and I hope nobody else does too, if you do then I dunno you need more than a few opiads and bonkings on the head.

So getting back to matters at hand, Sunday was a rather significant day well more or less Sunday night was, and that's not to say the other days of the week are insignificant. Fridays are always significant 'cuz they mark down this wonderful concept called the WEEKEND!!! and then Sunday marks the beginning of that woeful thing called the week :( where life goes back to *AAAAHHHHHH!!!! What's goin on? What is this? Who is that? What is that? Who am I?" and ultimately come Friday, after that express list of quizzes, midterms and fun things you are quite a happy person if you remember your own name. The only thing I know for a fact whenever I have a quiz during the week is my name, and I do congratulate myself on a daily basis for remembering at least that part of the quiz or test that I gotta do.

Anyway this Sunday was a little different from all the other regularly scheduled Sundays, as in it wasn't a day of going *Oh no the weekend is done* This Sunday out at school we had this big little thing called Culture Night and the theme was "Carpe Noctum" which seems appropriate 'cuz that's something I try doing every night only I seize the night with words and sentences and books and fun things of the sort, you get my drift. So getting back to the point of festivities et al. it was a terribly exciting day along with nerve wracking and anxious day for me. Chip in a lil' not so rain-tastic rain and a slew of performances and what do you get? Wait for it...a LEGENDARY and epic night There was the whole flurry burry of activity that went in before the night, as we had to have practise runs and all that fun stuff. Now that I've mentioned we, let me be kind enough to mention that my contributions to the festivities was in no way technical or stage oriented and so all you sound, light and tech support people can breathe easy. Anyone with any sense would know not to give me any of that stuff 'cuz most likely I'd make up my own light and sound show and as exciting as that sounds it would be that kind of a light and sound show where my lil' hole in the wall right at the back of the auditorium would be my safe haven from the crazy masses and where rotten tomatoes and eggs oh and a few sandals or shoes or choice footwear would be my companions. My contribution to the show as minimal as it was, was a duet with a friend of mine who literally eats, breathes and perhaps sleeps music. But I do digress I haven't even gotten to the highlights/best features of the show. The night was kinda sorta a big deal for the school as we had our Deans and fun big wigs show up, so yeah in translation that = me with a severe case of the nerves trying to have a conversation with myself without coming off as an extremely crazy person who should be checked into the Psych ward. So the morning/afternoon-ish part was where we had trial runs and some "ideas" were introduced on how our duet would be sung/introduced/presented to the audience. Lemme tell you that's as close to a Bollywood moment as I've ever had, don't worry baccha party I'm sure at some point in time if I'm lucky enough I'll have my own moment lol, that's right bhai you betta get crackin' :P. But yeah everyone was trying to get all the events synced in before the final performance...okay I for a fact didn't put in half as much effort in what I had to do than some or rather all of those other awesome people who performed so to them I say hats off to you guys for pulling off such amazing, awesome and mesmerizing performances. I'm really glad all your hard work and effort paid off and you guys totally rocked that show...Boo yah!...it was just awesome to see how all those weeks spent practising and coordinating just all came together and ain't it great when the best things just click together and work out?

This was my first tryst with the mic out here, its been a while since I sang...well there are several reasons I can attribute to that lol. One, well that's the standard excuse --> I've been busy but yes that doesn't stop me from humming my croaky self away, so lets move on to 2 then shall we? Two, wait lets call individual 2 "the thing", no wait I can't use that 'cuz that's what my lovely broda calls me, yes he saves the best names for me, a very considerate person wouldn't you say? Hmmm lets see what else we can call this interesting specimen of human kind well I guess I'm gonna have to go with a cuckoo on drugs or crazy cuckoo or CC or a cross between a cuckoo and a hyena that would make it either a cyena or a huckoo :| okay i stick with CC it sounds better. So CC loves an argument...whereas I would rather stay away from it 'cuz I find them to be a waste of time now if my folks are reading this and chuckling and calling me a hypocrite this message is for them --> "C'mon guys I don't argue I only stand up for what's right :P"...and I do have valid issues to argue 'bout back at home, for instance household chores? I'm gonna stop before I dig a nice big hole for myself to literally jump into. So CC loves arguing and bitchin' 'bout just about anything and everything and has been on a personal mission, or at least I believe so to isolate me from people and make my life out here miserable. Sorry CC while you have seen much and most of the world, I have a lesson or 2 of tolerance that the world taught me. None the less I digress, reason 2 is CC, I don't want to be the source of any unwanted exchange of words and besides everyone needs some quiet and stillness to study and to ponder over the various things in this rivetting thing called life. Getting back to the show, the last time I performed was a while ago, I can't really estimate a time frame lol my mind is a little fuzzy at the moment, but to summarize it had been a while since I last performed in front of a crowd of people and doing this kinda reminded me of all the reasons why I thought I was done with singing before a crowd. The freakin stage fright is massive enough to make one pass out, at the auditions I actually thought I'd have a heart attack lol my hear rate waqs beyond accelerated...I'm telling you it would've given Superman a run for his super speed. Oh and to add to all that stage fright I was kindly informed right before auditions by a friend of mine that people like the deans, proffs and all the fun people at school would be attending, I think I paled a little more when I heard that, I felt like a blanched almond...well in case a blanched almond knows how it feels. So, come Sunday night I owuld like to report that I thankfully made it alive and the song was sung without me tripping and falling over things or forgetting the lines. What does tripping and fallin over things have to do with anything? you say...well lemme set the scene up for you.

The moment was a complete Bollywood-esque moment, I'm sure the Indian Movie Inudstry wudda been proud lol. So...I had to come walking down stairs all the way from the top of the auditorium all the way up to the stage and sing while doing so and I had a spotlight following me. The second spotlight was on my buddy who didn't have as much of a walk as I did. I think I invoked all the Gods I possibly could think of ranging from the Hindu realms all the way to the Buddhist ones and then some. Yes I sent them an SOS, and they had my back lol, thank the G-man I didn't go for a nose dive over the stairs, yes I'm one of the most clumsiest people on the face of this earth. But damn, that entire moment just feels surreal, it feels like a dream, that's how fast it happened. But I'm glad it happened without any glitches so woohoo! Now going back to the other performances, there were all these amazing dances that had me shaking my head at my 2 left feet. There was an awesome MJ tribute and guess what the song played is one of my all time MJ favs!!! SMOOTH CRIMINAL boo yah! Oh man they were so good...there was a tantalizing Tango that just blew my mind. There was some boisterous, bopping bhangra that just had my shoulders moving on their own volition. There were 2 soulful yet sensational solos that once again had me shake my head at my lack of arm and leg coordination. There was a fun n fascinating fashion show that had me going yeah no nothing I can do there due to my 'appalling sense of fashion' lol. And yes I like to save the best for last, lets start with the music then proceed to the DDR-ness. So my buddy who sang the duet with me had a solo going to , that boy is beyond talented, he's a classical singer and damn when I say he's got his notes down pack. His performance was phenomenal and there's nothing more I can say about that lol. Now moving on to the dance part of things, there's one of those solos I mentioned a few lines ago, toss that in with a dance duet and a group dance and voila you know what you get? An instant visual treat, oh man those guys and girls put in a lotta work into their performances, I'm sure they can even bust out those moves in their sleep if they heard the songs in their sleep. Well forget sleep they could still bust out those moves if they heard those songs at any point in time :P lol, seeing as to how those songs are forever burned into their memories lol. Hmm...lets see I think I've recapped pretty much anything and everything 'bout Sunday...Oh wait there's one thing I didn't mention....the most important part...the supporters and ppl who came out to watch all of us. Without my support base I don't think I wudda pulled it off so a huge THANK YOU to those awesome people for they are the original rockstars that keep rocking my world :D..especially my Agent, my Consultant and my PR group lol. And for all you guys back home who have always been there, don't worry I haven't forgotten you guys, you guys were there in spirit and guess what they had Kangna playing so I took that as a very good sign :)...yayy our song, hearing it made me a very happy child it felt like you guys were right there watching :D.

A'ite kids I think I'm done with a Sunday recap, now I'm gonna have to work on the post festivity running into Monday installment. Sigh...tomorrow it will have to be, hopefully by this weekend we shall be all caught up :P. Take care of yerselves and go over indulge in some musical goodness, u know there's nothing better than music so go over indulge yourselves. Good luck with whatever it is you guys have, be it exams, tests, work, even if it's something as simple as rooting for your team to win...well in that case I actually hope your team wins lol. Keep it simple people and I'll tune back in later. Cheers!

Song of Sunday: Well obviously there is but one lol
Song Name: Tauba Tumhare Yeh Ishare
OST: Chalte Chalte
Release date: Circa 2003 I believe

Promises and some such

Ah 'tis a brand new day, or well in my case the end of a brand new day that I had earlier today, wow I do have way too many words racing against each other up there in that thing called the brain. Well technically if I had finished this post when it was s'posed to have been done by then you know I would still be talking 'bout that same old brand new day, but seeing as it took a lil' more time than necessary I'll try and recap events or whatever was on my mind 2 days ago, which is gonna b interesting seeing how I can't seem to remember what I did almost 4 or 6 hours ago. Go figure I guess lol, see right here is a classic example of the subject of my title...that's right...Promises. I believe that promises are meant to be broken, which is why I don't exactly really fully believe in the concept of promises. I mean fine I don't fully believe in the concept of promises but I do respect the essential meaning/essence of a promise...I do believe in giving people my word. I don't know I feel that giving my word holds more or rather has more strength that say a promise does. I don't mean to ridicule those who hold promises close to their heart, it's something to hold onto, and I guess it represents some sorta conviction of character deal to people, so hey go ahead be convinced of people's characters.

Oh crap, I just realized, if it has something to do with conviction of character then that leaves me quite characterless lol. And seeing how I couldn't exactly fulfill my promise of updating this blog on a daily basis......you can hopefully understand my hesitation behind the whole concept. Call me skeptical, paint me cynical or label me absurd I know a lot of people who believe in the premise of a promise, sorry guys to disappoint all of ye :P...oh but let me also add that it doesn't stop them from forcing me to make one, or else they go for the next best thing, pinky swear, I mean really? A promise or pinky swear? Hmmm...pinky swears are cute but I wouldn't save it for life and death matters, though perhaps I might use it for life and death affairs

I'm not sure if my mind had anything else to recap from 2 days ago, besides intense anxiety, practise sessions for some lalala goodness Jammin' sessions :D>. Well I know this awesome singer, he's a classical singer and it's wicked when he sings, he can blow your mind away with the way he plays with them classical tunes. Besides, anything to do with music is awesome for you regardless of what genre you listen to, it's the most nurturing aspect of life. Speaking from experience, music has been more than a best friend to me than the race of homo sapiens have been, and that's not to put down the race of homo sapiens I know 'cuz damn I'm so bloody lucky to know the awesome people I know, a while ago I'd never have thought that I'd be this fortunate...I truly and really hope everybody gets the chance to know some of the awesome people I know...trust me everyone deserves mind blowing moments and the best way to have your mind blown away is to know mind blowin' people So yes, two days ago was filled with anxiety and fiddling with audio software and trying to do very technical things with music that I'm highly unaware of.

Righto kids, I'm gonna end this post here 'cuz beyond promises and anxiety all I receive from the recesses of my memory is static...and lots of it...that is really sad, how the hell am I supposed to remember all this stuff I study? :|...Note to self, please invest in an external for the brain, it will come in handy and I can back memory and archived files up in there and have more space in the brain to actually absorb that which must be absorbed. If this brain absorbs anymore information its gonna start leaking like the back leak mechanisms of the Sodium/Potassium pump/channel. Yes go ahead and correct me if it sounds like utter rubbish 'cuz hey I know my scientific-ness is shaky lol, and I can't believe my metaphor had to do with Physiology...brilliant here's one more thing to add to my repertoire of personality attributes "Hm...no conviction, attempts to be amusing but fails miserably due to lack of original humour" and a list long enough to put Santa's lists to shame. That's right Santa I have a longer list so ha! take that! Okay okay I'll be nice, I'd like to get my annual visit from you with my Chwistmas Pwesents pweez :D...don't worry I'll make sure u get the awesome Costco Chocolate Chip cookies...now those = heaven, now there's a taste of heaven right there fer ya. A'ite kids behave, take care of ye selves and go crazy and listen to some music. Cheers and thanks for tuning in, and honestly find something else to do besides reading this space...thunkers :D

Music for 2 days ago

Song: 23
Artist/Band: Jimmy Eats World
Release date: Was at some point in time but hey that's what Google is for :P

The Beginning

Aloha one, aloha all...so as can be seen I have decided to get back into the bloggin' habit. Seeing as to how much time I generally have to twiddle-doo and twiddle-dee my thumbs I'm sure I'm in for a fun ride, though I cannot guarantee or rather say the same for those who choose to read this. Well for those who do choose to read this, Good Luck!, lol, followed by me exclaiming 'What the Hell is wrong with you? Do you not have anything better to do?' Oh and don't get me wrong I actually do mean what I say when it comes to those exclamations. I'm sure you all have something to study, or work to take care of or something or the other to do, if you do read this humour me and please temme it was the ultimate last option available to you.

Now first things first, if you see colourful language and if it's something you have never seen before please carry a bag and a set of springs so as to collect the popping eyes and you know to pop 'em poppers back into place. Moving on to the next thing, I do value the time you take outta your hectic lives and schedules to go through the ramblings of someone like me, but, that doesn't mean I will cover world news and all the depressing that our other depressing lives seem to be overshadowed by... and no I'm not full of myself....yet but hey maybe at some point in the future perhaps I will be, like they say 'There's always room for improvement' :D.

Right even after all this intro-stuff I'm still not sure what the main topic for this opening blog entry should be, I'm sure by the time I'm done I either,

a) won't know
b) will know what to focus on as I just might toss in a summary at the end of this entry.
c) still be undecided and go off on tangents, as I normally do but hey one of the reasons I'm here is to try and do that which isn't normal, so yes trying not to be tangential is gonna b interesting.
d) None of the above and I probably might end it as abruptly as I began this project lol.

Lol, you know someone has school influence their lives too much when you see that they start putting the options to various things in the lives in an MCQ format. Okay the word influence would be too much of an understatement, I'd rather say dominate than influence. Well how about I start off with why I started up on my ol' bloggin' habits; well I had this epic moment in life that was a life and death moment and it changed my perspective on my life and the way I live life and it made me realize how fortunate I am and how much more appreciative I should be of this world that I blah blah blah blah....so goes the story. Actually it really is quite simple, or at least I think it is lol I'm doing it 'cuz it's what I do, well not blogging but writing, it's an interesting medium through which one can express opinions, ideas and all that other jazz that you hear most people stuck in an interview ramble on about. Oh and I mainly am doing this to maintain my limited sanity, I mean it's a toss up between typing my keyboard to death or kicking someone's arse, especially that someone is worse than a leech, I mean who knew humans could be worse than leeches right? Well okay I know most people by the time they hit my age develop the awareness for leeches and some such way before I did. I mean it's amusing to me 'cuz it makes me feel like maturity came knocking on my door a few years later than it was s'posed to, but that's 'ite it just makes living those moments of life an interesting reflection point.

Oh and I should warn you, these blogs tends to be wordy, because it's one place that doesn't have word limits which means I can ramble on some more. Hell I've even been told by facebook this one time, when I was sending one of my friends a message, that my message was too long to be sent. Wat the hell matie? I mean there is a reason why you have a message section, I mean it's where you send long ass messages to catch up, I understand the Walls having word limits, but this whole Message word limit nonsense I'm not too happy 'bout. Now if you're gonna tell me that I should've just written an e-mail and sent it well I'd like to say that it was easier to do so on fb 'cuz I was on that person's fb profile page so it turned out to be more convenient than clicking on on another tab that my wonderful firefox manages. In fact I'm pretty sure Firefox wudda smacked me out and over the back side of my head, not even the top-side and then it would've been quite amused by the interesting hollow beats emanating from my sonorous head lol.

Hmmm I made another discovery while I was whiling away some time in a class that would technically translate into the fusion of biology and chemistry and for those weak of heart and mortally petrified of anything followed by the suffix chemistry, then treat it like breathing, you inhale take in air and then you exhale. Well chemistry in particular does cure if not it either enhances or destroys your olfactory senses, oh and toss in optic issues as well, but mostly olfactory, its either rotten eggs or good ol' pineapple smellin' esters...mmmm pineapple...dammit now I want some. But I discovered that some people can be extremely thick skinned and complete and absolute morons. But then again the world we live tends to have a population of 95% morons and 5% sane, rational, cool and awesome people. I also discovered that the biochem lab has interesting acoustics, if people make enough noise you can actually get away with singing a few songs :P. No that's not what I do during my labs, but I had a reason to test the acoustics a little during this lab I had for my Biochem class, I think people were more excited, happy and ready to high tail it outta the lab so there was a good background of constant chatter, noise and excitement that it was a Friday. I'm sure I made another discovery but unfortunately I can't remember what it was that I discovered besides thick skinned jackasses who deserve an ass whooping, awesome acoustics, and that I have a serious allergic reaction to bull shit. Hmmm...twiddling thumbs and sifting through everything I've done since 6 in the morning is taking more time than necessary, even my laptop scans for virus and spam nonsense gets it done faster than I do. Note to self, must look into getting more RAM for the head and maybe an external for all that stuff that's in the brain, I mean it's a better means of storing all that I learn than to let it all take the one way road that leads outta the inner labyrinth called my head.

Alright well I think this is where I shall say 'That's a wrap' folks. seeing how the road ahead of me seems foggy and surrounded by Z's to induce some serious sleep, I'm gonna officially call it a night and I guess have my mental work out sessions whenever I can, perhaps say....tomorrow!! That's right wouldn't you love to be a student right about now? :P. Take care people and until next time keep it rockin'. Time for me to rock n rolla outta here, so nite nite to some of y'all and top of the morning to the others, 'tis an interesting time and place I live in. Cheers and thanks for stopping by!

Song of the day: Oh Girl
OST: Housefull, circa 2010
Status: Recently released soundtrack, movie yet to be released, watch the screens for an April release.