Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Flickerin' Slivers

A'ite lets see what I have for you kids today, lets just say the major areas involve comeex, thoughts and tv shows . Right so lets get this started before I lose myself in a prologue to set the stage for this whole thing.

I hope things are going well with ya'll, if not well I'll say the one thing that's said to me often...things will get b8r and just watch out for the silver lining, though technically silver is a lil' over-rated, if you really want a lining aim for platinum, more value for your shares n stocks and all that financial mumbo jumbo that I'm not at all familiar with. See usually when things reach a whirlwind phase in my life there's always something that comes out at that exact moment...it could be an album from a fav group, a movie by a fav actor or even a book or I guess any work of art that makes you feel like there's something out there that captures and understands exactly what you're going through and if anything it "seems" like a sure fire sign from the Universe that you and your trials and tribulations are being watched, monitored and observed and you don't necessarily have to go through it by yourself. Well to be honest I see it as the Universe or whatever you want to call things around you...trying to connect with you, trying to gauge what exactly you're going through and giving you something to turn to and a voice that can express the exact sentiments coursing through your veins, body and mind. It's like all that's imploding, accumulating/aggregating within suddenly found a way to expend itself and suddenly found the "green light" to go on and spread itself in that mysterious ether that's out there. 

With that being said and the friendliness of the ether being spread here's me going back to the main point. So back in 2003 when things weren't looking all that great for me, it may seem trivial now, but back then it was a pretty big deal and the repercussions still make their presence known time and again. But yeah back in 2003 when things were headed for a good ol' downward spiral and it just seemed like I was flailing and thrashing in the dark with absolutely no chance of seeing even a sliver of light and with a very very good chance of drowning in that darkness I found inspiration in the most unconventional source. Growing up was for lack of a better word, interesting, for most parts...I spent most of my childhood as a loner, I guess I wasn't the "cool" kid everyone wanted to spend every second with, which I was fine with back then too haha. But yes, the point being, right from the time I was a kid I found other things to ease and appease my turmoils, the 2 things that NEVER left my side and that I knew I could count on were music and writing. Though the writing bug kinda kicked in when I was in Grade 5 or 6...but creative expression was always something that I could lose myself in. I guess that's what some people tag as daydreaming :P, but hey think about it, without dreams who are we really? And more importantly where would we be if it weren't for dreams? So...in '03 this movie "Kal Ho Naa Ho" came out, and for those of you who know me you might chalk it up to me being a super mega huge fan of Shahrukh Khan, sure that's a reason but there was just something in there that clicked, registered and locked itself within, maybe it was the music, maybe it was the time the flick came out, maybe it was the story. But there definitely was something that resonated within and probably was the something I needed to get my mental gears and myself back on track and to keep fighting the uphill fight to get back to the top of that mountain that was determined to see me fall. Sure it seems like something you'd laugh yourself silly or snort yourself away saying "Psht, so a movie changed your life? A bunch of song, dance and melodramatic sequences is what you needed?" Well that's not entirely true, it was a contributing factor, though the major credit goes to some of the most amazing people I met during that time as well as people with whom bonds just further solidified and has grown into perhaps the strongest bonds one can think of. It's almost like the key made out of dwarf star matter that Superman has for his 'Fortress of Solitude' :P...hey it's not my fault I decided to revisit the 'All Star Superman' animated flick haha.

But going back to what I was saying, things have been a little shitty...actually wait that's an understatement...they've been quite frustrating, flummoxing, annoying and aggravating and I'm ready to reorganize a few nasal structures on a few people. But, there's no point in saying any of that 'cuz I'm not gonna act on it, considering how I prefer peace and tranquility over reorganization of structures that can get quite messy. Anyhow while on my downward spiral my brain was kind enough to send memory flashes of me reading the "WONK" series, that's right...WONK...as in World Of New Krypton and so I decided I'd have a lil' bit of an indulgence and finish reading up the series. I'm not sure what people's sentiments 'bout this series are, but, I enjoyed it...maybe 'cuz it was a break from the monotonous and tedious life I lead at the moment, and a lil' bit of colour, dialogue, action and a storyline is what I needed to add that spice to my life :P. But all said and done, I enjoyed the series and the entirety of the story. It's a concept that has been touched on before, and you see a bit of it in the Dean Cain, Teri Hatcher "Lois and Clark: The New Adventures of Superman" series, I guess more so twoards the end of Season 3/beginning of Season 4. However that being said, the follow-up Superman solo series titled "Grounded" is one that I'm having an absolute blast reading. This series resonates with my initial statements and sentiments 'bout finding that one thing that just clicks with you and understands you best during certain moments of your life. I guess I found something to keep my footing and keep me grounded with the "Grounded" series, and I know for a fact that this is one of those issues/series that's going on my collector's shelf. It's such a simple premise but every simple problem is layered in complexities that we either see or we miss out on 'cuz we're so caught up in trying to wrap our heads around things that we miss out on finer details. Sometimes the best way to solve the worst problems is to go right back to the very start and approach it with a Tabula Rasa mentality...go right back to the beginning and start it up all over again, and you will definitely see things that you missed out on the first time around. It's all part of the growing and learning process to be honest, sometimes it just really sucks, but we aren't exactly given a choice in the matter are we?

Well peepz time I guess that's it for now, seeing how it's time for me to take off, but I do hope all is going well for all of ya'll. This post was s'posed to be longer but to be honest I don't really remember what I was gonna write for the rest of the post or where my train of thought was headed :P, the price I pay for not finishing up posts the day I start 'em *tsk tsk*. Oh well, end of the day sum'n is b8r than nothing :P and I do have valid reasons to get sidetracked, it's called...Akademia...Take care and keep 'em spirits bolstered, if not find your fix to keep 'em bolstered :).


Thursday, May 19, 2011

Checkpoints...Checkmate?

Well I was feeling a tad bit checkerish...so sue me! Actually hold on to that thought..don't sue me just yet, I'm not sure I can conjure them funds outta the ether just yet. All that alchemy and magick training are only in their initial stages....so when it's time for me to graduate I shall send out a public msg and then you can all get in line to do sue away to glory and beyond!

Anyhoo, moving along...It's funny indeed...lately I've been reading msgs about success and *Phew did it* and *AAAAHHHHH finally done* and lots of reflections & revelations about the long road to success and all that warm, sappy, hallmarky stuff where the predominant feature has been aah there's no point in looking to the past and the future is what it's all about. Not to sound like the buzz kill at the party, but without the shadows of the past licking away like an icy cold chill creeping into your bones every once in a while to remind you of things both done and undone how exactly do you think the future is gonna give you your road signs to get there? Your past doesn't decide your future, that's for sure, I mean hell if it did then I'd be beyond help at the moment...regardless of how awesome or traumatic your past was, it counts in every single way towards making you the person you become. There's this whole adage 'bout never forgetting your roots, what I take from that is never forget where you started from....'cuz you never know when the dice rolls yet again and things change just like that in the blink of an eye and with the snap of a finger....though to be honest that's something I can see happening to me more than the rest of the people I know lol. Must be an inter-life collective debt repayment program :P. Dammit and here I thought with every new life matrix I'm popped into I could just hit the reset button and start out on a clean slate....so much for that theory huh? Reminds me of my student loans, they just can't stop collecting lol, even if there's nothing in my account and then the bank charges me for having no funds and being overdrawn....gah!!! I'm a'ready bankrupt and I've still got miles/kms to go before I walk outta those school hallways, regardless of the avataar of akademia I'm dealing with.

That being said, Congratulations!!!, to all you people heading up to the next phase of your journey...your destination and goal is a very noble one and I hope you all stay true to what that goal embodies and means. The path you're on ain't no joke, so if you're getting your kicks outta this 'cuz of all the wrong reasons then just brace yourself for impact some time either in the here and now or some time in the not so distant future, 'cuz the future comes racing towards you and before you know it what you thought would be eons away is presto holy count of monte cristo right there in front of ya! Sure I could give you a sermon on rising and falling but honestly there isn't anything more for me to say that you don't a'ready know. and if I say anything more 'bout rising and falling I might as well become the High Priestess of Feenixism. But I will say one thing, regardless of what goals and dreams you're trying to achieve...since most of 'em stem from the heart and are the sparks that fuel that hungry fire of passion within you....try not to crush someone else's dreams, hopes and aspirations in the process of getting to yours. The effect of crushing one's dreams is immeasurable, it's a deed so dastardly that unfortunately most people don't realize it until they're told about it or they're in a situation that they could've avoided. Dreams give us visions, gives us the tenacity to push ourselves just a lil' harder, just a step closer, nobody has the right to take yours away from you....and if they do then nobody and no force on this planet should stop you from chasing your dreams down....unless it involves fascism and global dictatorship and domination in which case hell yeah I'm joining whoever is trying to stop you haha. But under normal, non apocalyptic scenarios go as far as you have to and as long as you have to to get to where you've always seen yourself at. Start every new phase of the journey of your life with a clean slate, we all need to hit our own internal reset buttons every once in a while....we owe it to ourselves to view the world we live in with a renewed sense of clarity and purpose whenever we can. Sometimes the smallest freshest perspective can lead to gigantic leaps for many of us, so don't hesitate if you have to take a few steps back 'cuz that just means you're gonna jump 'bout 20 steps ahead!

A'ite well that's it from me for now, next time or some time soon when I actually get some time to sit down and write my soul away, perhaps a few season finale reviews? Or just a few show shoutouts! Hope all is going well with everyone, if not either hang in there or break the hell outta something. Once you're done doing that get yourself a nice big teddy bear to hug and a box of chocolates or take out to celebrate....celebrations work for both successes and failures. Apparently celebrating your failures is just as much fun as celebrating your successes, keeps you level headed and all of that. Besides, there's no greater trait in the world than having a good laugh at yourself, it sorta increases your tolerance to handle criticism and lets you get off of your high horse just a tad bit more gracefully instead of plopping right on to yer face. Cheers fer now peepz and have an awesome week/weekend ahead!



Ps:  I just got my hands on Tintin comeex so guess who's over the moon right now and all excited and fired up to read those :D...that's right me!! As well as some Superman comeex, there's nothing greater in the world than letting your imagination run wild and free and having the experience of a lifetime. Gotta luv 'em comeex!!!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

To say this week has been one with quite a few amusing occurences is anything short of amusing....Lets see while I was trying to jam pack my overly packed brain with yet more information

But strangeness and absurdity aside, moments of reflection are often our strongest moments and at times our most defining moments. In my case neither fits the bill today, but I did have a very interesting time reminiscing about High School and just the entire experience. High School was an exciting time for me, well I'd love to generalize and say school was an absolute awesome-tastic train ride...and while that may be true at times, it doesn't bring about the same level of excitement or nostalgia as High School does fer me. It probably is because HS
To say this week has been one with quite a few amusing occurences is anything short of amusing....Lets see while I was trying to jam pack my overly packed brain with yet more information

But strangeness and absurdity aside, moments of reflection are often our strongest moments and at times our most defining moments. In my case neither fits the bill today, but I did have a very interesting time reminiscing about High School and just the entire experience. High School was an exciting time for me, well I'd love to generalize and say school was an absolute awesome-tastic train ride...and while that may be true at times, it doesn't bring about the same level of excitement or nostalgia as High School does fer me. It probably is because HS
To say this week has been one with quite a few amusing occurences is anything short of amusing....Lets see while I was trying to jam pack my overly packed brain with yet more information

But strangeness and absurdity aside, moments of reflection are often our strongest moments and at times our most defining moments. In my case neither fits the bill today, but I did have a very interesting time reminiscing about High School and just the entire experience. High School was an exciting time for me, well I'd love to generalize and say school was an absolute awesome-tastic train ride...and while that may be true at times, it doesn't bring about the same level of excitement or nostalgia as High School does fer me. It probably is because HS
To say this week has been one with quite a few amusing occurences is anything short of amusing....Lets see while I was trying to jam pack my overly packed brain with yet more information

But strangeness and absurdity aside, moments of reflection are often our strongest moments and at times our most defining moments. In my case neither fits the bill today, but I did have a very interesting time reminiscing about High School and just the entire experience. High School was an exciting time for me, well I'd love to generalize and say school was an absolute awesome-tastic train ride...and while that may be true at times, it doesn't bring about the same level of excitement or nostalgia as High School does fer me. It probably is because HS
To say this week has been one with quite a few amusing occurences is anything short of amusing....Lets see while I was trying to jam pack my overly packed brain with yet more information