Monday, June 28, 2010

Poem Number 2

A Traveller's Ode

I stood still
Staring at the sky
Eyes wide open
Wondering why?
How far do I aim?
How far do I shoot?
How many miles do I
soar?
How fast should my wings
beat?
To speed up my flight?
How much further?
How much harder must I strive?
How many more times should
I be broken?
In spirit, body and mind?
How often should I
hold back the tears?
Bite back the fears?
Stop myself from tracing
back the years?
Coax myself that
Tomorrow it'll all be okay...
All be over?
While today has me reeling
and spinning.
Stuck in a place,
Caught up in a moment.
While those around me
Move along, like swirling
blurs.
Living their lives in
the metaphorical moment.
Free as kites,
Sailing, soaring high
Dancing to the whooshing
winds of freedom
Bending their limits,
Flexing their wills;
Breaking new grounds;
Obliterating boundaries and
Fulfilling untold destinies.
All this yearning,
For just a moment in time
To stop learning;
To start applying and commence
teaching
To stop learning 'bout life's
quests
And to start seeking out those
quests
And to start learning by
seeking
Are just a few things
This heart desires.
To live a life of experience
and chance;
To attain the wisdom of age
and time.
Is all this mind, body and
soul yearns for.
Not petty disputes,
Not unruly uncouths
Nor unfair yet harsh
truths.
Do I care to decipher,
Nor discern,
Nor set out to spurn.
For they like thorns
on roses;
Exist to prick us
Back to a reality,
Far from frivolity.
And remind us of them
Paths that lie ahead.
To awaken senses and our
consciences;
To hurdles so many,
And choices so few
And yet so tricky.
So beware fellow travellers
Be wise, be wary.
Of mirages that life presents
and time carries.
And may you have much
Success on this journey.

SJ (June 28, 2010)

Well that would be my 2nd online posting of a poem, and yes that's fresh off the to of my head so if it doesn't make sense eh well apologies, I just wrote it as it came to me. Lemme know what you think peepz and have yourselves an awesome day. Cheers!

Music and Masala

Well Music = the Masala in my life, sad? Nah not really :D...well I'm doing a trial run of songs for the "Ultimate Wedding Playlist"...okay that sounds about as grand as a balloon that pops, for some reason today I'm not in the mood for FIFA fever, in fact I'm in the mood for some foot tappin', soul shakin', ear drum resoundin' beats...and Yes I finally started the broda's playlist or else I'll be an example of the modern day Vlad the Impaler's victims :P...okay maybe not impale me but definitely put me in a headlock of sorts that would cause permanent painful reminders lol. Not that I don't have enough of those courtesy of broda, but hey what the hell might as well fill up the repertoire of unforgettable brodaisms. Think 'bout it I could write a pre-wedding memoir for him titled "Brodaism - A Way Of Life for the Older Sibling"

All said and done, while I do love my music it is the hardest thing to select for someone else 'cuz as you wonderful people know everyone has different tastes, now who the hell knows what my brother's taste in music is besides rock, heavy metal and more rock :|. And I'm not letting a lotta that play at the wedding, people are gonna sue us for emotional and mental trauma as well as auditory trauma :| ... looking back at this point in time I could sue him for all of that...muahahahahahaha...but that's okay he's getting married soon he'll get a taste of his own wonderful medicine...aah karma thou art such a biatch :P. Well sis in law to be gives him some and then some more :D, it brings such a huge ass smile to my face :D bahahahahahaha.

A'ite I'm digressin, so while this ickle energizer bunny is being fuelled by music cells I think I must try and get as much done as possible in terms of cleaning up or else I fear a boomerang or a spoon or something turning into a projectile and headed straight for my head, as aimed and fired by my mother dearest. Dad stays on the sidelines :P just so he doesn't end up in the dog house :P, well actually he's doing most of the running 'round for the wedding of the summer, the poor man keeps saying how he's pretty sure he never did as much running 'round for his wedding as he did for good ol' broda's. As D-Day approaches, tempers are gonna flare, ppl. are gonna transform into sticks of dynamite, ignite and FIREEEEE!!! I should prolly start preppin' a play list for that lol. And no amount of zen and me yielding my peaceful ways is gonna help.

A'ite so here's the deal with the music list, as of now I have a page of music on there, neone got ne suggestions toss it on here please? :D...According to my lovely mother I listen to sad songs, she thinks they're sad 'cuz they're slow :|. I tried reasoning with her and saying mummy it's semi classical and is really poetic, she tossed a face at me that said "Jeez kiddo, act your age not an 80 year old." Well when my mom turns 80 she's still gonna b the cool mom who jives, bops and busts out more dance moves to that generation/time's B.E.P, Lady Gaga, Usher, Shakira, Flo Rida and whoever else the next few generations are gonna come up with. Which reminds me I do have to add all of 'em onto that list or else she's gonna smack me over the topside of my head, which is quite sad, 'cuz at this rate apparently I don't need much to be smacked over the topside of my head. My broda does that 'cuz he thinks it's his birthright and he doesn't really need a reason to do so, which is absolute rubbish in my humble opinion. But then again like he would say my opinion does not count nor does it matter.

Right so this is as much masala as there possibly can be for the moment, time for energizer bunny to energize onto other things and conquer one room at a time and dominate the generation of sound waves in this house :D...BOOYAH! Cheers kids and stay safe and have a ridonculously awesome time doin' whatever you're doing. Adios, sayonara and au revoir for now.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Snippets

A'ite kids here's a special note, well I'd love to say author's note but this isn't a book...it could be if I wanted it to be :P, however I do digress from my point. Due to the growing hectic nature of upcoming events I won't be able to post as languidly, as lavishly and as frequently as I'd like to, so instead I'm tossing in something new to this mix. The posts are gonna resemble staccato notes, short, rapid bursts of words and that's 'bout the best I can do for the moment. Well yes while a good general number of the population are heaving sighs of relief at the thought of really short snips and snaps of random bursts of thoughts you'd all best be forewarned. The random nature of these posts will rise exponentially seeing as to how I won't have much time to write a lotta things so brace yerselves laddies and lassies

So here's the starter, why is it that when we go anywhere to discuss wedding things for my brother freaking people turn towards me and smile/laugh and go "Hahaha its your turn next and it'll be pretty soon." Now I can't exactly be rude to them and say sorry dude I guess you didn't get the card that said nah that's just not happening netime now or later...there is nothing called wedding/marriage on my cards, not for this lifetime. Why is it that they can't focus on the person whose wedding it is but instead they choose to focus on that which hasn't happened. Call it a business ploy but really they gotta watch it or else no business from my side, and by that I mean referrals for the friendzillas. For instance, last night the familia had our first family outing since my return, which by the way was fantabulously awesome :D and something everyone should indulge in often...its good for the heart and the soul :) and if you think your family is too dysfunctional to go have dinner with then I suggest you grab your best buddies and go have dinner and some dessert. It's time well spent and memories worth reliving time and again. So yeah, went to this Thai restaurant, spoke to the owner and were arranging things and she kept turning towards me, flashing one of those maternal smiles and telling my mother how lucky she is that she has a boy and a girl and all that other jazz and she kept throwing me those knowing maternal looks of 'Oh so you're next huh? You're getting married soon huh?' I had half a mind to turn around and flash a winning smile and say "Really? Didn't know I was getting married soon, if so can someone send me an invite to my own wedding?" And when I said 'No, not happening.' I got the same smile and the look of sorry the words you are beyond comprehension, in fact they do not even qualify for comprehension of any sort.

Right then kids, I gotta jet now, phase 2 of cleaning up this house...which apparently never seems to get cleaned despite efforts. Bollocks mate, this entire concept behind weddings and getting things set up for wedding = bollocks. If you're getting married please don't let the whole world know, its a tonne of work and unless you have your own personal slave to ensure everything gets done please don't expect EVERYTHING on your dream list to get done :|...chances are you might get 2 or 3 of those things done. Here's to the upcoming crunch week :|...mommy...time for some chai to fire up the senses. Cheers!

Thoughts a Million

Well I actually do have quite a bit on my mind today, I mean it's all jumbled up in terms of me wanting to present the few ten thoughts outta the gazillion. Well here's what's gonna go down, lots of thoughts churned out as a result of watching a movie...well okay usually when I watch a movie there's about two things that happen

1. The brain has the thought processes going in Overdrive where a lotta things that I think of or rather have shelved away come to the forefront and take a life of their own. Don't get me wrong I actually enjoy movies that make me go through those thoughts archived in the upper chamber.
2. Movies that just bore the crap outta me...and well these also can be further categorized into those movies whose scripts were novel and worth appreciating but failed to hold onto it's initial narrative and then there's the other kind that just plain sucks.

So while we're on movies, my strong recommendation in the Hindi department for this current moment is My Name Is Khan...All said and done its a beautiful movie, besides the performances...the word outstanding is an under-statement...it was just beautiful, the cinematography was fantastic, a majority of the narrative was fantastic, the pace and the tone of the movie is pretty much consistent all the way through. Oh and here's some definite FYI, once you're done watching the movie make sure you check out the deleted scenes, just so you know its available on a facebook page lol, yes I had to google it to find it. A few of the snippets from the deleted scenes give the movie some more flavour and makes it a lil' more wholesome. The entire story and script idea while not necessarily novel in the age and times we live in, was unique in it's own way. The basic story line is conveyed or rather plainly stated in it's popular tagline/dialogue --> "My name is Khan and I'm not a terrorist." When you hear such a line you go hmmmm what's this all about? Is it going to be over the top dramatic-ness? Is it going to be Anti-American? Or is it gonna be one of those "Oh man woe is us" kinda movies. The first few things that grab your attention in that promo include things like hmmm okay the main protagonist has a disability of sorts, then as the promo progresses the background score seems to be keeping up with the scenes being aired in the promo, in addition to that you see who the main protagonists are, you're informed it's a love story that includes a journey to meet the President of USA, you also find the story based on the backdrop of 9/11 and that's when I guess one stops and wonders, wait what kinda love story could you possibly have with 9/11 as a backdrop? Oh wait, one where the main guy is a terrorist and falls in love with a civilian and is responsible for coordinating terrorist attacks or is in charge of a terrorist cell or wait turns himself in because he's fallen in love and wants to be the best person he can be? Oh wait...but that's already been done, do the titles New York and Kurbaan come to mind? Then there's the other possibility where the main protagonist is one of the victims of 9/11 who is directly affected and may have lost loved ones and so is fighting for justice and he also happens to have a disability..hmm..there's another possibility. AND THEN while the wheels in your head are spinning you're presented with the last scene of the promo which comes after all the building up of the background score and after the crescendo..."My name is Khan and I'm not a terrorist" and it ends there followed by an emphatic silence. My reaction to that was "DAMN! I need to watch this movie now!" Well I could be biased :P, considering I'm such a fan of the ultimate trifecta that's ever come to the forefront in Indian cinema, that's right folks...well to the newbies, they would be the trio of Karan Johar, Kajol and Shahrukh Khan. Now shoot me for being such a huge fan of all three of 'em. Karan Johar has grown leaps and bounds from when he started off, and it's funny to note after watching this movie I had a sudden urge to watch Dilwale Dulhaniya Le Jaayenge just to see the transition of these three individuals. I mean besides going "Wow they were so young there." and stating the obvious, there's a certain maturity that's come along with the scripts and characterizations. K-Jo is now at the helm of a production company that has generated a wide variety of scripts ranging from Dostana to New York to Wake Up Sid and lets not forget his biggest blockbusters ranging from the evergreen Kucch Kucch Hota Hai to Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham to Kabhi Alvidaa Na Kehna - the movie where he started veering a lil' off the "Karan Johar candyfloss magnum opus flicks"...well at least script wise, costume and setting/set wise not really lol. Moving on to the actors, Kajol..I consider her to be one of the best in the movie bizz, one of my all time fav. movies of hers is Dushman...besides a brilliant soundtrack...her performance in that movie was spine chilling, volatile and bloody brilliant. There's just so much conviction and honesty that she puts into her role that for that moment you're enraptured and caught up in the movie you forget that it's only a fictional character, you actually believe that such a character exists which is really hard to find these days. And last but not the least there's SRK or Mr. Shahrukh Khan...I could write pages 'bout the reasons why I love this dude, but I'm gonna try and make this brief and short considering how this isn't a post 'bout him :P. Its not that he doesn't know how to act, each of his movies are different even though the characters he has played may seem to overlap each other there is an undertone of difference between those characters. Over the years I wouldn't say he has matured but every movie has nuances of him trying to break away from the standard set bars that a character can portray in said role in said story setting. Now while I do love watching his movies, my all time fav. SRK movies besides Kal Ho Naa Ho are; Swades and Chak De India...I guess now you can add MNIK to the list as well.

A'ite I'm gonna leave that at that or else it can get extremely tangential and the G-man knows where exactly that's gonna lead. Next on the agenda is this odd sense of not accomplishing anything thus far in life. I look around and I see friends of mine working, setting up RRSP's, accomplishing their dreams and getting close to presenting and projecting all those ideas their thought factories used to churn out during our younger years onto a much bigger platform....and it makes me proud to see how far they've come, but, at the same time it makes me take a step back and ask myself so what have you done lately? or, how far have you come kiddo? 'Cuz the last time I checked I feel like I'm in the exact same spot I've been for a while with the only difference being a change in my settings and a very marked physical difference in terms of growth in things around me. Heck even my rose bushes seem to have grown quite a bit. Anyway, I'm gonna sign off on this note just and re-address this topic some other time, for now I gotta go take care of a few things, today's a relatively big day as far as FIFA fever is concerned, so I just wanna go do some work before the play and fun starts :D. Take care peepz and I hope all is well with all of you!! Much love and best wishes, cheers!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Moments

So here's what's got my thought factory churning...Law and Order...now that's a show that never fails to stimulate the thought factory in my head. And bravo for lasting almost 2 decades, isn't that a fantabulous feat? I mean the cases they present in all the avataars of Law & Order. My favourite Law & Order series though is the SVU series, every time I watch an episode from that show it leaves me feeling a whole gamut of emotions...it shows a side of humanity that a lotta us choose to ignore because we tend to live in that sorta environment/world where if it doesn't happen to us or those around us then it doesn't exist. But the problem is we don't know anything and everything about anybody and I doubt we ever will. I think it's humanly impossible to know just about everything about someone, heck people don't know everything about their own selves how the hell would they know everything 'bout anyone else?

People who claim and tend to be slotted as the world's worst liars often tend to be the best Fort Knoxes one could ever come across or okay maybe they just think they are and the whole world knows they've got something murky lurking under there :P. Now that would make for an interesting flick :P, doing a first person perspective of someone who walks 'round like Atlas, bearing the weight of the world or rather feeling that way due to past instances and incidents that may have affected, impacted and perhaps changed their lives in a way that one would consider to be unimaginable. It should be a split screen movie where on the one hand you see the scene from the main protagonist's point of view and on the other screen you see it from the point of view of those around them. Sorry folks, this is 'bout as creative as I can get after dinner, which, btw was pretty dang good...considerin' the fact my mata-shri found a Malaysian restaurant in downtown, which I know musta rocked her socks lol. If there's anything that will get me mum all googly eyed, delighted, ecstatic and absolutely over the moon...it would be Malaysian cuisine and pretty much anything pertaining to Malaysia. The way to that gorgeous woman's heart is via Malaysia :P...

On other notes I would like to say that as of yesterday, I noticed that I had crossed the 30 blogs mark and dang that's an accomplishment all by it's lonesome self :P..yyaaayyyy me, and to celebrate this particular milestone in my current blogging career I'm gonna go glug down 4 glasses of water, apparently I'm really dehydrated these days. And following that I'm gonna treat myself to a movie that I've been waiting to watch for ages to the extent that I actually gave up the opportunity of watching it on the big screen back @ school and I absolutely and completely refused to watch it online. I saw the promos for this movie back in December, the movie came out in February and dang to hold off all this time sure as hell is a lesson in patience and tolerance. And watching the movie with mommy is gonna be an even more exciting time seeing how my mother loves taking so many commercial breaks while watching a movie, the whole concept of Intermissions was designed keeping people like my mother in mind, which I must say is bloody efficient and considerate.

Anyhow peepz, jus' curious does anybody over here have any decent suggestions for a good book/books to read? I do know the book at the top of my list is "Fountainhead" well besides "The Alchemist" and tons of graphic novels n comeex, 'cuz c'mon we all know how comeex deprived I am. At least for now there's FIFA fever and Wedding schnazz to keep me preoccupied, occupied and beezee for the next lil' bit but c'mon you know a thriving, living and growing organism needs it's brain food :D i.e. fun and entertainment and what b8r way to do so than to free your mind and imagination righto? :D.

Well today's FIFA fever updates, well nothing too exciting happening in terms of football for me today, I mean those matches weren't really attention grabbing for me, but that's just me. Though, I must say that the German jerseys looked pretty wicked...I mean black n gold? Looked pretty darn good and it was an interesting contrast, it was almost like watching a game of chess in motion though with a different timed, tactical, defensive, offensive and striking moves/positions. Well maybe a mini and racy form of chess and a much more fascinating form mind you, couple that with a few mexican waves, hungry for fun crowd and vuvuzela's galore and a tonne of team spirit and face paint.

You know what's troubling me lately, and yes I'm gonna end off on this note, one of my serious pet peeves = discrimination, be it subtle or obvious. We've all heard from history, from ancestors, from relatives...mostly on the basis of the colour of one's skin and all that, but I'm tapping into the other kind of discrimination that comes with age, religion, sects, gender...its just ridiculous, somehow I find that we human beings always seem to have a constant need to compartmentalize ourselves into more distinct groups, into more distinct distinctions...my question is Why? Why do we have to separate and segregate ourselves? Don't we all have the same needs, urges, tastes, habits and attributes? Okay granted there is a difference when it comes to psychopaths and sociopaths but at the core of it all, aren't we all the bloody same? Variety and difference should not be treated as that which bestows upon us the right to assume the superiority complex...I mean that's just bollocks 'en it, to don that blasted complex upon yourself 'cuz you think you're better than it all and than them all? I ask these questions not only because I've observed what humanity can do and does, but also because I've experienced it and its my way of questioning myself as to why the hell I would do something like that. I would like to believe that I believe in an all equal and all fair world but it would just be plain ignorant and stupid on my part to say that I don't have my moments where I absolutely slot the world into categories and point my finger and attribute people and incidents to that stereotypical slot/group that we all have generously and knowingly created and carry forward with us from generation to generation. We're in a century and a position to orchestrate ramifications in the thought processes of our current generation and our future generation, lets try and break that God awful chain of stereotyping shall we?

Well that's my cue to wrap things up, more on the discrimination topic tomorrow folks. Here's to a friendly future and to a wonderful day. Cheers and best wishes to all.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Refresher Reviews

Well Allo Allo everybody..hmm..on a side note I think I wanna watch a few episodes of Allo Allo, not sure if I will though, considering how I have such a short attention span. Well sorry about the short messages, okay I know a few people reading this who aren't sorry that they're short :P..yes you know who you are.

Okay apparently there's this thing called the North America Cup that is a horse racing event, here's the thing about this event, it looks like Ben Hur's ever famous chariot race scene came alive. Well okay no there's not exactly chariots, they look like a hybrid between a chariot and something like a jet ski :| ...it looks cool but yeah...that's about it.

Anyhoo, here I am on I guess Day 2 or 3 of wedding schnazz ...and yes it is schnazz 'cuz looking incessantly through a gazillion sites and a gazillion other minor details with the help of Google makes me feel like a walking, talking wedding magazine. Okay fine I guess I'm the unedited, unphoto-shopped version of those magazines. But dang the person least interested in colour schemes, patterns and so on and so forth ended up with quite the task. Oh well I guess this is a time for discovery :P, I mean who knows how my colour collab. will turn out :P, as long as it doesn't turn out to be the United Colours of Benetton or the combined 32 flavours of Baskin Robbins I'll be fine. And hey if it turns out that way then I can just shrug my shoulders and say "Hey it was your call, I did warn you." :P...see such simple responses to complex problems.

Well one of the many things I'm happy about at this point in time is the fact that i can get into FIFA fever mode and unleash some football passion in there. Oh man La Albiceleste was beyond magnificent today :D..aaaahhh!!! the blue and white stripeys were beyond amazing today!!!! Go El Diego's boys! Even though it wasn't the main squad that was playing today, they sure as hell showed their aggressive, tactical and attacking skills and Lionel Messi was beyond brilliant with his footwork, passes and shots on goal, though its unfortunate how he hasn't started chalking up the goals on his score-sheet yet. Soon I guess, well at least I hope the goals start raining in soon :). Well on that note I would also like to say that Greece's goal-keeping was wonderful, their goal-keeper was just exemplary today. Well he still has time to hone his skills and maybe one day his name might join that goalies league led by the likes of Oliver Kahn This brings me to the match between South Africa and France...now...what the hell was that from France? I haven't seen such a disappointing performance, I mean you know you've been in the news for your conduct both on the field and off the field you would think that in your last bloody game you would put up a decent fight or have one of those final bruhaha moment before you bid adieu and au revoir. But damn yeah did they deserve the ass kicking they got from South Africa and bravo to the Proteas for such an AMAZING performance in today's game.

Anyhow kids, I'm gonna peace out for now, must sleep or else my mom is gonna bonk my head with the remote control. Peace out and stay tuned for more rambles and drabbles later. Cheers!

Monday, June 21, 2010

The Return

haha, this sounds so ominous and comic book/movie adaptation like and has such a dramatic undercurrent to it :P, but then again we know how magnetic the term drama tends to be with me.

Okay since I'm typing this while watching one of the football/soccer games I just hate it when commentators keep yapping about how a team's awesome player has lost his touch 'cuz he hasn't been scoring as consistently as he used to...I mean really? The dude is human and everybody has a down moment before they come back up and then there are idiotic comments like "Oh he hit that ball so far behind the goal post that it's headed for the Atlantic Ocean which isn't located too far from this stadium." Again...really? What the hell, nobody asked for stupid hyperboles. Anyway, all that aside, I'd just like to say it's good to get back here and get back to the way of things as I wanted them to be.

On other notes it is beyond fantastic, well fantastic is an understatement, divine is more or less the term I guess I'm looking for. At least now I can get into the FIFA fever now without having to worry about exams or tests or any other sorta akademik commitment. The greatest moment of this entire first year journey has been this moment to get home and finally be with family and with familiarity. The journey back home felt like the ultimate last lap to everything that's been an adventure these past few months. Well besides that, welcome to Phase 2 of a new adventure, only this one is called the "Wedding Bells series...A Limited Edition Series." Here is where I'd like to say ahead of time, that the experience from the Wedding series does not make me a bonafide wedding planner...I repeat DOES NOT maketh me a wedding planner. Ideas I can help with, planning...well not quite my forte, imagine if it was then my life would be quite different from what it is 'en it? But oh well, this should be a fun and interesting experience huh.

Well I do have a ton of things to go over, however, at this current point in time my memory fails to hit the play button or rather is too lazy to hit the play button, its currently on "Chill Out" mode, which in turn reminds me of a version of a song I really really reallllyyy and thoroughly love listening to. However, it has been a few days since I listened to the song, well actually my brain is too confused and lethargic to send signals to listen to things lol. I'm sure eventually things will pick up, neurons shall be firing and action potentials shall be amplifying. A'ite kids, tune in later and perhaps I shall be more clikkity clakkity with the keyboard. Good luck with whatever you're doing and I hope you guys are taking the time to breathe, rest and relax those mental channels and channeling the inner you to do whatever it is that you wanna do :). Cheers peepz and have fun!

Songs of the Day:

Song: Bahara (Chill Version)
OST: I Hate Love Storys
Release Date: Circa, 2010

Song: Waka Waka
Artist/Band: Shakira ft. Freshlyground
Album/Soundtrack: Official 2010 World Cup Song
Release Date: Circa, 2010

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Intermission

You know I just realized, this is the 2nd one in a row with a title that starts with an I, well I'm not pulling a K-Jo that's for sure, if I was then all them titles would start with a K. None the less as always the one thing that I can say for sure that's a constant with me is my ability to digress, so lemme get to the point and make your lives a lil' less confusing than the confusion that it already is. Well I decided I'd finally post up one of my poems on here, I'm a lil' skeptical 'bout posting my stuff, well no silly not my opinions that I'm very liberal 'bout posting :P, but my personal written work eh I'm just a tad skeptical, there's that whole plagiarism thing that looms about....Anywhoo, please do check it out and do leave some feedback, I personally am of the belief that my poetry skills with time have depreciated severely but hey everyone is entitled to their own opinion right? Well have fun reading, and if you don't have fun remember the following words.."It was a choice you weren't forced into reading it." :P. A'ite peepz, good luck with everything you're all dealing with at the moment and I hope you all is going well with you guys. Until next time...cheers!

The Downpour

The drops of rain,
Outside falling;
Matching the beats of
my heart,
Beating together,
Beating fast
Tip tip...dlub dlub...
Hand in hand,
Beat to beat,
In synchronicity,
Between thoughts so
many;
Yet so far apart.
Thoughts of reality,
Thoughts of what the
heart sometimes wants;
Thoughts living an
alternate yet parallel
life,
Alongside this current
realm of existence
I thrive in.
Thoughts questioning,
The actions and intentions
of humankind.
Thoughts of betrayal,
Thoughts of how time,
love, conviction and naivety;
Made me the fool,
And mocked my values.
Thoughts and doubts,
Of how the current journey
I'm embarking,
The current path I'm
walking,
Shall bring me any closer
to my visions?
The visions that fuel
my drive;
Visions that have been
labeled foolish by some,
Idealistic by some more,
And that leave most others
speechless.
But not out of awe or
wonder,
But out of uncertainty
and doubt.
Visions which to me,
Are my lifeline;
Are the balms to my wounds.
The comfort to crippling
memories.
The mirror whose reflection,
Can fix someone as broken
as me.
My beacon, my lighthouse,
My watchtower;
That steers me through
stormy and dreary times.
All these thoughts,
And then some;
Dancing...pulsing fiercely,
And passionately.
Keeping pace and tempo to
The beats of my heart.
Faster and faster,
Till they explode;
Thoughts spinning,
Mind reeling.
Slower and slower,
Like gentle breezes,
And tame waves.
Licking and lapping
playfully,
At everything within
it's grasp.
Like the gentle tapping
Of those rain drops.
Against tiles, windows,
And broken souls.
Seeping with life,
comfort and
A message of peace,
And reassurance.
So brief...yet so strong;
So powerful and so
full of clarity,
That it makes the
Journey looming ahead,
Seem less dreary,
Less daunting, less scary,
less gloomy.
Allowing it to be instead,
A journey more endearing,
More adventurous, worthwhile
and enlightening;
Than any traveled before.

SJ (June 1, 2010)

Well I did write it day before yesterday lol. A'ite folks, well there's my few cents of whatever it is that I have up there. Peace out, stay safe and do yourselves a favor and have fun!